#BlogLife1165 - Trying to help myself..

I tried the Coco Di Mama mozzarella pesto chicken, hmm very bready, so the filling was not bountiful enough.

Bit dry. It was ok but it needed more chicken and I wouldn't buy it again.

I keep losing sleep because of stress but I know what to do in December, I have to fight for myself.

Pay the rent letter amount and if they question Why I don't pay (the scammer) extra amount..

I'll say, take the excess from my credit as I should have ample in there, if the so called rent was £591 yet I was charged £668 every month, simple.

Then if they reply, you have no credit. Why not, where did it go? Also that I can barely afford food.

That they will have to send a revised letter that I can show uc and then they will give me that much more to pay you.

Now that I have a plan. Cripes I hate confrontations, I do feel better..

All this time, they've been taking advantage of me and profiting their own pockets and now I can't afford jack.

Plus uc isn't paying me enough for food or bills.

Anyway I will keep the shopping to a minimum, some type of bread and fillings only.

I don't really need anything else apart from saline, maybe just one bottle at a time..

That seeded bagel is really tasty, certainly elevates it. I can get eggs, beans, turkey rashers, maybe fish too.

Forget the pedicure or eyebrow shape.

£256.15 is my bank balance.

£116 tax - 28 nov

£58 water - 20th nov

£15.45 tv - 15th nov

£57 edf - 12 nov

It totals £246.45 so £10 for food for a month, ridiculous but at least I won't be overdrawn.

Next month will be better because I'm not paying £100 extra rent that the customer service workers are skimming off the top.

Time to go shopping. I was dreading calculating that.

I'm back now and managed to locate some funds so bought tissues and food.

I'm so silly. I saw the taziki sandwich filler and convinced myself it should have had chicken, Oh wait, maybe there is 2 versions..

Or did I add chicken myself? My brain is fried. At least my hands have stopped burning.

Yesterday the pain was awful. I've got snacks and food, not much on sale but that should last a bit.

For some reason the olives were very expensive. £4 I think, forget that...

I wish they had, fish fingers, beans, eggs, waffles or fries or hash browns but it was not much to choose from.

I didn't see any tinned fish, unless I missed it. I forgot to buy butter. Oh and I would have got the cod fish cakes but it slipped my mind.

Every once in a while I love chocolate coconut macaroons. Not a huge coconut fan but that appeals.

Oh and I wanted something different. I think I picked it up, mango and lime chicken, not excited about the mango but maybe the lime is nice.

I wanted to vary it all, so I don't get bored and I still have chilli jam to kick things up.

I don't get it, I didn't use the leave in conditioner and my hair is still crisp, not smooth.

Oh started on the new face wash. Got to look up the name. Smells very fruity and fun.

BeautyDept Jelly cleanser. It does leave my skin soft and I much prefer it over the Simple brand.

This cost £1.25 I think and the Simple is £3.50, with no fragrance and not helpful for my complexion.

It doesn't lather sadly, but my face felt very smooth after. It's invisible, really hard to see.

But I'm enjoying it so far. Oh I missed a call from the Connect scheme people again..

So I texted back to say I'm free. I have to get it over and done with and hope I don't have to go in yet.