#BlogLife937 - Bad hair day

I have to leave in just under an hour for the 15 minute UC cv appointment which could easily have been conducted over the phone.

Probably an hour or so travelling both ways and walking half. I'm not looking forward to it, especially yesterday having started the monthly.

I was hoping to skip this month, with all the stressiness. I don't feel bloated as such, mind you, I've hardly been eating or drinking so that might be why..

There is a bit of nausea and still haven't deal with the course business.

I hoped it would be interesting but it's focused on the technical side, the teachings of Freud and less on the people side..

Maybe the customer care one, would have been smoother? Tomorrow the cleaners are due, which is another thing to dread.

I don't know how scammy or unfriendly or judgy they will be. I don't know if I'll be let down with an unfinished job and money paid for incompletion?

I don't know, if they'll try and coerce me into paying more money or if they will ask me to leave the room, while they clean?

Will they do the basics or go that extra mile? Will they clock watch and leave early?

It's just going around in my head, all this uncertainty. Never feeling reassured or relaxed.

I did the hair oil, gave myself a mini scalp massage and realised oops, there was only a tiny bit of shampoo left, arghh, wanted to do a few rinses to get the oil out.

It's not bad. It's just not styling nicely today, bits are sticking up and it might rain today so I'm not bothered.

I've done my makeup, although I couldn't see a thing, it seems overcast.

Although I don't have much of an appetite, the only thing I'm craving is the eggy chicken baguette from Pret but it sells out too fast, before 10ish and I'm not ready that early.

I wish they would anticipate the demand and do extra. Not everyone orders a sandwich at 9am!!

I don't know if I'll go to Asda or there is a sushi kiosk but it's the stopping and standing, that's when the tiredness hits me, or could be the pain.

That's why I don't like stopping. I feel like I will sit and not get up for an hour.

Hmm half an hour left and I have a bunch of volunteer chats to get back too.

I'm not sure any of them appeal but I'll try my best. I want to scream help yourself for your long term happiness but I can't.

Should I layer up? It's cold but I have lots of walking.. I think I'll wear something warm but not layer and risk getting rained on.

The weather was crazy, raining, windy, then hot sun. It's nearly 3.30pm and from a 2pm mini appointment, I am just home now.

I just missed a bus, the next one wasn't the usual 10 minutes, nope...... 30mins, ugh.

She mentioned nothing about the CV except is it updated and I should have left it instead put my foot in it and said he didn't send the upload link ugh, could have stretched that out.

It's done anyway to be frank, not to his standards because he's a dick but so be it.

I saw a stall that I hadn't noticed, selling chicken samosas, spring rolls and even pakoras.

Oh and kebabs, but for some reason I only wanted the samosas, that were sadly sold out, so I got the spring rolls.

5x £3 I didn't mind paying, not huge, not tiny, medium. Lil bit bland but it was okay.

I forgot by the time I got home, it would lose the crunch. I got sushi, oh that other place didn't have avocado so I didn't bother.

Plus I got a double discount so it was half price, leftovers tomorrow.

It's too late to get a sandwich, which was my preference and I was too tired to go to Asda.

I was supposed to take out the bins too and good gracious, the idiot bin men, didn't empty ours.

I swear they did the neighbourhood and not ours, I heard them twice, what the hell, nitwits!!

I can't move and doubt I have the energy for volunteering, I was hoping it wouldn't be a long day but cripes, I'm done.