#BlogLife385 - Left ear trouble..

Song of the day - Daryl Hall/John Oates - Maneater

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yRYFKcMa_Ek

October is quickly leaving us. Halloween and Guy Fawkes night are fast approaching. I love winter but I'm not keen on those holidays.

The fireworks look pretty but the noise and smoke always made me feel eerie and as you know I'm not into horror or anything creepy.

But for those of you who are, I hope you have a wonderful celebration and we are also in the midst of Diwale so triple good times.

My stomach is still up and down. One minute it is fine and the next minute, it's just upset.

All my headphones are driving me a bit crazy. I've had the Beats set that my mama gave me last Christmas for the longest and now they are wearing away at the cushion bit.

It just bugs me how much they randomly disconnect and that if you connect it to your phone before a call, it will just cut off as the call establishes itself..

Then you manually reset it each time ughhh! Why doesn't it just remain on and remember the volume setting instead of always being low.

Then the Q33 earbuds are no longer lasting all night and I have finally had to start fiddling with the button controls on the right one as it seems stuck on the lowest sound.

Everytime I try to adjust it, the left one says maximum volume, ugh, pipe down righty, nobody is talking to you.

It just doesn't want to rectify itself. I use this set as it has the longest battery and is comfortable but I might switch to the other one and see if that is any better.

I've just worked out it's faulty. I waited until the left one died and maneuvered the sound to maximum and it's still low so that set is useless, if you want sound in both ears. Grr

I'm waiting on the postie to see if he has my phone stand yet. Even before the strikes, the delivery times were lapse.

It's nearly 2pm and still no post. It used to be 9am, what happened to that service?

Maybe I missed him.. Ooh I found some new mobile games. I have noticed that the resolution seems crisper and higher quality than my previous phone.

I'm not sure why the silly screen keeps locking when I've switched off that feature. Grr and I worked out how to disable voicemails.

There is Detective Masters where you're solving simple crimes, interrogating, finding objects and such. Simple but entertaining and you can play it offline.

Carmen Stories - Detective game with a solitaire game and clues along the way. I was hoping this had a mixture of different puzzles. It's dull after a spell.

Oh and I thought I would give Scrabble Go another shot. I love word games, it keeps my brain sharp.

Plus just switch off wifi to avoid the adverts where possible. They are super long and annoying and can barely be clicked off.

Ahh Scopely, the same makers, who came up with Looney Tunes, have changed the rules. You cannot use the app without wifi anymore. Drat.

The players have slightly increased brain functions, not all of them use 2/3 letter words constantly and overlap so that I can spread out words and open the board.

They have added a play against the computer and that is a real challenge. It's a bit too addictive though so I've switched off my phones.

I've just recently broken out in hormonal pimples all over my face ugh. I'm trying to use the face brush and they are slowly lessening but I hate looking bumpy.

Oh and not looking forward to tomorrow. A long day of two meetings, spaced apart. One in the morning and another in the afternoon but that means probably no naps.

I don't normally schedule 2 together but I didn't have much choice.

#BlogLife384 - Is it you?

I was going through the old phone making sure everything is copied over. Crumbs, I haven't even checked the images/photo album. 

I'll get to it.. and I glanced at the blocked text folder because I can't recall if it stays blocked on the new phone or you have to re-block and I don't tend to do that.

They seem to have gotten the message after my absent replies. I didn't expect to see anything but junk as usual when I saw these..

Monday - Are we still friends? Been thinking about you, tried to call you one time.

I'm only free to speak today or tomorrow, if you respond.

Tuesday - Hi baby x

Lol. I wouldn't normally post snippets of text out but it's making me laugh. I'm totally over him and his ridiculous attitude now.

I had to look up the number as I wasn't even sure who it was but then I thought ahhh so it is..

He was expecting me to jump and reply straight away. He must have fell off his chair when I didn't.

I like the bit about trying once hahaha :D I mean nobody wants to be forgettable.

I haven't been missing him or pining or wishing for a reunion, I've been stressing and busy and getting on with life.

Maybe I should have changed my number but updating it all over the place and then forgetting a few and missing something vital would have aggravated me.

I'm not tempted to unblock or respond. He didn't say, sorry about how things ended or I know I've treated you badly.

Just the opposite, let's sweep everything under the carpet. Get in contact under my parameters as I'm in control and wait around until I disappear on you again... Pfft.

Men seem to think I'm this idiotic pushover. Look I can be nice, friendly, sweet and loyal but if you kill the faith/trust then don't let the door hit your tushy on the way out!

I'm sure you'll have no issues replacing my number with the 101 women you told me you have..

Next......!!!

#BlogLife383 - Listen.. For a price?!

Song of the day - Rome/Destra - Lie Lie Lie

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kZmCTmCVpbM&list=PLC743C3F57E46E499&index=44

Truthfully I haven't volunteered for ages now. I've been busy and stressed and it's better to support when I'm more relaxed.

But I recently got some emails to say things are changing. You have to reapply because we're changing applications and upgrading.

I thought to myself.....Hmm I'm not sure I can be bothered. I feel less motivated at the moment with all the spam and perverted chats that I get.

However on reading further I noticed something very surprising. It's changing into a paid service so that will weed away the idiots and possibly the perverts for sure.

It's a shame about the genuine less fortunate who will no longer be able to afford it but there are other places around.

It also stated that volunteers are going to receive some sort of incentive also, which turns things around significantly.

That would definitely come in handy for Christmas, although I have been saving gift vouchers and various credits to prepare for this.

I'm sorry to sound greedy but it would be so amazing to actually be compensated for it.

Like I've said before some are emotionally scarring and others are just taxing and if they can afford it, it would benefit people that are passionate about the role.

I don't know if I'm passionate but I do throw my all into it and I am very good at it, most of the time.

I haven't decided what to do yet, there's not much information shared so I have until the end of the month to decide.

Volunteers don't pay fees. I'm not sure if we are still entitled to free chats under this new regime either.. Hmm..

Well I have just sent a note to say I am interested and when they send me the training I will either pass or fail and that will be that.

I don't see it as being owed money but if you think listening to heartbreaking stories is easy, day after day, time after time, ignorantly assuming you can walk away and not be affected pffft, think again.

It will trouble your mind. Plus all the unsavoury chats just make you feel unclean, it's a lot to deal with and there are times with no support so for regular, non counsellors, I mean it's tough to swallow at times.

#BlogLife382 - Samsung A13 Return of the brick..

Song of the day - UB40 - Reasons

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B_iE7GzWdnI&list=FLI0DEk_aDykRP0sJnme-JBg&index=126

I'm relieved it's in my hands. I was gonna sneakily cover my hand over the expired date on my passport but the DPD driver just snapped my piccy and asked my name and then handed it over.

That's a relief, then I had to work out how to get the wrapping off and a sharp tug did it. How does one switch on the phone? The middle button.

As soon as you see whatever language you require click on start I think it was, otherwise it keeps recycling through all the languages.

Yikes I didn't see a way to fast forward and it warned me about tapping too much or I would have to set up a pin or some garbage.

Next I set up the wifi, had to snap a pic of the wifi code and type it in and that was followed by transferring data to the new phone via smart switch I think.

Next comes the personalisations, to your taste but I always prolong the screen display time, download swiftkey but actually i'm having more fun with the samsung keyboard.

Eventually I will get the christmassy wallpapers and I don't intend to get a case as this phone is much heavier than the last one.

Oh heavens I got to work out how to do the PAC code and BT sent me an unlock pin but this is a new phone, mind you with a BT sim card....

I haven't put either sim in and I have a memory card. Ooh I forgot to add as well as the unlimited texts/minutes..

I told her I just wanted 1gb of data just to tide me over, as I don't use it, except in emergencies like power cuts and maintenance workers switching my wifi off..

She said I'm giving you 4gb. I had 6 before lol. I'm not fussed. Better to have extra I suppose.

On hold with EE as the PAC code didn't register on their website so either they gave me the wrong one or..

Reading the delivery note it seems it's 5g with 2 sim slots available and of course the sd slot.

Well that was crazy, the representative said that I had completed all the steps and it would be activated tomorrow probably maybe around this time so 5pmish possibly..

I didn't have to put in the BT sim into the EE phone after all. I didn't see the point of that anyway.

I don't want to have to remember a new number or change it and update people.

I kept the volte thingy setting on which means it will automatically switch to 4g if that's available.

I did have headphones on and he could hear me properly and he was crystal clear so that side works.

I haven't tried the internet. Oh it came 50% charged if you are curious and I'll wear it out and then restore it to health.

I'm gutted it didn't come with a plug but I have my old one to use.

The apps and bookmarks didn't migrate so I'll just add them manually. I haven't transferred my sd card yet. I'll do that tomorrow.

I must remember to set the default location to the sd card for the camera and browser.

I don't have many apps really. A screen dimmer, music player, games, screen on always and that was it.

Right last few steps now that the number transfer is complete. BT emailed me at 8am and it didn't seem mandatory but I restarted both phones and the BT sim said emergency calls only.

I just have to insert my 64gb memory card. It seems excessive but I had a 4gb card I think or 8gb and that was bursting so it felt time to upgrade.

Now it's up to you if you choose to format it and have it locked to that device. I never do as I upgrade as often as possible.

But watch out for that, there is a option that deletes the entire contents of you card, ouchy!

At least I'm glad all but 4/5 songs migrated over. I'm not sure why phones stopped having music apps but meh no matter.

The apps didn't duplicate which is another new thing. The camera asked me if I wanted to change storage to the sd card but I don't know where the setting is to do it for the overall phone..

Remember to set it for your browsers also, if you download as much as me, that's useful.

As for the battery life, it's too soon to tell, with light use today and yesterday, calls, texts, gaming, internet, bluetooth, it is showing 81%.

I've done a few more calls without the headphones and had no issues, unlike the last phone.

They could all hear me clearly and vice versa. They weren't telling me it was a bad line and to speak up or anything like that.

#BlogLofe381 - She sold me..

Song of the day - Jason Derulo/Tesher - Jalebi Baby

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5fWXgpyWrLo&list=FLI0DEk_aDykRP0sJnme-JBg&index=35

The Gullon cookies are a £1 and contain 6 chunky biscuits inside. They are sugar free and loaded with chocolate chips.

I've tried the dark chocolate digestives variety and those had the bitterest aftertaste. I couldn't stand it.

These have a similar bitterness not as strong but not that pleasant either. They are a good size and I didn't expect them to have that much width but they do.

It's good value for money but I don't think I would buy it again. That tart flavour just stays until you wash it away with a beverage or another snack.

Hmm the second taste was slightly improved. I don't know if it's just me but there is a slight coconut flavour, it's not my favourite and no aftertaste.

It's a strange mix of slightly to completely unsatisfactory. I wouldn't recommend it personally, there are better brands that don't make me cringe when consuming them.

I like the Nairn brand better with it's hint of sweetness.

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Oof what a whirlwind. Due to that person, who shall not be named, my morning was tied up.

I paid some bills and then telephoned/queued up just to see if I could get an early upgrade and I finally got connected to someone after 50 minutes and then boom, she couldn't hear me and disconnected.

I was livid, shaking my phone, wanting to throw it out the window, after listening to that depressing hold music.

Then luckily she called back sympathetically and said aww I saw that you were waiting a long time, so I checked up on you.

What a lovely person she was. Very impressive. I can't see many people doing that, these days.

Anyway she confirmed that I was indeed eligible. I had been googling Samsung phones, even though all phones annoy me.

They seem to bug me the least and I wanted an ideal. I certainly didn't intend to get a new phone but I was dying for one for this entire year to be honest.

As usual us cheapskate low budgeted users don't get the choice of colours, the pinks, reds, purplys.

Mean, mean meanies!!! It was either black or white and I can't stand a white phone for 2 years, nopity nope!

The A13/A53 and A23 were all contenders but I wanted to pay less. I'm saving just under a whopping pound, boo.

Although I could negotiate my broadband costs, we'll see, it was a package deal after all.

Anyway after comparing the costs and thinking I don't want to go back to big bills. I opted for the A13.

I wanted an upgrade, check, it came out March this year I think she said.

I would have prefer a lighter and smaller screen boo, but that was a long shot.

My A41 screen size is 6.1 and this A13 will be 6.6 inches. The exciting thing is the battery life from 3000mah to 5000mah woop!!

That has got to stop me needing to charge it 3/4 times a day. It does have fast charging yay. She didn't mention the version. If it's 4g or 5g.

To be honest I think only 3g was stable but I don't know if 4g was working better lately so I'm not fussed, just curious.

I'm hoping that the speaker doesn't need a bluetooth headset attached to be heard but we shall see.

I wasn't really invested in picking a particular phone because it always seems to be out of my price range anyway.

I can't track the order though which is frustrating. It doesn't come under BT and EE don't recognise my number as valid.

I'm just hoping the carrier, DPD, I think send me an email tomorrow morning saying it's out for delivery.

I'm glad they don't charge for the PAC code. I don't think I've ever put one in before. I'm keeping my number.

I can't recall ever paying for a delivery charge. EE has a cheek for valued customers, even though technically I'm a newbie.

I do like the next day delivery though even after 3pm. I was waiting for her to say 7 working days lol.

I should set the alarm for tomorrow and then panic if there are no email updates.

She said that I'll get a new sim card and when the old one dies, the new one is ready.

I wonder how long that will take, if it dies prematurely and the parcel is delayed...... I am in trouble!!

I just realised I wonder what android version I'll be now...

Just to add that I was just about to call EE at 9am but DPD texted and said it's due between 2-3pm so that's a relief as there have been no order email confirmation and I wanted that for reference.

I just always get nervous hoping they don't look too closely at my expired passport. It's still me but I refuse to waste money and renew it, just for ID purposes.

Ooh I just realised, normally they say have your photo ID handy but they didn't mention that in the text.

Maybe he will do what most of them do, knock, leave the parcel and then leave lol.

I have utility bills, the text from the courier. what more do you want??

If I had trustworthy neighbours I would be tempted to let them collect it but I don't.

Another thing annoying me is that in the fine print, it says I'll be charged extra for cancelling early.

I've never paid fees for early renewals. They keep saying they are the same company, so why should I be fined???

It's only £20ish but still. it's the principle of the thing! I'm experimenting with day 2, washed hair curlers to see if they give me a wave on my dry hair..

How are you liking the songs of the day? You haven't clicked on it? Tut tsk!

Ha, just do whatever pleases you :)

#BlogLife380 - Christmas in October?

Song of the day - Marcia Miranda - Thiefing Parang Band

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=elnzBRsYqB4&list=PLC743C3F57E46E499&index=32

I'm still enjoying blogging rather than writing the stories currently. I will get back to it but the days are going by so quickly.

I have a confession to make. I know it's only October and you may think differently about me after I tell you this.

But here goes........ I've been listening to......... Christmas music already. I'm sorry I'm one of those all year round I can listen to festive tunes.

In particular my own playlist which is a mixture of traditional, new and old songs.

I mainly contain it to the party types but there are a few softer jams in there.

I think it's because it's just another genre of happy playful feelgood music so it uplifts my spirits when I really need it.

In particular I've gotten into Soca Parang which can sometimes have a really funny story to go along with it so as well as bopping your head, you're laughing too.

To be honest, not all of them are Christmassy but certainly party music so I added them to make the list longer.

The boiler is still confusing me. I thought it was off last night, the radiator was cold but I don't think it was off as I wasn't shivering and that's a good indication, the damn thing is still on. Grr!

I'm playing around with the concept of using the off switch on the monitor but that seems really harsh, what if it just takes even longer to get the heating on?!

I just thinking that at least I would know it was off for sure. I don't want higher than average bills as everything had skyrocketed, even with the concessions.

Ooh I think I am finally getting the hang of it. I remembered what he said now and it all seems to click into place, instead of guesswork.

The top digits has to be higher than the lower big number (the room temperature), in order to switch on the heating. To disable it, I just decrease it and now it properly stays inactive and I don't have to fret that's it running up costs.

I called up about my meeting today and my stomach is still upset so I was half relieved when he said the lift is still busted and I could have a phone meeting.

Except that he mumbled something incoherent about pushing it later so instead of it being now and I could get it over and done with.

It's in an hours time grr. I'm fully prepped but it's like he's saying. Ugh because you've inconvenienced me. I'm going to punish you for it and delay this conversation.

What the hell is gonna happen for the next time..? The lift isn't getting fixed any time soon it seems.

I really am attempting to control the stress but more things keep being piled on to my plate.

I should eat breakfast but I think I'll wait until after he calls and I feel more relaxed. I'm not even peckish at this point, I just think my tum tum would feel better with food inside it.

It's really bugging me that as a sick person I feel like I have to grovel and keep stating my purpose, even though these people are already fully aware of it.

Oh let's throw her a bone and give her this one thing she's harping on about but next time we'll just carry on ignoring her. Hell what does she expect?

That we care??? Pah, fat chance. Dream on chicky!!!

#BlogLife379 - Disabled? Nope unacceptable!

I'm used to certain attitudes. I've been introduced to a lot of consultants who are supposed to advocate for those who has health issues and disabilities and not one of those have helped me.

They increase my stresses and strains and put pressure on me to be "normal" and not as I am which is a sick person struggling.

I didn't realise how angry I was about the lift situation until I was explaining it to another person but it was because once again instead of someone accommodating MY NEEDS, they are uncatered for.

I was telling her, I'm used to that sort of response and she looked so gutted and guilty, even though it's not her fault.

She was just listening and supporting me, telling me to put my health first and foremost and that she would give me anything I needed, I just had to ask.

I did really require that actually. I thought I had shrugged it off and although I wasn't shouting, I was laughing it off but I was disgusted.

I did update her on the whole situation. Particularly the stairs and she was horrified and ready to intervene but I stopped her.

I just needed someone to hear me out, I guess. I don't understand the manner, it seems counter-productive.

If you want to motivate someone, shouldn't you see what their needs are and the best way to help them along, instead of forcing them into weird unattainable duties??

Is the thinking behind it..... If I push and push, she'll relent and give in and do things my way, even though her physical/mental well-being will drastically suffer to her detriment?!

I honestly don't understand it. I get coercing someone gently into something different but doable but this isn't that, not even close!

I feel dangerously ignored as though, there's no point saying I'm limited to certain activities because I'm talked over and nothing I admit, is taken into consideration.

What's so threatening about having a disabled person on your list? I'm still a human being, I just have different specifications.

Rolls my eyes. Same ol same ol nonsense. Never quite disabled enough to matter and I'm the only one that cares about my safety!

I constantly have to put up with this crap!!! 

#BlogLife378 - Munch a bunch..

Song of the day.. Ayo Jay - Let Him Go.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8OJm8tbk_mg&list=FLI0DEk_aDykRP0sJnme-JBg&index=7

I'm in an even more than usual musical mood. I've discovered some new artists and going through their works and it's putting me at ease.

Last night I was listening to it for a few hours before bed until I felt my eyes were closing.

I think as well as using music for PTSD coping mechanisms while I'm outside, I definitely use it to keep people at bay and appear unapproachable.

I shouldn't be like that but I just want to be free to roam and not focus on the difficulties of walking and the surroundings.

In the market, there are various stands where I can be stopped and badgered. 

I try to avoid their paths and don't get hassled anymore. One guy was literally following me, saying don't ignore me, look at me.

Ughhh. In that type of job, shouldn't you be thick skinned, to realise most people will bypass you as they are hurrying to get on and don't have time for your inconsequential sales pitch!!

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I think I've tried the pretzels before, although it could have been a different make but these Ulker snacks taste fresh, crispy, not too salty and yummy.

Holy moly they were 50p ha. That is such a bargain, I would have picked 2 up if I had known. They pack a lot into it.

If you have ever tried the chocolate pretzels they are my favourites but if you're not in a chocolate mood, I would highly recommend these.

They also had the Maretti chips so I picked up the tomato version, just like mushrooms, I hate raw tomatoes but the flavour in other things is delicious... Go figure..

I did actually fancy chocolate. I'm having the pmt/pms symptoms, cramps, nausea and bloating so I picked up the faux ferreros in biscuit form aka Happy TIme for £1.30.

I still hate wafers and would never buy them but in this biscuit, it's sublime.

I'm not in the mood for a traditional heavy dinner so aside from breakfast sandwiches, I've been nibbling treats.

Ooh the tomato chips are very understated. When you open the bag and smell it, you get hit with a pizza scent. It's 90p.

It's mild, a bit creamy but flavourful, again not too salty, very crispy. Hmm I'm glad I tried it but I think I prefer the sour cream, it's just livelier.

The Aynoor sliced chicken with herbs, looked really tasty. I was either going to add it to pasta or sandwiches.

I decided to sample some of it solo and was just surprised that it was a gimmick.

There was no other flavour aside from the chicken. I thought it was going to have this flair of seasoning. I'm gutted it's bland.

That was £2.50 for maybe 8 slices which I don't recommend as there is no difference at all.

#BlogLife377 - Does my butt look big in this?

Giggling... The answer to the title question is...? Who the hell cares!!

I'm just happy my trousers finally arrived. I've actually seen some feminine skirts on Yours Clothing but they aren't on sale so I don't want to get them yet.

By the time they are reduced they'll probably be sold out but I'll take that risk for now.

I have a strong feeling all the trousers are going to be biggish at the waist as that dips in and are slightly loose at the hips as they seem to be a roomy fit.

I'm in two minds whether to chance it and start ordering the size below but will that be too snug??

Tomorrow I'll chance it and wear the new boots and something from the new collection. I haven't decided yet.

Out of all of them the grey trousers with the line going down is the heaviest and thickest.

I was hoping they all were but the red, print and other black set are on the thinner-ish scale.

The line one is misleading it was supposed to be a black to offset the grey shade but the line is grey tut tsk. Still cute but not as advertised!!

The black and white print, that isn't what I thought it would be either. It's not white, it's a black design over a silver trousers but I don't mind that actually, it's just totally misleading ha!!

#BlogLife376 - Half sexy construction/lumberjack worker ensemble

Hey all. How did you sleep last night? I honestly could have killed my neighbours bang, thud, crash, bang BANG! Grrr!

This went on from 11pm when I went to bed, really tired actually until maybe 2/3am.

Even through headphones I heard them, such utter idiots!!! How are you so thoughtless and unaware or uncaring that people are trying to sleeeeeeeep!!!

Anyway the lil rest that I did get was pretty deep and rejuvenating. I woke up at 6am and fell back asleep until maybe 7ish and didn't get up until 8ish.

It was a very sluggish morning but I was excited to try the boots and trousers. Even my hair behaved itself.

I didn't really have much time to do anything and still catch an early bus, no makeup at all but no matter I was in a good mood.

The bottom half of me looked male lmao. Baggy trousers and almost workmen booties. I didn't think the brown and grey would work together but damn it was a cute ensemble.

The only thing is I'm a shortie at under 5ft8 sooo pants pretty much swim on me.

You can't see the boots, just the tips, the trousers are at this point on the ground.

They look great but I seem to be in-between sizes. The hip area, lil too big, the waist, kinda big and it almost feels like I need to hike them up while walking as they slide down, not dangerously so but enough... To worry me.

I don't really like belts. If there was someone local, I would have them, hem them in a bit

The booties are mostly comfy, the tongue bit started digging in but I rearranged it and tucked my trousers in and it was better.

They look way more expensive than £20 hee hee. Sadly they don't stay tucked in.

I guess some people would fold them over.. Hmmm I'm not sure if they would stay like that anyway...

And others would just wear heels but I'm at the point where I can't do even block heels or platforms anymore, the mobility is really excruciating so flat it is.

Aside from the quirks I'm pleased with my choices. Oh on the top side I was donning this flowery bluey/purply top so that looked feminine.

But from the waist down I felt kinda man-nish ha. I didn't care though, I felt confident and perky.

It feels like it has been a while since I was happy with an outfit.

#BlogLife375 - Chatty chicks watching flicks 4 - Bridgerton edition

I find myself hurrying the year up so we can catch up on all the drama of Bridgerton in 2023.

After watching both seasons, what's your favourite or do you like them equally well?

For me I have to say the second is far more entertaining. It just made me laugh more and there was more playfulness.

The first season seemed more angst ridden. I wonder if Edwina will be in series 3 and will she find a love interest? The Prince perhaps?

I also wonder if they are going to throw Colin and Penelope together what is going to happen when he finds out about her alter ego??

I'm not sure he is the forgiving type. I'm still on the fence about that couple, he still doesn't seem quite over Marina.

I feel like if she suddenly clicked her fingers and asked Colin to run away with her, he wouldn't hesitate....

Also what is it going to take to repair Eloise and Penelope's friendship, they aired out some bitter truths.

Is Eloise going to rekindle the flame with the Printer guy? Or will there be someone new?

Will Kate and Anthony make an appearance? I hope so. Their competitive spirit is fun to watch.

But season 1 made me fall in love with Lady Danbury, one of my favourite characters, sweet and tough and her relationship with the baby Duke aww.

How she mentored and cared for him, got him to open up and develop some confidence and inner strength against his unfeeling papa.

The one thing I did prefer is that Simon and Daphne transformed onto a first name basis and Kate and Anthony didn't really.

But I enjoyed both couples falling in love and distaste turning into something far more pleasurable.

Bring on Season 3 and all the drama that unfolds with it. Have you found any similar shows to binge?

I haven't, I seem to get tired of them quite quickly and quit watching them, then refer back to something I know I loved previously.

#BlogLife374 - Catch me.... I'm falling

Random song of the day.. Kerwin Du Bois - Right For Somebody

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D5XhH-ngW30&list=PL_S79tzxwHpPMvQb_ft0dgOQA7kcRZsUA&index=20

I just find it soothing and catchy. I'm not sure what your tastes are. You may or may not like it but who knows, you may add it to your playlists.

How are you all doing today? Uh huh, is that so? Tell me more.. Really? That's interesting.

I just thought I would check up on you, lately it's been me, me, moi so fair is fair.

I'm not so frazzled now. I did burn my hand a tiny bit. I was peckish but not hungry hungry so I decided to warm the cup of chicken soup to have and I spilled some on myself.

It probably sounds weird to have soup for breakfast but it's my alternate to coffee that is healthier and has no caffeine, which I don't like anyway, it makes me feel sicky/headachey.

Not often but sometimes I fancy a hot drink that is also filling. I'm currently munching yesterdays snacks.

Instead of buying my usual raw unsalted cashews (my favourite version as it's not overloaded with salt ick).

I decided to get some raw almonds. I never noticed them but I am trying to go for the lower fat options.

I did snag the puffy crisps though. I'm sorry they are just sooo moreish.

I just uploaded a picture of them on twitter. I love the workaround cheat.

Image-free blog but on twitter is a different ha! Yes I am sneaky :)

This would usually be nap time and I did just yawn but I'm alright today, I do feel rested.

Have I mopped the floors yet? Honestly? Isn't that a personal question to ask me? It's none of your beeswax...

Alright to be..... What's new with you..? Okay I'll stop changing the subject.

The cleaning wizard has already retired. I will do it this weekend. Today let my brain and body rest from the stress.

I have a Monday appointment and the twit hasn't confirmed the status of the lift so that is worrying me.

There is no alternate route, no ramp and apart from the lift, there is no way in or out so I'm stuck.

I was hoping the bastard would say..... Don't come in but no such luck!

I will hit Tescos (supermarket) afterwards in my shaky mood and get breakfast/lunch and maybe a sugary treat. I'm craving doughnuts.

I know I'm supposed to be good but not all the time and if the lift isn't functioning, I'm going to be in a panicked state anyway.

As you can tell I wrote this at the weekend but didn't feel like posting it just yet.

I'm still waiting for an update on my orders. The booties should definitely arrive tomorrow as it's been despatched.

However the rest of the Asos trousers order hasn't. Hmm. How is it going to arrive tomorrow?

I'll be out next week so I don't want to miss it. I hope they send an email soon to let me know what is happening, maybe the trousers are out of stock?

I hope not.

#BlogLife373 - Winter prep fashionista style

I feel like I just did a fashion haul but I decided to do another one at Asos and Shoezone as my eyes glazed over and I was foaming at the mouth at the word sale!!!

Yum. I hadn't paid much attention to my boots but they look so ravished with time and as though they are decades old.

I think it's only been a few years but they are the only comfy footwear I own so it's probably best I have a backup for when they do finally split or wear away.

I've tried purchasing footwear all over the place but the sole always seem to erode and roll up, it's really annoying but the Shoezone sort seem to age gracefully.

Although I am frequently on the lookout for fake fur lining for warmth and comfortability, the last pair didn't need it.

I also find it helps to go a size up, so I tend to buy size 9's which seems exceedingly big but I wear thick mens socks to make up the difference.

Believe it or not my shoe size has fluctuated over the years, 6-8, then back to 7, then up to 8 again.

Or maybe it's just the different stores? Maybe it's like clothing sizes, it just changes in certain establishments?!

My cousin's beau at the time, didn't believe me so we placed our tootsies side by side and he relented I was telling the truth haha!

It's funny because in the movies women are lying about their true sizes to cram into something daintier and I'm bragging about giant feet!

However they never seem gigantic to me, just normal. Yesterday (Wednesday 12th) I bought a pair of ankle boots for £20 that I think will arrive tomorrow I paid £1 for 2 day delivery, which brings the total to £21.

Which was super reasonable, it hasn't been despatched yet but I think later today it will be.

The Asos order is out for delivery anytime now which blows my mind. That was exceedingly quick from yesterday also.

Considering that was free standard delivery. I expected that on Saturday. They've given me an hour slot 12.30-1.30pm and it's 1.07pm now.

Hermes/Evri are delivering it. I'm not sure what courier Shoezone uses but I hope it's not royal mail who are striking at the moment for nearly 3 weeks.

I'm pretty dull with colours, I tend to stick with black, though the last pair was a bluey/purply but soon after became unwearabe, the sole was digging into me and I didn't need the extra pain.

This time I opted for a dark brown that looks like it has an ever so slight pinky/purply hue maybe it's just the light.

But it's a pop of colour nonetheless. If I can get good angles I'll put pictures up on Twitter.

I love clothes with designs on them, I hate plain stuff so I was excited about some of the trousers I noticed in bootcut/kickflare design.

Ahh okay oops. Only one of the trousers is due today, the rest maybe tomorrow or Saturday.

I'm surprised they didn't send it all together. The plain black was £22 and I bought it for £11. 

The red trousers were £16. The grey lined ones were £23 but I got it for £14 and the black marble was £23. I saved £20 not shabby at all :)

Wow 1.30pm on the dot the courier arrived and I'm so happy it fits, yay :)

I did add some images on Twitter, the boots will have to wait until I receive them.

I have to chop all my nails short they have snagged in the middle grr.

It was tedious sifting through Asos prostitute clothing collection, the tops were extremely indecent.

Not everyone wants to look like an immoral street walker, some of us are conservative and modest. Yeesh!

The one nice top I saw and would have bought was beautiful but then I discovered all of it was backless ickkkkk.

Does Asos realise it's winter???

#BlogLife372 - Let's make a toast(ie)

I've consciously been eating less carbs, I mean still the same amount of pasta and rice but less bread but at the moment, it's really chilly as winter is settling in and I fancied toasties.

I have my trusty unadventurous panini press which only gets used for cheese toasties usually.

I've done baguettes and paninis and bagels but I think my favourite is good old fashioned toast.

I decided to shake things up and bought beef, chicken and cheese to make various fillings and thought I would try eggs for the first time.

Ummm it did not go well. I tried to get the smallest eggs possible but they only had medium and free range seems to be the healthiest so that was the choice for me.

Except Iceland ran out of wholemeal bread, so no bread. I'll pick some up Monday.

I had an inkling so I also bought wholemeal rolls. I cracked the egg but it took a few other whacks and saw a video that recommended turning it so the crack is on the top and less shell will fall.

No shell debris but the egg just rolled off the roll lmao. I pressed in the bun but it's a slippery sucker and I was just laughing so hard.

I ended up just mopping the roll with the egg mixture (I'm not going to waste it). 

Then I poured the remainder straight onto the roll sitting on top of the press, which again..... To my horror........

Slipped right into the press lol. Again I dabbed what I could and put some cheese on one side of the roll but most of the concoction is now caked on to my press.

It's mocking me I tell you!! I'm waiting for it to dry so I can clean it off.

I'm cooking some beef burgers to add to it but that was traumatic lol.

I don't have the non stick oil spray as I don't cook messy foods on it usually.

This is why I stick to easy foods and not anything complicated as it goes wrong.

I could have just placed the egg straight onto the press but it gets flat and squishy. I didn't want that but that's what happened anyway.. I know I know..

On the plus side it cooked really quickly. I left it at least for a few minutes but it was definitely done.

It also didn't smoke, crackle and hiss as much as I expected either. I'm gonna put it together as the burgers should be done and watch the rest of Chicken Run....

I've not seen the sequel. It's a shame they didn't want Julia aka Ginger the title lead to reprise her voice actress role.

What made me think I was suddenly going to turn into a competent cheffy overnight?

I've cleaned the press and it was actually quite easy with water and a kitchen towel. I don't think you're supposed to add washing up liquid but I did to disinfect it. Just an eensy diluted bit.

Alright mayhem aside, it's actually really delicious. I'm too embarrassed to upload a picture, maybe if I do something more presentable and that turns out accurately.....Then but it's yummier than usual.

The egg makes it. To correct my mistake some cut the middle of the bread out and pour the egg inside to detract from leaks.

I think I'll just do it directly onto the pre-heated press but next time to avoid it being toooo thin. I'll just double up!

Ooh I had a brainwave, those cookie cutter shapes would make the egg stay in place. I just have to get one that isn't plastic.

Alright well my egg rings arrived today as well as my cleaning solutions so I thought let's finish up this post, in the right way..

Except in true fashion, I messed up again! You're getting used to this by now right? Well I am a trial and error person so learn from my mistakes :)

After I washed the egg rings, I placed them on the heated Press. The egg seem to overspill on one of them so once again, an eggy mess on the Press.

But it looked like it was working well but I started to smell it burning so I decided to prematurely remove the rings to flip it over to cook evenly....

Hmm I probably should have waited longer as it fell apart and flattened out ugh!

What can you do? I replaced the rings and cracked two more eggs? Am I getting to be an expert? No lol.

This time I totally just left the ring and closed the Press lid for both sides to cook.

This technique worked better, although the overspilled egg had less and the normal one looked round and thicker.

I've just waiting for the meat to cook and then it'll be done.

On to the Special K crunchy oat granola review. I used to buy Jordan's fruity crunchy oats I think it had nuts, berries, coconut (which I wasn't a fan of and it was delicious.

I tried it with milk but having it with yoghurt was much tastier. The berries were soft, chewy and never tasted stale or over sweetened.

I love berries as you can tell by my Vimto fixation so I thought this would be a good thing to try. 

It was half price at £1.50 so this was the best time to sample it. The oats are tasty and indeed crunchy.

It's just the right blend, not too sweet and surprisingly big clumps actually.

The berries were what I was most excited about. I don't think I'll buy yoghurt I'll just randomly snack on these when peckish.

It's freeze dried fruits and omg they are nasty!! It leaves the tangiest, most bitter taste and aftertaste.

It's totally ruined the oats. I would happily munch them but I am binning the berries, it is that bad!!

What were Special K thinking? Yuckkkk! I wouldn't recommend it.

#BlogLife371 - I'll never be who you want.....Mr Z

Hi I'm Pilar and you've met me before, several times in fact. You know that I'm respectful polite, punctual (mostly) and truthful so what about me screams pushover??

I haven't lied. I haven't exaggerated, why do you think you can manipulate into saying or doing something that would make sicker??

You told me to check something out that isn't feasible in any way shape or form and then you asked me a question that has been repeated practically every time I've seen you.

WTF! Why? Am I suddenly going to announce my long term permanent un-curable health conditions have suddenly departed???

I have 10 minutes where I can stand and that's it. Afterwards my body starts shutting down and I'm done.

It's like you're saying I know best. Except that you don't. I know my body and what it's capable of sustaining.

At least meet my halfway you colossal waste of space!! Nothing you are saying or doing benefits me but I promised someone I would give you a fair chance.

Crimity!!! Can't you show me an ounce of respect? I've been laughing at the outlandish venues you want me to trapse too.

They aren't even nearby there are off in different cities. I don't even drive and even if I did, I still wouldn't attempt it.

I'm not looking to strain my body and add further stress to my life so why the hell are you??

Why are recommended people for those that struggle with disabilities the absolute worst people in the world???

Why are we treated as though we are able bodied and the same as regular folk??

My face is constantly contorted in pain and discomfort. I'm not faking that. My face is smothering yelps.

What about that disposition tells you I am capable of what you're demanding that I do??

At least I am doing activities that are feasible and accomplishing what I set out to do, which is more than enough to keep you happy.

I'd like to see anyone of you advisors stuck in hospital or a bed for months unable to move and see what kind of person that turns you into.

Yes at times I fell apart absolutely I can freely admit that but I also put myself back together.

I could barely move my limbs at one point, certainly not enough to even take my lenses out for days and then when I finally removed them, I wasn't able to put them back in.

Life was literally a blur but I'm stronger than you give me credit for, hell that I give me credence for.

I've been through a hell of a lot but I'm able to get on each day and write, write and write some more.

Sometimes it's the only thing I look forward to doing and other times it's satisfying taking a break.

My point I'm not going to let you make me feel bad for underperforming.

I'm doing just great and in fact I am impressed at my efforts in dealing with some very challenging tasks and passing them with relative ease.

#BlogLife370 - A lift up..?

I didn't fancy publishing the other posts so they are postponed and I'll write this fresh instead.

I got in about 11ish and at the moment, I feel alright just cold and tired.

The lift wasn't working again so I did a slow crab type walk, holding on to the banister, I didn't feel dizzy but I can feel my body seizing up.

It didn't help that some of the bus stops are closed so had to walk a bit as well.

I don't feel snoozy enough to sleep but maybe later. The guy I was meeting said, Oh you're here?

I would have met you downstairs and I thought you selfish bastard, there are no seats there, you want me to just stand and lean against the wall for ten minutes plus???

Crikey, just because I'm not on crutches or in a wheelchair, doesn't make me any less disabled ffs so I just said, I need to sit down, I feel shaky.

Then he finally said, Oh if the lift is out next time, we can do a phone chat. FFS why was that not an option today??? Shish!!

I know I'm in a bad state when even changing positions can having me wanting to scream in agony and that's what I was like. 

I had a full cringe on but it's over and I got my wholemeal bread and sandwiches and pasta because I'm not up for standing for too long today.

It's better to have easy ready made food at the moment. Oh it is going to get weirder.

Saturday I had a one day period after three months of nothingness, which is the longest time to date. Then it stopped.

Then today Monday it started again and I think it's finished again. It's so odd. I was beginning to think that's it. Maybe I am at that age where I never have one again?!

It could be stress related. I had problems with bills but then that got resolved, then the boiler breaks and then this nonsense with the lift.

Drama, drama and more drama. No thank you. I've had my fill! 

I think this year I'm going to get a new set of boots, my last pair are still going but looking very worn and I've seen a few I like in my size.

Also I discovered there are special egg shaper thingys, called Egg Rings so I ordered two metal ones and they should arrive this week so that will be better and stop me wasting eggs and less messiness also.

I don't know if I should get a spare laptop charger. This one seems to not want to work half the time. It's finally charging but it kept disconnecting grr.

I really don't understand the Oyster top up. First it said you have to swipe it within three days, otherwise it's void and you get refunded and next it says you have seven days.

Ugh confusing as I have to carefully plan when I'm out and do it a few days prior. Even when I swiped it today, the driver, nope, not going through and I thought Oh shoot, it hasn't been activated.

But then on the second turn it just went through. Ooh and until the 16th October the UK Ebay has 20% on selected sellers/items so I was about to get my contact lens cleaner solution x2 at a discount so I'm happy about that.

It also should arrive this week.

#BlogLife369 - Bye bye boiler

I thought slipping into fresh new sheets would have sent me off into an immediate slumber. At 9pmish I was yawning nonstop and my eyes were closing.

However by the time I finally went to bed because the phones were charging really slowly it was midnight and I just could not relax.

My duvet felt really heavy and smothering. I thought I would be cosy but I was stifled and warm.

I was just fretting about having a strange maintenance man coming and going all day, knowing that I have to leave the door on the latch as he would be in and out.

I don't trust the neighbours so everytime he walks back in, I'm thinking is that really him or has another stranger invaded my home?

I got 2 hours sleep. I think at 5am I drifted off and I didn't want to get up at 7am at all but I did and that hour went soo fast.

The frustrating thing was the bathroom floors I thought were practically spotless and dry have streaks, puddles and footprints still.

Plus I forget about the tub that didn't get the mini wipe down it needed. I wanted to go over it but he arrived so I couldn't.

I wasn't even thinking about the cold air. I didn't put the heating to warm up the place as it didn't seem safe to do so.

The first thing he did was open the window/door so it was freezing. That is the first time I left the heating blankie on full for the whole time.

Also the snack pack is still in the kitchen grr. I just didn't get the chance to grab drinks and the snacks I packed.

Maybe if he goes out for lunch I can grab it then and re-lock the door until he returns as I skipped dinner last night.

Although I'm still not peckish, I wouldn't mind a beverage. I'm kinda gutted it's a different person to the one that did the earlier assessment. 

This one seems a lil frosty. I asked him about arranging the thermostat so that I didn't need to touch the boiler and he said it can't be done.

I don't think he understood what I mean't. The boiler is high up with tiny digital readings and I can't see or reach it so I never touch it.

All I do is rotate the thermostat dial and boom, the heat and hot water get going. I don't even switch it from winter to summer, I let them do that on their check up visits.

I'm nervous it might be tricky to use, the last one was so simple, once you didn't turn it too much and switch it back off, which I didn't tend to do.

Hmm I'm not impressed that he has been on the phone nonstop since he arrived either.

It's a long bloody job, get a move on! The sooner you leave, the faster I can relax and take a breath.

I want to nap but I still feel unnerved about him barging into my room, if he needs something.

(He called out and didn't enter, which I am thankful for, he waited until I came out).

None of my rooms have locks and I didn't mind that, except for these times. At least so far I have wifi so that's handy.

Ooh at 3pm he was all done. Seven hours later! He did somewhat clean up after himself but the floors are also a lil filthy now and need re-doing.

I have to write this down before I forget it. It automatically shuts off after reaching the desired temperature.

the top number has to be higher than the bottom. Oh crap or is it the other way around.

Man it's so complicated having to bend down to squint to read the tiny face.

The flame means the.. Oh ffs. I have no frigging idea. He said it so fast and I was already getting muddled.

I literally wanted to run and get a notepad and take notes but I felt embarrassed.

I really miss my lil dial. All it needed was turning and now I have to figure this monstrosity out.

With a display light that auto switches off after two seconds argh!! He did give me his card in case of emergencies or problems though.

Oh I remembered he said the big number was the room temperature and he said he kept his at 22.

I just have to get used to it. It does look better, more professional, the last one chipped half the wall and didn't bother fixing it.

It's going to be weird not switching it off after a few hours. This morning I was fiddling with it and nothing seemed to be happening and I thought Oh no!

What if I can't use it and then the boiler breaks and I have no hot water or heat and my brain was escalating..

Then I thought calm down, put your lenses on and have another go but I noticed that the radiators were crackling to life and heating up the room so pushing the arrow up, did seem to work.

I just don't know if the automatic switch off is saving money or costing me? Before I knew what the low setting was and now I don't.

I used to leave it on for a while and take it off, knowing it wasn't on for long and that I was spending minimally but enough that I was warm and had enough hot water.

Now that it is all different and it stays on until it's the set up temperature, isn't that going to be on for a longer time?

Plus what if it's a freezing day and just as it gets warm, it switches off? I guess I just set it higher.....

Hmm. It will be a case of trial and error. The nice thing is that the engineer who put it in, called me and asked how everything was.

I explained that I was still unsure about the details and he offered to visit me next week to go through it again.

I thought that was really kind, both the call and taking the time to visit, not many people would do that.

He must have thought I was such a dope because I don't know why I can't get the specifics to stick in my mind.

To his credit, he did go over it a few times but my head was frazzled and overwhelmed and nothing processed at all.

I thought the best thing would be for him to email me the instructions and he agreed. The only thing is, I didn't give him my email address. Ughhhhhh

Oh I just worked it out if the flame wasn't on and the heating is, that means the flame is for the hot water, unless the flame came on but I didn't see it, but I don't think so..

I'll have to run the hot tap to confirm as this morning it was cold. Hmm I am just going around in circles.

The hot water is now on. I am none the wiser! It is sooo tricky to see the tiny monitor.

I guess I'll figure it out when the hot water runs out. At least the only thing I have to adjust is the up arrow button.

I have no idea, what on earth the other buttons for, there are three of them!

I'm just relieved I don't have to bother with the boiler itself, just like the previous version I can regulate it by the thermostat.

He just said if there is a gas leak or any issues switch off the boiler via the switch next to it.

That finally wraps up the boiler saga!

*Update* 

Except that I'm going to have to be careful. The temperature didn't drop during the day and I didn't have to push the arrow button up.

However by the evening I assumed it was off but I felt the radiators and they were still a lil hot and only by manually pushing the down arrow did it finally disconnect.

Why it didn't turn off by itself I have no idea. At least it felt fairly low and wasn't boiling so a few taps either way should be fine.

I really have to look for the flame though, otherwise it will be a low pressure situation and it will become problematic and develop a serious issue.

I'm getting frustrated now. I pushed the arrow up as he didn't mention using any other button and I didn't see a flame so I have no clue how to put it on.

Next week I'll text him my email and ask again for the written instructions so that I can reference them at any time.

It's irritating me that there is no manual for such an important item, with lots of different settings.

I love how they think I should automatically remember everything and it's like they are thinking.... Silly lil woman, don't worry the big man will come rescue you.

There there! That's why I want it written!!!! So that I don't have to ask you again and again, what to do.

Youtube to the rescue. I saw my model and an instructions guide and now I see the flame and the heating/hot water is finally coming on I hope.

There is a manual and automatic setting I had no idea about. The first bottom button is for the settings menu, the second is to switch from automatic to manual.

The third button is an on and off switch. It seemed like once I pressed a few of the bottom buttons and raised and lowered the temperature by the up and down arrows..

I finally saw the flame and I can hear the radiators hissing to life. The taps had a tiny bit of hot water but it was dwindling.

It was freezing also. That is one less thing to worry about.

#BlogLife368 - Cancer Vs Leo

Are you into star signs? Do you still read your horoscopes or visit tarot readers?

I can't say I believe in any of that or was truly into it, with any conviction.

Friends were more curious about it and offered to take me along for a reading but I would rather spend cash on something useful rather than something I don't have faith in.

However I sometimes found myself looking for something perky about the day in the lil blurb, out of boredom or maybe I hoped for something positive..

I was also found it funny that my birthday was the borderline for Cancer and Leo and that actually did fit my personality.

Cancer was predominantly who I was and can still be at times, shy, withdrawn, quiet.

Whereas Leo was cocky, brazen and loud. I'm not sure loud fits me actually but I guess I can be bold at times.

Friends/family/acquaintances tried to pigeon-hole me but I'm not one or the other, I'm a blend.

I let people talk over me and make their lil fake assumptions a lot of the time because I wasn't really into them or their conversations, so it just washed over me.

But other times I think I was picking my words carefully and thinking.. Hmm I'm not sure I should admit this, so best to keep quiet..

Nowadays I'm more comfortable except when my personal space is invaded, then I'm on high alert, wondering what you are up too?!

I remember flipping through to the back pages of a magazine or newspaper as that was where it was and hoping for something cheery.

I recall when my friend was explaining it that she said, be prepared as it might be something depressing that comes out of it..

I just thought ickkk that as well as the hefty price tag attached. Why would you pay for a service that would screw your head up??

But my former friend seemed highly into it and she knew I was a sceptic so she said don't go in with a closed mind, the psychic won't like it lmao.

I bit my tongue from saying, you have more money than sense. I really did. I'm not sure if my eye roll went through because I was trying to be sensitive but good heavens..