#BlogLife94 - Unfinished business

I've been thinking about what my next steps should be. What I do now realise is that having time for myself again makes a huge difference to my mood and I missed that.

I just need to find a balance. I really don't think I want to be an official mentor and listen to the same thing over and over again. I don't want to start the volunteer program again and be pressured into taking a set number daily either.

What I think I want to do is ease back into volunteering but be more rigid with my time, instead of being flexible where I stay and get completely mentally exhausted..

I reckon I will enforce a time limit where I can be transparent and not feel guilty anymore. I just always get to the point where I feel locked in and obligated to eat up my time and I'm not happy.

I would rather just be strict, the problem with that is, in a way, I will still be stuck, if the chat is taxing. I have spent hours before and that doesn't leave me with time to do things I enjoy.

I neglect myself and my needs and cater to others and I don't want to do that anymore. I'm going to calculate my total number of chats and write my summary and then that will done.

After that I can casually start back with the volunteer chats and only with the ones that I feel comfortable with, plus if I do it on a variety of topics that should mix it up.

It took me a long time but at least now I have a plan. I've avoided socialising with the fellow members because I didn't want to get sucked back in before I was really ready.

Others have this figured out but I didn't. I know that for me to be creative, stress has to step aside and I can't be drained so if everything can co-exist together, I will be happy and content.