#BlogLife926 - Wound too tight perhaps/First chats on 7 Cups

Ha I just blew up at one of the randoms. He was attempting to do that therapy/analyse/fix me thing, that I despise..

Aww have you been heartbroken? Are you afraid? So I said No, it's neither of those I just prefer to avoid it all.

Then he said Do you pick bad ones? Ooh I lost it, I think all the stress got to me and I snapped and blocked him.

I said Why is it always a woman's fault? Only a man would say that.

Men take no responsibility for their actions. It's like saying, Hey you SS, chicky..

The reason dating is unsuccessful is because you know they are bad and therefore it's on you.

There's no way I would go into the actual reasons, self esteem issues, lack of body confidence, past history mistreatments..

To be honest he was a fluff random, not much substance to him. I much prefer P even though we're the tiniest bit distant with each other.

Maybe he has something on his mind too.. I don't like that idea of some guy playing superhero..

I'm here to save you SS, To make you acceptable to date me. To make you better, the way only I can.

Ughhhh yuckity ick! That's the way it comes across to me with some randoms.

Ok back to volunteering. I told myself this week I would begin and Oh crikey did I....

As from the last time I won't go into detail, I will just mention it from my experience as a Listener.

The first chat was intense, thankfully they have a referral button which makes it easier than googlying helplines and websites.

Deep breath, chat two verged on the inappropriate but I was given a heads up before the details and I exited gracefully.

The third one was more my speed. Once I got into it, I knew what to say, what to ask, what to prompt.

Fine, but an hour and a half later I was hungry and burnt out and I realise it was repeating itself.

I wasn't sure how to break that cycle, no matter how I steered it, the same thing.

So eventually I thought, it's time to go, I apologised and said I need to eat, which was the truth, it's nearly 3pm with no meals.

They were understanding, hopefully they didn't feel slighted. I would never ask for a review, I'm curious if I got one.

However it seemed like no time frame would have satisfied, their need to talk, which is my problem as I indulge.

They did give me a compliment though, seemed like I helped, so that's good.

Also the worry is, anyone can message you, or maybe they have to be a member with subjects that are not to your taste.

It's a lot disturbing you can ignore a chat request but yes they can private message you anyway...

Not a good feature at all. It's very sloppily hit and miss with the features.

At least there is a report and block function, haven't used it yet, tempted though.

Plus I'm cringing at the male requests that persistently requesting me personally..

I have a bad gut feeling on those. I avoided completely. What's nice is unlike HearMe, I didn't experience any problems.

All chats once I worked it out were at the bottom of the page, seemed to be picked up really quickly by others.

People aren't waiting for ages but I still apologised anyway. I guess my issue is, the lines are blurred.

With members and Listener staff in the same place, you can't really open up and be vague when they can read it.

Not ideal, there should be a distinction, a boundary in place.

For the Listener side of things, mingling is encouraged, that part I like, mostly a sweet atmosphere, noone feels rejected or unwelcome from what I've seen..

So far, the good outweighs the bad, I just have to be stricter with my time.

As I don't feel like taking on anymore chats or responding to messages.