#BlogLife902 - Monthly Blues/Landlord BS

I was hoping to skip June, July, foreverdom but I came on yesterday so the cramps/nausea have just intensified, as has the exhaustion and the insomnia.

My appetite has sorta disappeared but I'm munching small meals/snacks for energy. I should eat, it's lunchtime, but it has no appeal.

I've got the shorter periods subliminal playing in the background, sometimes it helps.

Then I usually have to switch to anti nausea or the cramps reduction one, I guess it would be easier if there was an all one version but maybe it would be less effective.

I'm still waiting on the cherry lip balm but I did get the hand sanitizers over the weekend.

And it made me laugh because as he was about to snap the proof picture, he said No no lower please, I can't get your face in it, otherwise I'll get into trouble.

I always thought that was the purpose, to get a face photo, as identity purposes to avoid disputes that the package wasn't delivered or if delivered to the wrong person you could upload your image and say well this is me...

Anyway learn something new every day. I checked my bank and the full amount came in so I can pay my rent when they return from lunch, if anyone is available.

I keep rubbing my eyes raw, they are so dehydrated. I apply the drops, they help for a bit and then they are insanely dry again, another reason to hate summer.

Or because of the humidity they fog up and I can't read or see properly until I take them out and re-clean them.

I've also noticed the laptop is overheating and freezing the screen. I bought a cooling trap years ago but it's too bulky.

It stopped working and I saw a gel pad without fans that looks interesting. I wonder if it's any good or would it be a waste of money?

Alright just called up to pay my rent and this is what makes me think the landlord is skimming from the top, overcharging me and keeping the surplus.

She literally gave me a new amount to pay. This is what makes me insane, if I contact UC, this will be another headache for me.

They are making me look nuts because they literally keep switching the amount, so screw it, I just paid it.

It's highly suspicious though at some point, they are gonna say you're in debt to us for thousands or hundreds, where are my payments going then???

This is what it was supposed to be, with the tiny arrears added, £615.89, without the arrears, the standard is £615.52.

Sounds simple and straightforward. Let's break it down, for the trillionth time.

£489.68 for the rent, then £125.84 for the service charge, which equals the second amount above.

Now here is what she actually charged me...... £666.81 so wtf is going on?

If it''s the annual increase, that's not supposed to happen until October.

My head will explode, like I said the Landlord, DWP and UC are the constant sources of stress.

This is weird, UC has the updated amount but it's different to what the landlord told me.

Oh crikey, confusing, maybe the landlord told them the new amount directly??

I'm done, I'm not thinking about this anymore, the ongoing flipping changes.

How can the landlord get away with telling UC one amount and me, the tenant a different number??

#BlogLife617 - Mama has covid again

Song of the day - Charly Black - Gyal You A Party Animal

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NpPuBqQ1Vgw&list=WL&index=33

She didn't tell me she was infectious until just before I was due to arrive but her being short term ill and me being longterm are quite similar..

Resting a lot, minimal activities, more naps, chatting, laughing, festive movies and music.

She's been up and down symptoms wise, coughing, sneezing, breathlessness, exhaustion.

I haven't caught it. I'm just the usual achey, sleepy and in a switched off - holiday mode.

She's been pretty upbeat actually and I've helped where possible.

I think she just wanted company around while she's poorly. For reference today is the 30th December and it's past midnight.

We were both tired at 9pm and at 10pm I fell asleep for an hour but woke up wired.

I'll turn in soon, just wanted to post on Twitter the start of the spoofs and booklife for some reading while I'm away.

I miss and don't miss blogging. I love writing but we all need to detach and have a proper long break at times.

The holidays are my time to unwind so I hope you don't mind but that's where I'll occasionally put old posts out.

Either witty, serious, fun, deep and meaningfuls or something I'm proud to re-share.

Monday we may be having a lil party, a few of Mama's friends and neighbours.

I'm surprised she has the energy but we're both sleeping good/bad/good.

And our appetites are up and down also. There's a lot of food around but we've turned into fussy eaters.

I suggested we offload all the snacks we're not enjoying, like beef macaroni and cheese, veggie spring rolls.

Croissants, garlic bread, various dips. It's a weird mismash and instead of a grand dinner, side dishes, to make it easier.

Sneaky but clever, I think.....

I've just sampled 7UP Cherry sugar free version, it's delicious, lots of cherry flavour, clear drink, bit gutted about no fancy colours.

But it doesn't taste unnatural and full of sweeteners just thirst quenching.

Ha, we just had a crazy five minutes searching for Mama's contact lens that she dropped.

No luck and then she checked her lens case and they were both snuggled inside... Ooops.

It's 2am but I can't sleep and now New Year's Eve. Me and Mama were having a heart to heart.

I said friendships and relatives can be quite self centred, mean and one sided.

A certain set of cousins were always idolised, the Uncle was the sweetest, genuine person who was one of the few people who saw my angst and tried to make me feel better.

His wife and daughters were quite cruel and nasty and I think when he died, everybody saw their true colours.

How vindictive and egotistical they were without the nice buffer around because a lot of people don't want them around now.

I said that they were disrespectful to my face and behind it but didn't realise I was aware of it.

Yet one of them because she needed everyone to like her, admire her, think how great she was, kept asking me to meet up.

I declined. I always remember her being annoyed, sarcastic and surprised by it.

She couldn't fathom why, as she was popular and bubbly and tricked herself into believing she was a nice person.

It's funny that she wanted to hangout with me as an adult because when I was younger, they actively avoided having me with them.

Mama literally guilted them to invite me occasionally, which they did but I couldn't care less about being around them as they were not decent friendly people.

I think her point was to show them, I was as good as any of them but to be honest it backfired.

And I grew to resent their company and being around negativity. It wasn't fun but distancing myself away from them all, was delightful.

It's 2am here again and soon I'll sleep, we were watching the Vicar of Dibley again and chuckling along.

I feel tender but not as moody. It's just annoying to have had 2, one day periods.

One on Christmas Eve, I think and the other on New Year's Day, no wonder I'm a lil cranky, sensitive and craving sugar.

I didn't really sleep last night for long so hopefully tonight will be better.

I have to be frank, I didn't really socialise at Mama's dinner party, I was exhausted and in no mood to be latched onto.

I did do a brief greeting to half the guests and disappeared into my room until they left.

I didn't really have an appetite anyway and the thought of going in there and munching in front of them, turned my stomach.

After they left, I had roti and roast lamb with celery chunks and then even though the savoury side of my tum was full..

Custard and lemon drizzle cake for dessert was a necessity, It was all great but this horrible bloating spoils the fun.