It's time, Ogl has left Looney Toons and that's sad, we begun to have some laughs about the game.
Then I texted P to say we should part company, nothing personal and that I will block his number tonight.
I sacrifice my needs in acquaintanceships, pretend it's ok, but it's not, it never is.
I don't know if he'll respond, I don't care. He had to have seen this coming, last year I think I warned him that at some point I might step away and he said, Let him know first, so I did.
L stopped talking as well, at least she has an excuse, lots of stuff going on with her.
I don't blame her but I want someone I can talk too, even if it's superficial, at times.
I can't be myself. I can never just let go and trust someone will be there at the other end because they never are.
It's only here that I can reveal stuff but even then, I don't always want to share, however I do have the option still..
P responded with take care, thanks for letting him know. Now I can block in peace.
Time to stop faffing about and continue with the stories, if they turn out crap, so be it..
At least I'll enjoy re-reading them, some have reverted back to drafts, unfinished shouldn't be published.
I did actually add more to the Christmas story. I have a strong feeling I'm going to change directions with it.
I am determined that this December it will be ready to be seen. No more putting it off.
I have a feeling the Wattpad stories are slowly generating more interest also, which makes me feel guilty for neglecting them too.
Well confusing times because Mama said she already got the fudge and she likes it.
(I bought a cheaper version, Oh yea it was by Amazon ha, strange but ok).
Also the lip balms, which are not out for delivery, hmm, something came today, no idea..
Face washes, top and nightie left to turn up. I've found a new way to stop overcooking the rolls.
I used to leave them in the press to stay warm but by the time the chicken and burgers are cooked, it turns too hard.
Now I've lightly browned them and switched off the press and laid them wrapped up on top of it, so maybe it will stay warm but it won't get too hard, perfect.
For some reason I fancied the coleslaw before I bought it and now I have it, it doesn't appeal.
I'm still eating it but for low calorie, it seems very creamy.. I'm running out of snacks.
I could either do a shop on Thursday morning because Friday is the UC appointment or Saturday morning..
It will probably be Thursday, so I can stock up. I've no idea what to buy..
The new series of The Buccaneers started, I have no idea when and I don't even remember the original plot, who is who, so it's a bit confusing, I'll have to rewatch season 1.
I read and speak to so many people about loneliness and I'm glad I don't feel that way.
Yea sometimes I want a chitchat but aside from that, I'm okay as I am in my own lil castle.
I just cut my hair, so it's supposedly even now. I don't know if I should buy a skirt, it's getting warmer, I still feel too on display..
Dresses look funny because my waist goes in, tummy sticks out. I feel kinda lumpy, despite being a lil trimmer.
At least a long top covers me up. I always wear long sleeves, I never show my arms or legs anymore.
I'm a mind, I'm a personality, I'm not just a body, I would appreciate being seen that way.
