Twit! It's literally annoying me that they are so incompetent they don't see suitable vacancies and assume nothing is available but I do find them, luckily I get rejected though :)
He literally said to me, there isn't any remote/work from home positions and I argued and said Yes there is, I've seen them.
That's why he bullied me into applying for the coding crap course, when I wasn't interested.
Also he said Oh I can refer you to some jobs I've seen but they are in person.
Why the fuck does being long term ill, present such an issue? Like I said, they want me to pretend I'm fine and not in intense physical pain.
Fuckers!!! At least my former advisor understood my limitations, she knew how sick I was, knew I couldn't deal with travelling every day and the physical demands of a work placement.
I go out for an hour or even less and by the time I get home I am shattered, my body has locked up, the pain, the stiffness is spreading and I have zero energy.
What am I, faking for the bloody attention?? In one way, I hope they force me to accept a position and on that first day, I will fall apart completely.
The pain will kill me, I will bawl my eyes out, trying to walk, trying to lift, trying to sit still, trying to stand and I'll beg them to let me go home and quit because I won't be able to function, at all.
In fact I'll be shaking so badly, I'll struggle to get to the bus stop and get myself home.
But I have to pretend I'm okay, all the flipping time, because I'm never taken seriously as a sick, disabled person with limitations.
Ooh those chocolates I bought are fancy. It's not like ferreros, it's truffles with this crispy crunchy inside, pretty nice and of course hazelnuts, so will bring some for Mama and her friend next week.
I'm so tired but have washed off the makeup and got the blankie, so that helps.
Plus I shoved the food in the fridge, I wasn't up to eating a lot. The cashier was asking me about the lemon cake if I've tried it, but I haven't, it was £3.
It does look similar to the chocolate iced coffee cake one and that was sublime.
Unfortunately as I've said, I don't have the munchies so maybe tomorrow when I feel calmer.
I'm just going to message the UC idiot again and get it over and done with, there's no way he can claim not to receive this message.
FFS! I did it, wrote it on email and copied and pasted it and it did deliver as I saw it on my timeline.
I'm sure they'll say it's not our concern, just because each month your £200/£300 over budget, use up your damn savings then come crying to us.
Anyway, the cake is similar to the coffee one, lovely soft sponge and thick tasty icing which isn't too sweet just very tasty.
The stress is getting too much so I'm escaping in my head pretending everything is hunky dory and that I'm in a relationship where I'm supported and looked after and I don't have the same burdens as I do now.
It's way easier to live in la la land. I have leftovers for breakfast actually it's lunchtime now.
My body needed the rest so that's good.
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