#BlogLife954 - Change of mind(set)

I slept off and on but I was coughing a bit although the lemon essential oil on my pillow helped.

But the pain and sickness just made me feel a bit low and I didn't do much, which is probably a good thing as the intensity would have increased.

I don't feel guilty for having a light day and taking care of my body.

I might do a mini Zoom shop tomorrow to get some bits and pieces as I'm running low and it's not time for the weekend shop yet.

I unpacked the Zoom few discounts, the physical pain from hands/legs practically gone.

But it's the cramps and nausea that is debilitating me. I'm hoping the clementine juice, the binaural beats and the lemon essential oil will work miracles.

I just did a Beautizone order as the last body butter is finishing. I'll calculate how long it lasted later.

I got the American Dream lemon body butter reduced to £6 and a cocoa butter one, also £6.

I've not tried those. I really wanted to try the papaya but it was £7.50 so no thank you.

I also saw a Nicka K lip scrub £4 so my mouth is dry at the moment and will see how that performs.

The postage was £4 boo but I couldn't see any discount codes but at least the products themselves were reduced and they will last months and months.

Actually lasted 8 months, last order was February. 4 months per body butter as it's 500ml tub.

Ugh sorry no blog today, I am hot, cold, tummy's hurting, throat is sore, yuckity yuck and now feel stuffy.

Ahh just realised the pesto pasta is missing from the Zoom order I was having they would give me a voucher but just a refund.

Also the charger I got with the phone I won, the OnePlus has split and that's dangerous but it's the only charger I have so I ordered a new one.

Last time it caught fire so I hope it lasts until the new one arrives.. Eeek.

Pesto sounds like something I'd like but in large doses, the green one, I'm not sure I do, it's overpowering..

Although now I'm mixing it up, there's something else which is tapering it off, oil maybe?

I decided to shop at Avon and stock up on a few things, beauty reviews coming up.

I got some discounts and the delivery was £3.50 ouchy..

Perfume sample 10ml 90p Far away beyond the moon.

Clearskin pink clay mask 75ml £2.93

Skin Glow cleanser 200ml £5.40

Anew sensitive cream cleanser 150ml £4.95

Clearskin supercharged cleanser 150ml £4.28

£21.96 that cost for 3x face washes, a perfume sample and a mud mask, plus delivery.

Not really bargains but my face needs new products to shake it up a bit.

If you're wondering why I got the perfume sample? I had to make up the order by a lil to get a discount ha.

It will be nice if I've timed it right and it all gets here before Sunday.

(It's currently Wednesday night). Well now it's Thursday morning and I feel stuffy so sprinkled lemon essential oil and sipping the last bit of the clementine juice, while under the blankie.

I think as it's October I have to manually pull myself out of the stressy funk and go back to writing stories.

Starting from tomorrow, every weekend until Christmas I will work on the festive story so that it's released this year.

I told myself I was going to ignore every chaotic thing around me but I didn't, I couldn't.

I don't know what to do about Mama, she's toxic, not always and I'm not ideal either but I'm teetering on the edge.

I don't want to sink lower than I am already, maybe I'll limit the visits and call and texts or wean her out slowly....

That's one option as if I do get locked up, I can see myself cutting ties with everyone and disappearing inside myself again but this time, not having the strength or the inclination to uplift myself back up again.

As for dwp, I've decided when the report is ready, I'll just add an apology note to the letter and come what may.

She wants to bury me, good for her, Here's the shovel, happy digging. I'm too tired to fight.

For now I'll just carry on until the inevitable happens..

A new show I've gotten into Hotel Costiera I recommend, kinda mystery and crime, like Leverage, Finder..