I am frozen still waiting for the heating to kick back on and the blankie.
Had the idiotic UC appointment and maybe he assumed I had seen the specialist cv person as he said Oh yea your cv is fine, such bs.
I knew there was nothing wrong with it, proof they spout nonsense to give you pointless things to do.
Then he said, prove that you're applying by uploading applications, that's easy enough but suddenly my word isn't good enough and all the journal uploads I do.
Can't wait for the Christmas break next month. I was in a weird mood, the lil Tesco is back open but I had no appetite for anything so didn't bother.
Then decided to punish my body and walked down to get the £8 eyebrow shape, felt so much better after.
Then I walked even further and just went ahead to go and get the pedicure, 2x massages, scrub and cream, the chair massage was great actually.
By that time, my whole body was in a state of seizing up and tiredness.
But it needed to be done and because time was getting on, I didn't bother get the fish and chips or the pakoras or gulabs, jalebis or ladoos.
I knew even though my body was doing well to control the pain, it was gonna hit me..
I was unlucky with not getting a seat on the buses, so that didn't help.
Suddenly waves of dizziness and nausea were hitting me, felt better when I got home, had water, kept playing the anti nausea and I'm recovered somewhat now.
I got kfc because I was empty and walking was hurting too badly.
I can't stop yawning but it's way too early to sleep. I took my makeup off but might wash my face again before bed incase the makeup is still lingering.
I'm coming up to BlogLife 1k which is quite an achievement for me.
I should do something special for that. I don't have the energy to think right now.
Music definitely helped me today, kept my spirits up. I had some triggers that could have caused a panic attack.
But I managed to keep calm.
What could I do? A Q&A? A new story? I should be original...
I have no clue. I guess it still surprises me that people around the world are still invested about hearing about my life.
I'm very ordinary and if I didn't come up with BookLife and BlogLife and AgonyLife, this blog would have ceased to continue.
I just felt empty, not creative and inspired. I was grasping for something to hit me.
I'll try to make it special. I can't say if it will be this year or next. I have too much on my mind..
