#BlogLife1126 - Allergic to calls..

Does anyone else get these sudden cold/flu symptoms on long phone calls?

I start off normal (normal for me), and then as it progress.. I feel stuffy, my throat gets really dry and I feel infected...

It doesn't happen in person, only during lengthy calls..

Ugh I made a boo boo. I forgot to put the bread in the fridge and now the second loaf has gone off.

No more sandwiches, but lucky I have snacks and some pasta left, maybe there is more..

I'll do a shop for tomorrow or Friday, mind you, the uc is Friday.. Ok I have to do it for tomorrow, there's no early morning slot and I have to keep the phone free..

I was driving myself mad looking for my protein tablets, it's the beginning of the month so I wanted to do a deep clean on my lenses.

I didn't realise I had removed it from the packaging and rolled it up and stuffed it into the purple makeup bag.

I can do it tonight. I'm definitely having a nutty day today..

I'm performing actions and forgetting about them. I rested the spoon on the panini press while I was getting sorted..

When I picked it up, it was hot and I thought Oh No. It's been on all night but it wasn't switched on...

Literally 5 minutes ago, when the plan to make toast was on. I had turned it on to heat up, so of course it was still warm..

This happens when I'm split in too many directions, I can't focus.

Ugh the bloating and cramping is back.

Tomorrow if it's in stock, I''m going to try a few new things..

Poptastic onion puff crisps £1, x12. Nando's sweet chilli jam £2.50 x285g bottle, sounds interesting..

And McCain triple cooked chips, it was on offer for £1.67 x640g bag.

They are oven thick chips, so will take ages to cook.

#BlogLife1125 - It's not you readers, it's moi...

I have had so many drafts stored, fully written or just halved that this feels like the first time in ages, I'm staring at a blank page.

Worse still, I can't think of anything to talk about eek. The pressure is on..

I don't think this will go out today, unless I suddenly get inspired..

Finally someone was available to take the rent payment, yeesh I was kinda fed up on Friday, after calling twice and told to call back. Pfft.

I thought Nah, I'd be super vex, if no-one was available for the third time, so to avoid that I waited until today, almost forgot actually.

I woke up at 6amish. The BX29 earbuds are not lasting all night, just maybe 6 hours unfortunately.

Wow only 5 and a half months later, practically newish and already depleted that much.

I need a new pair, I'll save up Amazon credit and get it. I'm not sure there is any reasonable ones in the Market...

I'm still cramping and feeling a bit sicky. Friday is supposed to be my phone appointment..

There's been nothing official to say it is a phone one. I guess I'll be in trouble for a no-show.

I'll just explain my side, that I was told not to show up.

The Calypo lollies are lovely but I wished they fit inside the water bottle, that hint of fruit juice is lovely.

As the money isn't lasting the month, I'm going to spend less on groceries each week.

I tried to update that I had less savings, but it's way more complicated than I thought, so I gave up.

Ahh I just remembered another foodie review. Iceland had another chicken in a bag meal.

I think it was £4 or just under and it was pasta, peas, broccoli and chicken.

It's seasoned well, tasty enough. The broccoli is disgusting, it's just bitter so I don't eat that.

The peas are perfect, soft but not mush, with a lil chew to them.

I don't know why everything has to have broccoli, pick a tastier vegetable..

This bag is similar to the other one, I'm not sure if it was salmon, but that was hit and miss, if you heated the salmon too much, it became tough..

But if you only warmed it for a small while, the rest were cold.. A bad mixture..

The only thing that ever worked with broccoli was the Bachelor's cheese and pasta.

It was dry and you just added water to it, for some reason that combination worked well..

And I think somehow they tempered the harshness of the broccoli, maybe with butter or something else..

Another website that is really laggy and horrible to use, is facebook on the laptop.

For some reason on the mobile, it's really fast. It makes no sense to me.

I'm only using it to enter competitions.

Ooh exciting I was just making a shopping list for the weekend. Iceland is still out of most of the lollies, but broadly browsing..

I saw for some reason the 6x chocolate and nut cornettos which are normally...

Maybe £1.75 have for some reason reduced to 50p lol. I'm gonna get 2x boxes lol.

That's insane, in case they are sold out, I'll get the Magnum knock offs, the almond version..

It's 4x £2. I'm also going to try Nando's sweet chilli jam, it looks interesting..

For my sandwiches. I think I want something different from mayonnaise or ketchup or garlic and herb..

#BlogLife1124 - You two don't belong together...... Or do you?

Overall Asda and Iceland remain my favourites for the food quality.

Trying different supermarkets opened me up to foods I hadn't tried before, that was a lot of fun.

I just realised though, I think they all charge for delivery and that's minus the discounts but Iceland doesn't.

I just have to spend £40 so I'll be sticking with Iceland, until I need contact lens or beauty stuff or something else, I can't get.

I needed a lot of householdy things, so did a basic shop and I didn't want peanut butter or chocolate spread or cheese for the sandwiches, so I thought is this too weird...?

Apple sauce and a biscuit spread or maybe each on their own? I mean why not?

If I hate it, there's salmon spread, baked beans, turkey rashers or eggs.

I need variety, otherwise I'll get sick of the same ol same ol.

I feel like everyone has cleaned out the lolly section in Iceland as there was hardly anything available.

I could have picked the almond majestic but nope I got the Calypo lemon and orange.

I don't know if I need lollies, it's a mix of cool and warm now.

I keep being tempted by jam and marmalade, but it's so sickly sweet. I wish it wasn't.

The other option was tinned fruit but I didn't bother. I'm craving fruit juice but it will have to be fruit lollies instead.

I have just tried out Colman's apple sauce 155ml for £1.80 ouch, I didn't look at the size.

I assumed it was large akin to the picture but it's baby sized.

It's not too sweet but nice and tasty, soft but not too runny, small chunks of apple, it's perfect, just should be a lot larger.

Then I grabbed Nutini's 300g for a £1 (much better value) biscuit spread and toasted my wholemeal bread, a lil too aggressively oops..

and spread them each on one side. The biscuit spread just smells like digestive biscuits..

It was delicious. To be honest, I need to be heavy handed with the biscuit spread, it didn't taste of much, the apple flavour took over.

But I think the blend of the two was magical. I need to refrigerate the apple sauce and the biscuit spread is fine in the cupboard.

What do we call it? Saucy appiscuit? Saucy biscapple? I'm glad I bought it. It's a relief it works.

It doesn't taste like a mouthful of sugar. Maybe it's a lil healthier..

Today is a Bank Holiday so I wasn't sure whether or not to post or just relax.

I've been mostly sleeping well and I think I'll start using the heated blankie in the mornings to fast track the healing.

It's not sharp pain as such, it's dull but it's creeping toward a bad strain, where I could be totally immobile and on bed rest and that's what scares me.

I just had a nice breakfast at 2pmish. I didn't feel hungry before.

I just decided to do some eggs, turkey rashers, do some toast, spread some salmon paste, as I don't have butter and put it all together..

Oof I am so glad I only did one sandwich. I am stuffed, it was great.

Because I haven't done eggs in the panini press, I forgot how messy it is.

I usually line it with butter or the dry oil cooking spray and I forgot.

Today I remembered but still the butter spray is awful, it barely coats it, maybe the sunflower was my favourite.

Anyway Googly had a tip. When you unplug the press, get a warm kitchen towel and place it on there, close the lid and leave it for a few minutes..

It sorta worked and I had to gently scrape the rest. Today I think the rest of the dirt will come loose and it will be properly clean.

Let's go check. I used cold water because my hot tap is really stiff and I can't turn it much, just a drip comes out..

When the boiler maintenance people come, I might ask if they can loosen it, it didn't seem that bad before...

Yea it did the trick, it's almost spotless but it has a lot of wear and tear the lid handle is damaged so to shut it tightly I just rest tins on top and it's fine.

I've been cramping, bloated and a lil nauseated but still no monthly.

I guess this month it is skipping or maybe at midnight..

#BlogLife1123 - Mental or Physical barriers?

I always do this, stop writing and say Ok, I'll eat something now and then I just start a new post, ugh, terrible..

I'm really sick of Yahoo's lag, they forced the switch to the newer versions and it's awful for the delays.

I don't know why they did that, on the mobile it's the classic version and it's so much faster..

I wonder if there is a way to force it on the laptop??

I'm not sure I can do a grocery shop this weekend. I was thinking of taking a cab out and grabbing a few things but that's an extra expense and my body needs to rest and not go out for a while.

I am so frustrated. I am sleeping but each day, I'm waking up with no energy.

I'm scared to do things in case it aggravates my body into a strain.

But at the same time, the to-do list is piling up. There have just been some violent twinges, where my body warns me...

Hey, are you paying attention yet? I need you to relax and not do anything strenuous..

If not, I'm shutting down and the pain will be unbearable..

The sensible thing is to get takeout to last a few days and wait until the end or beginning of the month for the payment to arrive.

Finally I checked my balance and there isn't any nasty direct debits going to UnFantastic Services, the scam cleaning company.

It looks like they removed me from the annual club, but did not inform me. They are still spamming my email though.

I don't know how spam works, some companies get notified and block your email, others just carry on..

Ah ok so I tried to write my first post on Reddit but it got banned for not having enough Karma points..

Which is what you get for I'm guessing, responding to other comments and having them upvote yours..

Pretty funny, you can't express yourself yet...

(Argh, for the record do not copy and paste from Reddit, it screwed up my blog with a black background and it's infecting the text grr).

If you are wondering what I posted, it's this..

Peculiarly and particularly hard to get to know

I feel like an odd duck sometimes. It's not always bad to be different.

I'm wondering if anyone else has this aversion to being asked personal questions?

I know generally it's the thing to do when getting to know someone new but I prefer to reveal information slowly, at my own pace, instead of someone firing questions and demanding answers immediately.

It just puts me off continuing the conversation..

That was it. I just wanted to put it somewhere in case it got deleted.

Ahh there is an option to repost it somewhere else and not in Communications, where they may have less strict policies.

I just tried in Introverts and so far it hasn't been flagged or removed.

I had another idea for a post there or here. I don't know if it has enough steam..

Something about things people say that initially knock your confidence...

A couple of strange things that are happening. Chromebook keeps saying the storage is full but not letting me delete anything..

Last night I lost the Samsung phone, finally found it and thought I hope everything else is in it's place.

I woke up saw something blurry and white on the bed and it was my contact lens case.. 

How did I not put them away? I'm a bad sleeper, how did it not go flying in the night?

Weird. I'm gonna have my fish finger bagel and relax. I'll do an Asda or Iceland shop next week.

I need good quality black bags and I can't get them from Morrison's.

#BlogLife1122 - I hate you Cully & Sully chowder tub

This seemed a fun way to eat more fish. My first chowder experience.

I bought the Cully & Sully salmon and haddock chowder from Morrison's £2.40 for a 400g tub and actually looked larger than expected.

You heat it for 2 minutes, stir, reheat for another 2 minutes and then rest for 1 minute.

All seems straightforward but it was one of those awkward lids. You don't know whether there is a hidden seal on the seal or if you press remove the tab and pull off the lid.

The tab actually came off easily. Pulling the lid wouldn't budge at all. I began to suspect a hidden lid, I used the scissors to try and scrape so it would become loose, no joy..

Just as I gave up and grabbed the top, the lid miraculously came undone..... What on earth??

My hands are sore after that but I'm looking forward to tasting it and seeing if all that nonsense was worth it.

Oh by the way, today is the first time I felt cold and shivery. It's since warmed up but I almost grabbed the blankie and switched it on.

The only reason I didn't was both fans were dead and refusing to charge so that made me nervous, incase it quickly heated up and I felt suffocated.

I'm just waiting for the chowder to cool, hopefully it didn't spill. I want something light, not much of an appetite.

Suddenly more thirsty than hungry..

I got to say, that was pretty tasty, creamy, bits of veggies and potato, tiny bits of fish, great seasoning, not salty.

I would get that again and refer to this on how to open it.

I feel really bloated so once again my appetite is up and down but I tried the Morrison's Thai green chicken and rice, that was really tasty, no hint of spice and I'm not bothered.

But really delicious mix and some veggies included. I think just a bit more sauce would have been nice.

I changed my twitter profile picture to the reddit one, the girl at the computer, it's just so cute.

Oh talking of reddit, up popped this age verification thingy. Prove you are over 18 years old..

I felt like it locked up my profile so I thought as I had taken those recent selfies, why not just send one of those..

Hmm didn't work out like that.. Before I begin, as I'm insanely private I don't give exact details..

So with the date of birth (that you can't change, unless you contact them and fake you made a mistake)...

I put the correct year, but I don't put my day or month as correct, companies are too damn hungry for personal information that they are selling off or providing to the Government/law enforcement..

There is no reason, you can't simplify it to maybe just an eye scan or hand or hair..

Anyway, it turns out, I couldn't do the passport thingy, it would have my real date of birth...

I selected the selfie option and up came a camera.... You cram your head in a circle and for some reason, motion left or right..

Then it takes ages to click and capture the image, the first time, it didn't verify and the second time it went quickly and did it.

Apparently it's encrypted and deleted at some point. I had no makeup on, greasy hair and looking like a mess, but I didn't really care to be honest.

Then straight away my account was normal again and I suspect my activity was viewable to visitors again.

It's like some things I make a big deal out of and others I shrug and just do it.

But the Mistplay app, comes to mind, where they kept collecting more and more information.... Why?

Name, email address, phone number and then finally a photo?? I don't understand why you need that, just to supposedly verify me..

It's too much. I'm always aware of identity theft because it's happened to me, via money being stolen, or attempted transactions but I was emailed/called and questioned prior to it being processed and I told them straight these are fraudulent.

And they were stopped and no money was taken but it's still scary.

Suddenly being an open book, doesn't sound so great...?!

#BlogLife1121 - Why do I have to beg for any consideration???

I am alsorts of shattered from walking back from the uc appointment and being kept waiting while my back/hands/feet were painfully twinging.

The horrible advisor wasn't there so I snapped up the opportunity to beg for a phone appointment.

This walking and heat, is doing a number on my body. I just want to collapse or faint and get it over and done with..

So at first he apologised and said We'll see, then I had to explain. The buses aren't running, I'm long term ill and I need a break..

He said, I can make a video appointment..... Umm, nope. I said I'd rather come in.

Then he said, I'm booking a phone one, will message your coach and arrange it, don't come in...

I thought finally, ffs, I had to ask and plead for this.... Thankfully, either side, the bus stops are now open, at least that helps..

Although cripes, I always ring the bell, to indicate the driver should stop..... Why do they hate my main road??

He/She didn't pay attention..... Opens the front door and leaves the exit closed.

I had to shout and beg them to open it. Good heavens, what is wrong with you???

It would have killed me to walk home, from the other stop, my legs were breaking as it was.

I bet my advisor will be bitchy about why I asked for a phone call..

I'm inches away from telling them all, to go screw themselves.

I'm not a happy bunny when in pain.

I have to do a few things next week. I am done for this week.

Find and make a dentist appointment, and try to get over the icky feeling.

Inform them my savings are now depleted.

Mop the damn floors, which I don't know when I'll be physically able to do that.

I can't remember anything else, I need to rest and relax and munchy..

Oh one last thing while my body throbs. I look around and they are just gossiping and not working...

Why the hell couldn't one of you had seen me and done something to help me out? Twits!

Let's sneak in another foodie review. I tried the Morrison's salmon and broccoli quiche.

Mixed thoughts. I love the concept of it. There probably needed a touch more salmon but it was enough so you could taste it.

I loved the quiche bit, the crust is always bland, that's the standard.

I cooked it for about 15-20 minutes, slight crunch. The broccoli just ruined a good dish, it brings a tartness to it.

I was hoping they would have marinated and softened it in something but nope.

In the end what I did is pair it with the tzatziki sauce and that made it so much better, it wasn't so harsh.

I would get it again but each time, I would need to mix it with a dip or sauce, otherwise it's great.

Nice to see more salmon dishes :)

#BlogLife1120 - Do you like trying new foods or prefer classic safe favourites?

The non foodie random ghosted me. It's been over a week and I'm glad because I didn't know what to talk to him about.

I'm waiting for my Morrison's order. To save 50p I did a late afternoony one from 2pm-6pm.

They predict 5pmish. A shame but I'll eat late. The whole day I've been muddled as I normally shop for groceries and have it delivered at the weekend.

And today is Thursday but we had rain, finally, short burst but a lovely sound.

I hope we get more, much much more. It has calmed down. I can function without a fan but it's still humid.

I forgot, a uc appointment is tomorrow, unfortunately. I'm not sure if same day delivery is an option but it's too risky.

I'm pretty sure I've never seen a salmon and broccoli quiche before. That looks and sounds really nice for something different.

I'm hoping the broccoli is tiny or well seasoned.. We shall see because Morrison said finally, everything is in stock.

I had to swap items initially, no Mr Freeze ice poles. There was a Korean chicken and rice meal that looked appetising, not in stock grr.

Those mini chicken pizzas, not available.. The non spicy Yo sushi, not there, so I picked the spicy chicken..

It won't really be peppery will it? The other interesting new thing was by Cully & Sully, salmon and haddock chowder..

I've never experienced chowder so I thought why not?

It really made me chuckle at one Morrison reviewer stating, I've looked all over the site and it's all low reviews..

Surely everything can't be bad. Ha, so true. It's subjective so hard to judge really.

I don't like spice, you might love it. Our taste buds are just different..

Also I opted for the Rana bolognese ravioli as the other pasta bolognese, wasn't fantastic..

A few foodie reviews, soon. I should clarify, these products are new to me, not necessarily just released.

There is more but these standout. I'll talk about the rest as I'm trying it.

Sometimes there's a bunch of food reviews in one post. It doesn't mean it's consumed the same day.

I can write in advance, store some and see what needs padding.

The Yo Sushi chicken was the least favourite I've tried. No spice at all. Teensy weensy bit in the sauce pot.

Quite bland but when you mixed it with the sauce it was better. I didn't bother with the soy sauce it case it was too salty.

The should have seasoned it better, bit of a crunch but needs more flavour.

I mix and match. I'm curious about new products but I hate wasting money if they are awful.

I'm just trying the blue raspberry Mr Freeze, forgot how good these were, no sickly sweetness, more natural taste, heaven on a hot day.

The southern fried pasta was surprisingly really good, nice flavour, but the pesto was just awful. I will never buy that again.

My brain is a bit scattered so I'm trying to think straight as I keep forgetting things.

One last comparison review before I forget again. Iceland had these potato pops for a £1 that were round crunchy mini roast potatoes, buttery, well seasoned lusciousness.

I think they discontinued or were a seasonal item. Anyway I saw something similar in Morrisons, these were square though.

A bit bigger, called potato bites, for £2.50. To me these are slightly more like chips than roast potatoes, still good, still crunchy, but the Iceland ones had that edge, especially for single people that don't want huge roasties.

#BlogLife1119 - Talk with words not pictures

Smileys and gifs are cute aren't they? Sometimes it fits the conversation, other times it doesn't.

But I think people have become lazy communicators, especially if a question is asked or something important is said and the only response is a shiny meaningless gif...

What am I talking to a brick wall or a 2 year old? How hard is it, just to type a response?

It would be so much more impactful if you just took the time to reply earnestly..

Akin too.. I hear what you are saying. I'm listening... That's a tough situation..

Instead though, a gif pops up and it's a slap in the face because I see it as....

I'm not listening to you. I'm not engaging. You're not important enough to have a conversation with, consider yourself rejected.

I do get that, sometimes we are at a loss for words and don't want to say the wrong thing, to make it worse..

Surely though, something has to be better than nothing.

If that behaviour is repeated, it stops me reaching out and wanting to spend time with you because it feels dismissive and disrespectful.

Has anyone seen Jewish Matchmaker? I think it's 3 years old, somebody on Reddit recommended it..

I don't mind the host, she's actually approachable and friendly, without being obnoxious.

It's a bit religiousy but that stands to reason. Umm only 200 successful pairings? I wouldn't be bragging about that, that's really low..

Wow some eye watering egos, but that's to be expected, less drama, more realistic than something like Married At First Sight..

It's interesting, not sure I've seen anyone I'm rooting for yet. One lil wrong move seems to put them off.

Again more looks based, than personality. Oh the other weird thing, which is not going to help..

Is people flying in from abroad for dates? Who on earth is going to have a long distance relationship in this day and age, having just met??

The other thing, I had never seen before, maybe because I haven't dated in yonks am not a picture girl...

Is one of the females blurted out.. Oh do you want my instagram? On a first date..

I just thought that was odd. Is it a judge me by my pictures? I look amazing 24-7?

Or is it like, an alternative to texting, because maybe there's a chat component to Instagram?

I've never used it, it's not my thing but again, it's looks based, rather than....

Hey let's talk, get to know each other slowly, see if we are compatible...

It came across as shallow. Look at me, fawn all over me.... Comment, like etc..

I could be wrong, she just seemed to get excited when he did that.

Maybe I'm too old fashioned for this world where, getting a deeper connection is romantic..

They really really think they are all good looking. No wonder you all you need a matchmaker and probably a reality check..

Looks fade people!

#BlogLife1118 - Do you use reddit?

I had no intention of registering, although if I did, I wanted an easy removal process.

I did look up how to deactivate the account, to see if it was easy, seems to be, go to the account and hit delete, ha.

To be frank, I used it for reality show gossip. I wanted to see if my hunches were correct and maybe a bit more unreleased gossip...

Now everytime I click, it says register, so maybe, you can't browse as a guest any longer.

Should I connect with other bloggers? Advertise myself? Is that allowed?

I thought I would use my blog email and username, just incase I use it for that purpose.

I've not filled in the profile. I don't know if I want to be active. I've just been reading, not commenting...

I just thought I would mention it. The process was simple, fill in email, get a verification code, copy and paste or type it and then boom.

The first thing I do, is hop onto settings and disable all notifications for trivial site updates, there's a Reddit inbox so I put everything I could into there, so I wouldn't be hassled.

When I'm browsing, it's weird to see my name lurking at the right hand side, maybe you can be anonymous?

Aww I think you toggle display mode, to hide or be visible to others..

Oh what is funny is, you can customise your avatar..... I didn't realise I had one, but it doesn't say what items are paid and what is free, so a bit confusing when playing dress up, ha.

And just like that.. I starting replying to a few posts in the bloggy section, interesting.

I didn't realise that existed. I guess it's quite huge but seems active so probably a good place to belong too.

Although cringing at sharing my link. I'm not ready for that yet.

Oops, display mode actually means viewing it in light or dark mode, I chose dark, easier on my eyes and clearer to read.

I went ahead and added the scenic bed picture, plus added this cute girl at a computer.

Sod it, I'm gonna add the blog, add wattpad and add twitter. If someone finally says it's all trash, so be it.

I messed up and probably didn't add the blog link correctly, maybe I forgot to title it, so re-did it today and now it's displaying.

That's satisfying, I haven't posted my own thoughts yet. It might be writing related.

If you are curious, the link is below. I expect nothing at all, do as you please, click, don't click, the choice is yours :)

https://www.reddit.com/u/SleeplessScribbler/s/LHpf3I7KK6

Ugh I feel icky. I thought the maintenance people were calling to make an appointment...

But no, it's somewhere I applied too and I don't know what to do in this situation.

Do I tell the truth, I'm too sick to work but I'm not believed so I have to hope I'm constantly rejected...

Or do I pretend I'm genuinely interested and hope they ask about my medical conditions?

Normally as soon as they hear, Oh you have a condition? Hmm, I don't think you're suitable and it's such a relief..

I was frazzled, even though, he was really polite. I put him off until tomorrow and I don't even know if I'll answer..

I don't want to be offered a role, have to reject it, be found out and then, bye bye allowance... No more having a home, buying food, paying bills..

It's so stressful. I don't want to waste anyone's time either but I am stuck.

All I want to do is blog, write fiction and volunteer, nothing else really matters to me.

#BlogLife1117 - A lil nutty for nuts..

More Sainsbury's reviews are here. I rarely see nutty biscuits, usually plain or filled.

I saw Taste the difference, pistachio and Belgian chocolate cookies..

I'm not sure if I've tried it before, perhaps something similar. These are fabulous, really crunchy, not too thick or thin..

10x in a packet for £3, not the cheapest price but a good size, half to 1, satisfied my sweet tooth.

The pistachio is more blended I think, subtle but enough so you taste it. I highly recommend it.

Oh you might be wondering why I bought soup during a heatwave.. (We're up to 5 or 6 heatwaves)..

I haven't even decided if I'll heat it up or have it cold. To be honest though..

I need real food at the moment, not just snacks and hot food is more fulling so I thought why not?

Plus I did intend to get the Thai green curry rice meal but it wasn't in stock so at least this way, I'll get the taste in a different form.

Plus I have never tried Yorkshire Provender before so an exciting new brand to try and that's always fun.

With pmt, I am all over the place, off and on cramps, nausea, bloating, appetite fluctuating..

Zero thirst to severe dehydration. Come on rain, favour the UK again...

Yuckity, yuck, the replacement sushi salmon and edamame is disgusting.

There's no flavour so it was a rip off. 

The Yorkshire Provender soup, I heated for maybe 4 or 5 minutes and it was hot but not boiling.

It smells great, looks good. It's chicken Thai green noodle soup.

I couldn't recall the ingredients, but shredded veggies inside. It's enough for a small meal or snack.

Very mild pepperyness, really yummy flavour, maybe it needed more small bits of chicken.

I didn't like the tiny thin noodles, pointless to me, no flavour except from the soaking of the broth.

I prefer thick noodles. I like the dense sturdy plastic container with a lid so it's reusable.

I didn't like the complicated opening, as it was broken, press to break the seal, rip it off, then with the space, pull up the lid to open it.

Would I get it again? Probably, maybe a different flavour..

I've been using the Dr Paw Paw lip balm. I don't get the hype, it's very ordinary.

I don't feel especially moisturised. It's just gimmicky. It's not worth more than £2, especially if you want scented but not tinted..

The Sainsbury's macaroni cheese was ok, too cheesy and not enough breadcrumbs, there are better out there.

The Humza hot and spicy wings, tastes identical to the Iceland one but 50p more I think.

It's nice, not too spicy.

The Face Facts cleanser is not preventing breakouts, small ones seem to be forming on my face, due to hormones, so that's unfortunate.

And it doesn't always lather properly, so feels a bit unsatisfying, that you haven't been able to wash the face properly..

It's much better on the spin brush, than your hands..

I was most looking forward to trying the lemon, spinach and salmon fishcakes, pretty thick, good size.

From Sainsbury's and they did not disappoint. It didn't stand out, the lemon or spinach but I think it was all blended to give it a delicious flavour.

I paired it with a toasted muffin, added some butter as I don't have dips or condiments and it was lovely.

Just under 20x minutes, nice crisp on the outside and I would definitely recommend it because it wasn't tough, just nice and soft and not dry either.

£3.75 for x2 was the price. I only did one and had maybe waffle fries on the side, I don't recall..

Got to mention that one of the Xbc/Xpel body butters is now finished (Sunday), that lasted me...

Two and half months, feels shorter than the others. I have 2x left now. 500ml each, so so quality..

#BlogLife1116 - Sainsbury's first grocery experience

Hmm bit stingy. There was no new customer coupon, so that was disappointing.

The Googly ones had expired and the website is horrible to use, laggy, unresponsive and tiresome.

There's a confusing meal deal which differs in price from £4 upwards, but instead of grouping it in the same price groups, it's chaos.

I could not be bothered to scroll through endless pages and get a drink and snack because it was so confusing and slow.

I just wanted to press on, from the unpleasantness. Crikey, nearly 4pm and still haven't munched.

Anyway, what I did like is that, when you checked out, it popped up with, ah sorry this and that, is not available, find some substitutions..

So that's what I did. The delivery slots start from 50p, but 6am and 4x hours, I think all the way to £7.

I could not do anything that early. I think I picked 8am-12pm for £3.

They've got a wide range in some areas and limited in others. The low to high, doesn't work completely, which makes it annoying.

But I can collect useless nectar points. I don't think my bank is doing cashback at that grocery store.

What I am excited about is the Dr Paw Paw original lip balm for £2 and I've never seen wholemeal muffins, so really fun.

Also lemon and spinach salmon fishcakes and the Yorkshire Provender Thai green chicken noodle soup thingy..

Overall I doubt Sainsbury will be a favourite, unless it's specific beauty items or contact lens stuff.

They did have a face mask, but I had to balance the basket, so got rid of a few things, I didn't immediately need.

It was the samosas, pasta bolognese and thai green curry meals that were out of stock, if you're wondering.

Time to eat and do the uc stuff..

I finished the Garnier face wash and opened the Asda Face Facts, dull grey looking tube to be greeted with a vibrant orange gel.

There's a generic scent, sweet, smells almost fruity, I like it. It plays nice with the face brush, doesn't foam up on there, but when it hits your face it does.

Easy to apply and rinse off, leaves face soft and smooth but not stripped.

I wonder how it will work with hormonal skin breakouts? Will it prevent, reduce or make no difference?

Yesterday (Thursday), Sainsbury's texted with an updated time, which was 11-12pm.

But delivery times, don't always stick to the time, so I still woke up early, just in case.

There's nothing about tracking or status, maybe it's too early, it's only 9amish and well technically it's anywhere from 8am-12pm..

Even at 11amish, nothing to say out for delivery.

Oh I'm gutted having checked the email receipt, no wholemeal muffins, argh, that would have been perfect for me..

Plus the beef burgers and sushi have a same day or next day expiry and aren't reduced, like they would be in the supermarket....

I don't like that. Soon I'm going to need a contact lens cleaner and when the body butters finish..

I just remembered how much I loved Nivea 400ml, in the dark blue bottle, that was always an excellent moisturising alternative for my body.

I will return to that, as it's cheaper. I can't remember what it used to cost but I bought it a lot.

Ok at 11.30am, the groceries were delivered, no issue finding me.

He was friendlyish but not helpful so my back is hurting. Not counting the food, as I haven't tried it..

Sainsbury's is my least favourite for the overall experience, no welcome coupon, no tracking.

It seems quite backwards, plus selling 1 day shelf life products and no discount, not helping with the shopping..

Horrible laggy website, complicated deal finds..

And as I was packing away the shopping, I checked the salmon and avocado sushi, only to discover it looks substituted...

And they didn't mention that..... What if it has some ingredient or a spice kick, that I didn't enjoy?

That's very sneaky and is testament to the whole ordeal. I'm not impressed with that side.

What I did like, the availability of wholemeal muffins, even though sadly it wasn't in stock.

I liked the chicken was roughly half price. I liked the Paw Paw, was only £2.

And the Sainsbury's mighty use towel 2x pack, seems quite tall and sizeable for their own brand, costs £3, ouchy..

But it's not bad, if it lasts me a while. That's it, foodie reviews scattered next week..

Just an update, I put in 2x refund requests, the process was tedious.

The form didn't work, so I had to use the virtual chat. The reason why..

The sushi was disgusting and probably not something I would have bought, so one bite is all I can stomach.

Waste of money, the other thing, the Yorkshire Provender Thai soup, container is damaged, so it took ages to open it.

Not great with weak hands, so that isn't right either. It's 50/50 whether I get my money back..

There's this whole spiel about you're supposed to return it a supermarket, sod that, in person, nopity nope.

I actually tried some of the soup, dang that tastes good ha but it's the principle..

I'll keep you updated.. Oh wasn't expecting that, they refunded both of it.

Leaves me queasy that it said returned items but the fault lies with them not me.

Woop, £3.50 for the soup, big tub 560g, plus £3.75 for the sushi, £7.25. Least I am saving somewhat...

Right my decision is made, this weekend it will be Morrison's again for two reasons..

Firstly, they are still doing cashback at my bank, this month I've accumulated nearly £15 but only £9 is processed, ugh, the deadline is Wednesday, I have to claim it...

I'm irritated there is such a short window, I want at least £10. I shall see..

Secondly, I still have the £12 off voucher, when I spend £60, so ideally, just spending £48 and receiving £60 worth of shopping.

I really need to budget as I have less than £300 to last the month with bills and grocery expenses to pay for.

#BlogLife1115 - I try to be fair, but I feel how I feel (end of discussion, hopefully)

I'm ready to close this chapter now. I feel how I feel, they feel how they feel and it differs.

I try to present two sides but there are times, when I want it to just be me, venting..

Again do I publish the comment to be fair and mature? Or do I delete it?

My hope was that all the messages that came through here, (if any at all), would be authentic, so I could happily respond.

If I'm not talking on the main platform we share, why would I bother to suddenly converse on my blog?

There is no-one that can make me do anything, I no longer wish to do.

What I am sure of is that, I've no inclination to carry on debating, there is no hard feelings, but there is a slight distaste.

I've gotten to a point, where I feel like a burden, if I initiate a conversation. I feel like a nuisance, that people feel this obligation towards me to respond.

But somehow if they just randomly message me, I see it as, ok, they want to chat and engage, they are invested..

Usually though, I feel they have more important things to do and that, when they are free, they are more likely to reach out, if they choose.

I am guilty of letting others, contact me first and I'm not blaming them, it is my thing, for always being treated like an afterthought.

But I do feel, at the same time, I do make the effort sometimes, maybe not regularly but it is done.

Now there are times, when I cut myself off and disappear, stress, injuries, life takes over and I want to comfort myself.

And the truth is I don't trust anyone to be around to catch me as I decline. 

I am the way I am, but also I'll look for clues to see the attitudes of others and how they speak and respond and if they make time for me.

To see if eventually I'll be comfortable. A lot of crap just goes on with me and it's overwhelming to manage it, without a support system in place.

I need space to sort my head out.

I take responsibility for not always communicating and explaining myself clearly.

I hate being vulnerable, except on here or 7 Cups, so I tend not to share and just continue falling apart, solo, where, I can be transparent to myself.

I feel safe then, being depressed or weepy or generally unhappy.

My thing is, I don't want to look foolish by letting the wrong people get close to me.

Something else I should be honest about. I wasn't expecting a response, I hate long goodbyes.

We are mid August now. For me, nearly mid march, was when 2ish months had passed with no contact, so that's when it concluded for me.

My pride and being constantly rejected by others, means I can sever contact quite easily.

If it just seems to fizzle out naturally, then I let it. It would be too weird to cling on to someone disinterested in me, that's how I saw it.

I do not recall being prompted to initiate more. I'm not saying it wasn't said, but for me, there's no memory of it, because if I had, it's something I would have kept in mind.

I skimmed the comment because, although I hate confrontations and am past caring, I do respect someone telling me how they feel..

They have a right to do that. I guess I didn't want to read it as, I don't want to fix it. I didn't need closure.

But I did it anyway because at one point, a bond was formed and I appreciated the memories but when something is over.

I just want a clean break but it's vital that I don't silence anyone's voice, it's always courageous to speak up.

I don't want anyone to feel unheard, the way I generally feel. It's not pleasant.

At the same time though it was settled for me. It could have been a conversation before the silence but it wasn't, not for me.

We both could have said... Something akin to, my thoughts are these.. But we both chose not too.

At the end I just thought fine.. Next. 

Also other things had my attention where I was sinking lower and lower.

My priority was trying to face another day without losing my mind..

That's why I'm choosing to publish the comments because I'm not perfect.

I'm not always correct but this is my interpretation of the whole thing, anyone reading can agree or disagree and that's fine.

But I want to stop thinking about it and enjoy the weekend, without this hanging over me.

I'll never be a people person but I do love to talk (at times).

Considering my beginnings where I did not express myself at all.. I've become a right chatterbox...

See you next week, where they keep promising the heatwave is over and yet, awful humidity lingers, the fan cannot be turned off.

#BlogLife1114 - Don't tell me what to eat...

I feel awful with the cramps and heat, just yuck, wanting to lay down and not do anything..

But my brain is ticking away so I thought might as well get it down.

Firstly the randoms, the new one G isn't bad, interesting to talk too, about a variety of topics but one thing I find weird, he doesn't seem to shop or eat much..

Shops are all around him, so I guess he just grabs what he needs, but what if, he felt tired or injured himself lightly where it was just convenient to be at home, making a light snack..?

The couple times I've talked to him, he's just having a sandwich for dinner or nothing at all, just seems peculiar, that you'd be hungrier at the end of the day, unless he's fibbing?

And he will never double message you, if you haven't responded, sometimes I want to be chased or checked up on lol.

He did do it actually, after I had written this. I can talk about food endlessly though, it's harmless but with him, I don't think I will anymore, it's just too strange, which is disappointing.

Although I did note, as soon I mentioned the voice chat at some point, he initially agreed but that could be a reason for the quietness too...

The other random chat, I haven't really been in the mood, was also food related..

He was saying Don't eat too many carbs, it's not good for you and I thought sod off...

It's about moderation and not expecting everyone to weigh the same and only eat healthy, that's why so many people have eating disorders, other people's perceptions..

I always feel like I have to justify myself and food habits, by saying, I don't exercise, but there's been steady weightloss because I know what to do now, for my health.

So then, he sent this cringey message.... Love yourself or something and I thought you just made it worse, instead of apologising..

But for the first guy, I just want him to eat properly, so I did suggest, other light things, that don't need to be heated up in this heatwavey weather.

Oh yea turns out, I either haven't shopped with Sainsburys or it's been so long, it's disappeared.

There might not be a discount code, I saw some, but I'm sceptical if they will work.

But I still want to try them, probably £3 for delivery. They have a mud mask, lip balm and more I want to try..

Oh yea Morrison did send me 3x£12 code off my next 3x shops.

I don't know if I will use it. I miss Iceland's chicken pasta, also them bringing me sturdy bags, when It's G, delivering..

I tried the Morrison's chicken chow mein, I really liked that, small but £2 so good value and not too salty.

I was initially put off by how saucy it was but actually it had a good flavour so it blended nicely.

I forgot to rate the Linda McCartney sausage rolls, good heavens they have shrunk, tiny now.

The cooking seems hit and miss, first time I did it for 20 minutes and it seemed overcooked.

The second time, maybe 17 minutes and wildly undercooked, did it some more and still undercooked, the pastry didn't fluff up.

The taste is umm, bland, it's ok but it needs herbs.

The other nice thing is accumulating cashback from the different grocery stores, it's £10 now, which is sorely needed.

It's odd they don't give you much time to spend it, I'm waiting for the full £10 to clear and then I will add it to my balance.

I can't remember the minimum cashout, hence why I'm waiting.

My balance is just shrinking. I don't know if soon, there is enough to cover the bills each month. It's scary..

Today I feel like getting takeout but I also feel too guilty for spending..

There are 25% off deals but I'll stick with what I have at home, crackers, snacks and not much else.

The Sainsbury order is due tomorrow, so will probably post that on Monday, unless I feel like doing one tomorrow..

#BlogLife1113 - Eeek almost locked out of Chromebook

Ooh my, the sweet onion Ryvita is a game changer, my favourite version to date, subtle flavour, but it totally adds to it.

More delicious, that would be hard to beat, flavour wise. It's very moreish, so I will be enjoying that this week and a bit gutted, I didn't get two..

But then who knew if I would like it? Oh just had a scare trying to login on the laptop.

I hate that, it needs a password to login, unnecessary if you live alone.

And for the first time, it got to 3x failed logins and I was carefully typing it in, so how was that possible?

Then a message came back, We couldn't verify you, try to recover your account...

I thought screw that, so when I'm concentrating and it fails twice, I restart the Chromebook and I think it gives me 3x chances again.

So I figured it was worth a shot and it worked, I typed in the password and boom, it let me go on the internet..

But yikes, I've no idea how to recover it, if it's complicated, what email address it would go too?

The yahoo or the unused Googly. Ugh, glad it's over. Ooh I just remembered got to change the phone's wallpaper from the birthday cupcake, to something new.... Hmmm..

I switched to a porch at night. I just use the Zedge app, it's free to download but sometimes you watch an advert to get it.

Lots of commercials but it's very vibrant, it's already on Twitter (@SleeplessScrib1).

I slept in today, woke at 9amish but was still drained so decided if I could sleep more and then the next I checked it was 12pmish..

And now it's 2.30pm I finally feel like eating so I guess a brunchy first meal.

I had to use up the bagels, so toasted, buttered them and then added chilli cheese.

One will add beef too, and the other cod fish fingers. I don't usually butter them, but they were not fresh so probably needed help.

I could melt the cheese but I'm not bothered, just waiting for the main ingredients to cook.

For a second I thought the new fan had conked out, I didn't see the red charging light but it was hiding lol.

Something I didn't think about was Mr Freeze sour icepoles, have more sugar in them sadly..

I forgot they added more sugar to bitter things, to balance it out I guess.

Still better than the alternatives and a lot cheaper and better value, but I much prefer the original..

Would I buy it again? Yes, only for the heatwave situation, where it's hot 24-7.

There is no reprieve from it.

Some comparisons, olives from Morrisons, are a tiny bit saltier than Asda.

The Morrisons pasta bolognese is tiny and cheeseless, weird. It's ok taste wise, I added my own cheese..

But it's supposed to be a blend of macaroni cheese and bolognese...

This is the first time I've experienced it cheeseless, the Asda one was phenomenal!! Huge..

Oh I'm tempted by Sainsburys next, the Paw Paw lip balm, I've been dying to try is currently £2....

I've never seen it that cheap before.. Plus other things.. I'll see, this time, I'm making a list.

I've just tried the Morrison's chicken enchiladas, quite nice, probably needed a tad more cheese and I preferred the original..

Asda version, which was like a whiteish creamy sauce, that just blended better, rather than a tomatoey accompaniment, that kinda suits, beef better, in my opinion..

The cheaper crappier version it was replaced with wasn't great, but this Morrison's one, is an improvement.

I think I'll give a score at the end between Morrisons, Sainsbury's, Asda and Iceland.

Rating the helpfulness of the drivers, the food quality, the tracking and the deals..

#BlogLife1112 - What does friendship mean to you personally?

Umm I had some posts written that I was going to publish but something happened last night and this fresh one, needs to be written to clear my head.

I don't know if I'll post it first but I need to get this off my chest. If you're a regular reader, you'll know, I spent my life as an outsider, looking in...

Trying to bond, trying to fit with people and trying to get the respect back, that I bestowed upon others.

It just didn't work. I was seen as this quiet, so obviously uneducated girl, who didn't have anything worthwhile to offer.

At lot of the time, I was mocked and ignored and I didn't have a voice or opinion that seemed to matter to others.

Eventually I stepped back, worked on myself and got to a point, where I thought, Ok, I am smart, I am good company and any single person, that doesn't make me feel good, I will remove, whether with a goodbye or not....

So in the last couple of months, that's how I felt once again, pushed aside and ignored and that doesn't work for me.

That's how all the friendships/acquaintanceships have gone and I'm not going to stand for it.

My needs are important too. So I thought alright, it's expired, they'll move on and I'll do the same.

Because I am not chasing someone, that doesn't want me around.

I take it extremely personally. I understand, life get's busy, family, friends, work etc...

And if you're the type of person, to drop someone when you're busy and then months later, return like nothing happened, no apology, no remorse....

It's just not the type of relationship I can live with.

For me I want to be able to finally trust someone and let my walls down. To rely on them, to be able to just reach out and say...

Listen I need you right now, can we chat? If I don't feel that way, if I've not given some of your time....

I just don't see the point. I don't want to feel insecure or insignificant because I am not.

I have worked abundantly hard on my self esteem and no-one is going to make me feel as though I don't matter.

When someone casually dips in and out of your life, how do you trust that, they'll be around when you need them?

How can you possibly open up and say, there have been new developments, when you're constantly re-acquainting yourselves??

You can call it selfishness, coldness, whatever you like but I'm sick of the inconsistency.

I will never demand, all of someone's time but certainly Yes, a portion of it.

We all deserve, someone making the effort, someone thinking about us and caring, not out of guilt, but genuinely wondering..

Aww, I wonder if he/she is having a good week? I wonder what happened with so and so?

I'm curious if he/she is feeling better?

That's the bare minimum requirement of friendships. You have to listen, you have to respect and you have to support.

Not under any obligation, but because your heart is full and you feel this mushy need to protect them or seek them out..

Why am I saying all of this?

Not to be rude but I feel icky, so someone who had no compulsion to talk to me, at first, kept reading the blog.

And I felt a bit... This doesn't seem right because, you're able to read my thoughts and then try to find a way, to bond with me again??

I don't find this person bad hearted but what is on my mind....

Is that, they took me for granted, assumed, even after being cast aside, I would just resume the friendship...

Like I have nothing better to do, or will settle for tiny crumbs of affection...

And specifically after I wrote Goodbye on the blog, that's when it finally dawned on them, I was done.

They had months to reach out, while reading my blog and they did not...

Suddenly, it's like they've gone into panic mode and the messages come and now pending comments from them and/or someone new on my blog....

The apology, no matter how heartfelt... It's just too lil to late.

My safe space, the place where, I can be vulnerable and share things...

Feels tainted. I have not responded to them because I don't have anything to say.

If you don't want to talk, don't talk, but don't assume, I'll stick around either..

When you lift your head out of the sand and think shoot.... That was a good person....

I realise now, how foolish I was, how I hurt their feelings and it's too late to repair it.

Just accept reality, instead of creeping around.

You're not a bad person but everything you've done, has further pushed me away.

I needed someone in my corner and you proved, that person isn't you.

Although I am alone and will always be by myself. Today I'm not mourning it.

I can stand tall and know my self worth, that I won't settle and I won't put up with someone not meeting my needs...

The years and years I just endured unhealthy friendships because I didn't think I deserved real love and respect and affection and care......

And now look at me... I'm amazing. Still very far from perfection.

Still impatient.

Still an Ice Queenie but damn, maybe no-one will love and accept me for me but I know that I do and today, that's more than enough.

Question, whether you are really getting something positive from your friendships because it will chip away at your confidence.

I should work on being humble, right? Ha..

Do I allow the pending comments to be published or not? I'm so gutted that they aren't real but from a place of desperation.

My blog is my baby and what you've done, is stolen a lil peace and joy from me and I didn't have much to begin with.