#BlogLife1056 - Experiment concluded

It's been 1 month since I did the experiment, can a hand cream replace a moisturiser?

In my humble opinion? No. My face is combination so it has a lot of requirements.

Maybe I should have put it on the spin brush? But I personally don't think it would make a difference.

I still have dryness around the edges so I need a genuine moisturiser, for a cheap alternative, it was interesting though.

Half a fix maybe? I've just used the last of the Avon stuff, which was the mud mask.

I do not recommend it. Overpriced and did not hydrate my skin, not worth it.

I don't know how long it lasted, it can't be 5 months. It was a tiny tube.

Anyway I'll have to get another one and see what deals I can sniff out.

Hopefully it will be a new brand but it will always come down to the price.

When I get a nicer cleanser, then I might add it and the Nivea cream to the face brush routine as well as having a separate moisturiser..

I'll see...I've just done the washing, hopefully the sun will dry it quickly.

I chopped my nails short because my nail snagged and tore and I like to make them even.

I don't mind them like that, although when they are longer, it looks more feminine ha.

I'm craving cereal bars or biscuits, something other than yoghurt but I can wait until my next shop, no more top ups unless it's absolutely necessary.

Oh I tried the Aunt Bessies roast potatoes, nice and smallish, good flavour.

I should have seen how much the gravy is.. I only cooked them for 20 minutes because my oven is hot but I can see why they recommend 30ish.

It was done but maybe an extra 5/6 minutes would have made it a touch softer. It was crispy though.

The potato pops, malteser size, are better actually, maybe because they are smothered in butter or maybe other seasonings..

Oh at some point I have to ring EE, they keep calling me but my contract isn't up for another year..

I don't know if the saline will arrive today. They said before 5pm but they also said, they will send it to the local sorting office first...

Very confusing. I haven't heard the regular Postie and it's nearly 12pm, maybe I missed them?

I went ahead and trimmed my hair, it seemed messy. Oh that was fun.

Never have I seen live tracking for Royal Mail, so they said 5x stops ahead and it was auto refreshing.

It gave me a rough idea because it kept changing the due time and I knew it was due anytime and then boom buzzed and I got it.

Maybe because it wasn't the standard Postie but a special one, is the reason live tracking was an option?

I'm currently sorta watching In Living Color, an ancient sketch show....

I thought it would be better, small bits of it are good, the rest is so so.

I snapped at one of the randoms. I was already feeling raw, because of Friday's no show and he just decides that's the time to blank me.

So I left. I saw him today and he could have apologised or explained but none of that occurred.

So if you do it again, don't bother talk to me and his only response.... When you know someone is already angry...

Is to say Oh but I replied and you had left lol. I don't know why that angered me more.

I think it's because if I hurt someone's feelings, I'd own up and say, I'm really sorry, it wasn't intentional, something came up.

But I can listen to you now...... You know something kinder but he was like meh, not my problem, kinda, attitude.

And my family treating me like crap is one thing, I have to endure that, like I always have...

Strangers doing it? No no no! So I said, Just don't talk to me from now on.

I am done with everyone treating me like crap. I know, well, I guess I realised I had reached my limit, being surrounded by cold indifferent people.

I have to say, I don't feel embarrassed even though it was a strong reaction, I actually feel good for standing up for myself and speaking my mind.

And not just taking someone's thoughtlessness :)

#BlogLife967 - On to the next one..

Well the last of the Avon cream cleanser squirted out over the brush, how long did that last?

Hmm only 3 weeks, not good value, my usuals last longer than that and with no scent, I wouldn't get it again.

It did leave my face moisturised and smooth but so do other products which are a lot cheaper and larger.

I'll let you know the next one I use next tomorrow or whenever this goes up..

I opted for the blemish one, at second sniff it smelled like berries and I thought ooh, finally a fragrance.

But alas no, the reality of it was glue, a yucky glue smell.

Ugh but surprisingly it was a cream cleanser, I was expecting a gel one one somehow.

I'm not concerned, my skin is loving the lightness.

Plus it's winter, so extra hydration is never a bad thing.

I'm almost tempted to open the papaya surely that has a beautiful perfume to it.

I doubt it though.

Yesterday yeesh burned my eyes with the contact lens cleaner, youchy. 

Today I slept so badly, the binmen woke me up, they came at 5am yeesh.

I took a stand or rather a seat. As all the lower level seats were taken, I sat on the elderly/disabled seat, on the bus.

I usually don't, but I am shattered and having fun blogging on the bus actually. 

Nobody needed it so that was cool. Not sure if I got any dirty looks, haven't looked up but my face has been going through all the emotions. 

Anyway I'm not important enough to be observed.

Hmm 10 mins to spare, should I go to Tesco?? I didn't want to risk being late so didn't bother.

Ugh the advisor said, make the font on the cv larger, it's bloody tiny as it is, to fit it on 2 pages.

Then he goes add the end dates, who can remember that far back.

Then he said Oh come back later for yet another cv professional ffs or return Thursday, the swine.

So nauseated, tired I opted for Thursday, I don't know if it's this week or next, I'm shattered.

I'm not gonna touch it, they can sort it.

I didn't go to get the samosas, popped in briefly to the international store and picked up this chocolate fudge cake slab for £2.50 it's huge.

By the brand Four Lakes, I think I've tried their lemon loaf, coffee cake and maybe one other, I'm not sure, delicious though.

I also saw Rubicon sparkling passionfruit drink, normally I see orange but that was the only thing there that appealed, actually pretty nice.

Now I'm home and my back is aching, I did a mini Zoom shop. I got the fiver lunch deal.

There was a 3x meal deal for a tenner. Plus some date, plum and hazelnut biccies for £3 ouch.

Lastly I got the Itsu teriyaki 8 chicken bao buns to try £4.25 and the 12x regular chicken gyoza £4.60.

I just wanted snack foods, nothing taxing. Mama texted to say she would come to my place and hand over the stuff.

But I feel that's too cruel and inconvenient to travel all that way to me, and as shattered as I will be tomorrow, I said would meet her in the market.

Crikey if I have to head out Thursday, 3 days in a row, I will be dead on my feet.

Tomorrow or Thursday I'll try to make it to Tesco so I'm not tempted to order more food.

I'll see, I'm thoroughly drained. I'm actually curious if Tesco has any new speciality items, during Christmas which isn't here, they normally do.

I didn't ask Mama to get me anything tomorrow, if I pop in Tesco, I'll get her a drink and see what the veggy options are.

She hasn't told me what time we are meeting, will probably leave it until the last minute, I feel irritated already.

I wish I was tired enough to sleep, I guess I can't anymore, the zoom stuff is due.

I'll put up foodie reviews, either this week or whenever I have the energy and inspiration to share.

One last thing I haven't needed to charge the face brush yet. Oh crap I was going to use the old one as a body scrub and forgot.

#BlogLife962 - Avon fest beginneth..

As of the 13th (Monday night), I finished the Neutrogena face wash and now to chose which Avon face wash to try..

Between Anew gentle cream cleanser (£4.95) or Clearskin supercharge cleanser (£4.28) or Skin Glow vitamin c and papaya extract.. (£5.40)

Then eventually when my mask finishes.. Clearskin blemish clearing clay mask (£2.93).

I wonder if they are all unscented. I hope not. I'm going for the Anew cream cleanser as my forehead and nose are a lil dry.

Tomorrow I'll let you know what I think. Hmm sadly the Anew cream doesn't have a smell.

No invigorating the senses. It's a thin cream and feels light so that's positive. It doesn't foam on the brush.

My skin feels soft, no more greasiness. Tonight I'll try to remember to use it with the face brush.

Now I'm trying the Namdong chicken noodle pot. The beef Fuel10k protein is awful, it doesn't blend well, I'm avoiding that brand.

Oh it did have a chilli sachet included but I binned it, not into that.

It smells nice and didn't need extra water, I did it for 5 minutes. This is my favourite, like sweet chilli or sweet and sour.

Delicious and for once tastes chickeny, with a small hint of spice, yum.

I got back from the UC appointment a while ago, ugh my back is killing me for some reason.

I felt like I got a broken up hour's sleep altogether. I woke up, my eye's were burning so reset the alarm for 30 minutes, slept and felt a bit better weirdly.

I wasn't running early and not sure I had the energy anyway to go to Tesco for sandwiches so skipped it.

My advisor wasn't there so I was glad and no yucky referrals to anywhere.

I picked up the chicken samosas, not bad, 5x £3. The raita is lovely and mild and goes well dipping into it, mint, cucumber and yoghurt and whatever else, lovely.

But I got KFC too, because my lovely local cafe is gone and Pret didn't have the chicken baguette.

Actually I realised I fancied fries and for once KFC did it fresh so samosas and a burger leftover for later.

The landlord's doing this boiler audit thingy tomorrow, Monday/Tuesday but I don't think it's mandatory.

I just ignored it, let them roam around checking someone else's boiler, I'm shattered.

If I ever warm up, I can do the heated shiatsu massager on my back later, it's throbbing a lot.

I also forget that I barely sleep before a meeting, I just assume loud party music will perk me up.

I did pop into that international store, I fancied nutty chocolate but they weren't on offer so I declined and just got some cookies and a Vimto.

I finally remembered to get some minty tictacs, no weird flavoured ones, in case I'm feeling sicky, which I was this morning.

Still no monthly, will I be skipping 2 months? That would be heaven.

Oh and as usual I forgot to pluck my brows, I really did intend too but slipped my mind.

I don't know how much I'll be blogging at present. I'm just not feeling good.

Taking off the pressure by not volunteering and not writing felt really beneficial to me.

Why don't I feel sleepy? This is an ideal time to nap, I think the pain is too strong.

#BlogLife954 - Change of mind(set)

I slept off and on but I was coughing a bit although the lemon essential oil on my pillow helped.

But the pain and sickness just made me feel a bit low and I didn't do much, which is probably a good thing as the intensity would have increased.

I don't feel guilty for having a light day and taking care of my body.

I might do a mini Zoom shop tomorrow to get some bits and pieces as I'm running low and it's not time for the weekend shop yet.

I unpacked the Zoom few discounts, the physical pain from hands/legs practically gone.

But it's the cramps and nausea that is debilitating me. I'm hoping the clementine juice, the binaural beats and the lemon essential oil will work miracles.

I just did a Beautizone order as the last body butter is finishing. I'll calculate how long it lasted later.

I got the American Dream lemon body butter reduced to £6 and a cocoa butter one, also £6.

I've not tried those. I really wanted to try the papaya but it was £7.50 so no thank you.

I also saw a Nicka K lip scrub £4 so my mouth is dry at the moment and will see how that performs.

The postage was £4 boo but I couldn't see any discount codes but at least the products themselves were reduced and they will last months and months.

Actually lasted 8 months, last order was February. 4 months per body butter as it's 500ml tub.

Ugh sorry no blog today, I am hot, cold, tummy's hurting, throat is sore, yuckity yuck and now feel stuffy.

Ahh just realised the pesto pasta is missing from the Zoom order I was having they would give me a voucher but just a refund.

Also the charger I got with the phone I won, the OnePlus has split and that's dangerous but it's the only charger I have so I ordered a new one.

Last time it caught fire so I hope it lasts until the new one arrives.. Eeek.

Pesto sounds like something I'd like but in large doses, the green one, I'm not sure I do, it's overpowering..

Although now I'm mixing it up, there's something else which is tapering it off, oil maybe?

I decided to shop at Avon and stock up on a few things, beauty reviews coming up.

I got some discounts and the delivery was £3.50 ouchy..

Perfume sample 10ml 90p Far away beyond the moon.

Clearskin pink clay mask 75ml £2.93

Skin Glow cleanser 200ml £5.40

Anew sensitive cream cleanser 150ml £4.95

Clearskin supercharged cleanser 150ml £4.28

£21.96 that cost for 3x face washes, a perfume sample and a mud mask, plus delivery.

Not really bargains but my face needs new products to shake it up a bit.

If you're wondering why I got the perfume sample? I had to make up the order by a lil to get a discount ha.

It will be nice if I've timed it right and it all gets here before Sunday.

(It's currently Wednesday night). Well now it's Thursday morning and I feel stuffy so sprinkled lemon essential oil and sipping the last bit of the clementine juice, while under the blankie.

I think as it's October I have to manually pull myself out of the stressy funk and go back to writing stories.

Starting from tomorrow, every weekend until Christmas I will work on the festive story so that it's released this year.

I told myself I was going to ignore every chaotic thing around me but I didn't, I couldn't.

I don't know what to do about Mama, she's toxic, not always and I'm not ideal either but I'm teetering on the edge.

I don't want to sink lower than I am already, maybe I'll limit the visits and call and texts or wean her out slowly....

That's one option as if I do get locked up, I can see myself cutting ties with everyone and disappearing inside myself again but this time, not having the strength or the inclination to uplift myself back up again.

As for dwp, I've decided when the report is ready, I'll just add an apology note to the letter and come what may.

She wants to bury me, good for her, Here's the shovel, happy digging. I'm too tired to fight.

For now I'll just carry on until the inevitable happens..

A new show I've gotten into Hotel Costiera I recommend, kinda mystery and crime, like Leverage, Finder..