Today is freezing. I thought the heating was on but no, I didn't set it high enough to turn on.
Usually I get up without the contact lens and just guess. I mean it's pressed up a zillion times, surely that's enough..
The blankie is taking it's sweet time to warm up too. Sipping hot soup would be nice now, although, not really hungry or thirsty.
Oh crap got to do the Iceland order. Although Sainsbury's emailed and said they are doing 50p slots..
Nope didn't see any. Strange Iceland has finally gotten onboard with telling you an item is out of stock...
Unfortunately they don't tell you which item, which is useless to me.
Maybe when I checkout. Ugh I think it's the face wash, which I really need.
Ugh no they don't tell me. I am totally confused. The message disappeared.
Does this mean they've restocked? I don't even know which spare item to get??!!
Anyway back to the title...
I keep making decisions and backtracking wondering if this is the best thing for me to do or say?
I hate it because I'm usually not impulsive. I would have thought about it and weighed the options prior to acting on it..
So why does it still concern me whether it's right or not?
I'm not perfect or an expert on life. I'm always just struggling through it and trying to make the best of a bad situation.
I think about the short term and long term repercussions of it.
And still when it's done, I'll fret and think.. Hmm but was there a different way to do it?
A better way? Should I have spent more time evaluating all my options more carefully?
Was I too rash? Am I being foolish or irresponsible?
I wish I could just think... You know what? That was a good outcome. I'm glad I did it that way.
It worked out well and I'm pleased. If I had make that other move, it may not have turned out this great.
But I don't. I keep over analysing it.. Until it just comes to a head and then I resign myself to the ending.
Well I have progressed now and I was unsure but I did it anyway..
Who knows if that was the proper result? Would I do it differently next time?
I've no idea! I can just change my opinion in the moment. It might depend on external factors or how frazzled I am.
Sometimes I want it over and done with. I don't want to obsess about it any longer.
