#BlogLife897 - Humidity and insomnia do not mix

It was such a horrid night because of the heat and humidity and I couldn't get comfy for some reason and I was shattered from being out.

Took me hours, hence the late start. I feel like buying a new fan just for nighttime but then I'm scared, it will fall on the floor again and smash to pieces.

If you're wondering the three sarcastic insulting questions the DWP asked? As I'm pleased that I'm documenting everything on the blog..

These are what is was.......

Q1. Explain why you couldn't send us Paypal statements, asked and answered multiple times. 

I quoted the Paypal representatives exact answers and that I already sent in balance affecting and all transactions reports and that they said I requested it multiples times yet would turn out the same way.

The level of spite is astounding, lawyers would have a field day with a harassment case.

Like I've said before there is no reason why that isn't good enough, just because your arse is too lazy to go through the 100+ pages?

The information you seek is still there Twit!

Q2. What did you spend your entire heritance on when you moved in, furniture wise? Seriously are you stupid?

Who would spend it all on that? It was Hotel bills, takeout, previous tenants arrears, flooring, blinds, rent, utilities, groceries, furniture, cleaners, cab fares, over years and years.

I should also have added the Landlord's peculiar demands for debts that were non existent, which is a regular thing, that I used the savings to pay for.

Q3. What were your investments?

I barely remember a damn thing, through grieving and recovering from the hospital. My mind was shot into pieces, it was just eradicated into nothingness, hardly anything retained.

Nothing seemed real, I was advised to invest in ISA's and bonds all of which yielded barely anything.

That was it, so I explained about recovering, explained I was on crutches and explained that I was kicked out of home.

So watch, I bet in October, this year's anniversary, she will come at me again, asking more idiotic questions or the same sort.

It will have been a whole 12 months she's been after me, making my life hell.

Because she doesn't like what she's hearing, so maybe she'll drag it on for years and years??

Until she hears, Oh I'm partying nonstop and dining in posh areas, or whatever the hell her prejudiced mind is waiting for.

I'm just consistently straightforward. Giving her access to Paypal, to the Bank, politely answering, while she mocks me.

Then her continually saying You're not doing what I ask..... When I have been.

She despises that I'm respectful to her as I was taught manners from young.

She hates that I don't get angry and insult her as she expects.

Mostly she can't stand that she is determined to make me out to be an irresponsible spoiled brat, when all I've done is try to survive, be responsible, pay my expenses and cope with health conditions.

She refuses to accept it, so this is my life from now on, as usual the bullying continues.

I cannot escape from it, she's determined to depress me and make me sink into the gutters.

But when I said I was turning over a new leaf, I mean't it. Stress and pain are my normal occurrences.

So I will vent on her, share what's happening. I've always been prepared for her nasty attitude so maybe it's less impactful than it was?

I'm still scared and worried. I always will be but I'm reassured by the fact that despite what she says, I've followed all her demands and complied willingly.

I take comfort in being overwhelmed and still getting on with it.

I just have to carry on, some days are better than others. Sorry that I repeated myself in some instances but it all helps to voice it out. It really does.

Thanks for listening/reading. I appreciate it. Let the judgements continue......

Just for the record I don't consider myself blameless but nor do I deserve this prolonged behaviour.