#BlogLife992 - Bad truffle

Oops I don't think the truffles I bought for Mama were well received...

She said they were ok, really hard shell but soft centre. I got to look up the name so I don't buy them again.

I thought they would be softer like ferreros. Cocoa Loco, that was it, pricey too.

Oh well, I'm not sweating it, as I got her Divine and fudge so, it's not all bad.

That's why it's good to buy a bunch of things and hedge your bets, plus she's fussy and hard to please so at least with old favourites, she's happy.

Actually I have to ask her if she liked the Divine bar.

Anyway a funny exhausting day, I was fighting with the roll of bin liner sacks as they were stuck together and for half an hour, I could not pry them apart.

I swear this roll is thinner, eventually it ripped and I just tore off a new one.

I could not stop craving chocolate, it could be hormone related, around this time, it's what I go for.

I was looking for Black Magic chocolates, a dark mix of varied fillings but no joy.

In the end I was going to get some sandwiches and a drink, forgot about the drink, and because it's Bank Holidays, off course no daily sandwiches are brought in.

So that was a bust, I got some beef bolognese and a cheese burger.

Plus...... Crisps, although 1x was sold out. Oh and I saw chicken spring rolls, but they sent me veggy ones, so I asked for a refund and I got it.

But the main goodies were Cadbury Bournville hazelnut bar £2.25 100g.

I don't think I've tried that. I think that is a hot chocolate brand..

Also M&M's £2.30 for a 112g bag and finally Quality Street 550g which I expected to be tiny somehow..

And ended up as a huge box for £5.45, it was the cheapest box I could find ha.

Why did I order so many chocolates? I wanted to make sure at least one was in stock.

They don't tell you until after you've ordered, when they are preparing it.

All that will last ages because my appetite isn't fully back but I can pick at bits and pieces and not have to do a major shop.

Although at some point, I will need bins ha.

I know this is calorific and everyone who struggles with their weight battles with indulgence.

Should I? Shouldn't I? Family, friends, colleagues all nagging you to relax and just eat whatever recklessly..

And you might do it and feel guilty afterwards.. Or you might say, Look I can justify it because I'm exercising and generally being careful most of the time so I can afford to treat myself.

There isn't really a right or wrong path. What I've personally learned is continued binging doesn't suit me.

Starving myself isn't healthy but having occasional treats here and there, lessens the intense cravings.

Aside from when I'm bloating and cannot tell if I am hungry or full..

It took me getting out of my head, trying to dictate myself, what I'm supposed to do....

Versus, what is the normal and doable thing because now I can have a big or small meal..

Have snacks, good or bad ones and still maintain continued weightloss, which way back when I started, seemed impossible.

I felt like no matter what I did, I put on the pounds and stones and it's frustrating and disheartening, to keep trying your best and failing at it.

Everyone has to figure out what will help them, some join slimming clubs and the support of doing it with others or sharing struggles or tips, can be beneficial.

I thought about it, but paying for something like that, to be embarrassed or shamed, was not my cup of tea.

I don't really know what finally spurred me into action really. I think I was just unhappy generally and wanted to wear cute clothes in a smaller size and have the ability to walk into any store, see my size and think yea....

That will suit me. I did a bunch of pointless things and then found my routine.

What could I do without? What is a smarter choice? Maybe late night munching isn't good for me..

Hmm I didn't mean to get so rambly. I'm quite pleased Asda and Sainsbury found my address without me having to go outside.

Asda handed me the stuff in their own proper plastic bag. I love that, normally it's paper or thin bags, but this is a sturdy reusable one.

I'll let you know when I try it, what I thought of the Cadbury bar.

I know it's Friday and a Bank Holiday, I feel like I should be doing something lol.

Oh darn it. That's the thing I really wanted, nuts, specifically almonds and cashews, love those and I forgot, Oh well..