Something has been on my mind since it was confided and I have to find a way to talk about it, without sharing too much or any of it.
So the randoms think because they are online, they can say anything and there won't be consequences...
Big mistake. JB is still pmming me and I'm still ignoring him because frankly there won't be an apology, he won't take the blame for being a boob, he will accuse me of wrongdoing.
So my point is, why don't some people search inside and take accountability?
Do they not want to see themselves as imperfect and flawed? They can't possibly assume they are always right...
Or can they?? Or do they not want to deal with the repercussions.. Ooh I'm in twouble!
I think that's pretty sad to be that immature, you can't hold your hand up and say Oops. I messed up. Can you forgive me?
Let's just say someone is not who he appears and when confronted, instead of saying Guilty...
He escalated and turned on the people who made time for him. Insults, lies, gossiping.
Plus playing the victim card. Oh I let my guard down and now I'm being targeted.
Ugh it makes me so angry and now I've realised just like the guy on discord, some of them get away with besmirching reputations...
And the reason why I can't stop thinking about it, even though it's kinda dealt with...
It reminds me of my family. They show one face to others... Pretending to be decent, respectful and polite.....
But within family, it's aggression, intimidation, threats, insults, danger.
And they spout bs, saying Oh I've changed from wence I was... I'm different. I'm mature. I'm wholesome...
No you're bloody not. You are the exact same evil person you always were and will continue to be.
Oh I trimmed my hair and now I don't feel so messy.
I guess what I'm saying is, Why don't you put in some real work and improve yourself?
There is an underlying total disrespect for women beneath the facade of yours.
I don't want to have anything to do with it because that is how I grew up, trying to survive, trying to find my way, realise who I wanted to be.
I try to be better. I try to help people. I just don't get certain people.
Don't you ever want to be able to look in the mirror and face yourself?
Develop a conscience? Respect someone that says No or has a different opinion?
Or for the rest of your life will you continue intimidating and bullying women to gain some sort of what......
It's not going to be affection? Tolerance?
Meh! It's your life! Waste it if you want!
Oh ffs, the pain has been so bad, ongoing and all day. I googlied whether I had appendicitis.
Nope that starts in the belly button and goes to the right side. Mine seems to be under my chest.
My 3rd period just started today. The third one in.. 3 weeks? Why won't you leave me alone??
