Well I finally got around to the Scratchcards, no wins but a bit of excitement nonetheless.
Iceland have started doing mini vegetables so that's easier than chopping, I can keep them whole, baby cucumbers and celery sticks which is cool, just needs a dip..
I'm thinking the onion and garlic one or hummus. I'm craving an all round burger sauce, but I get tired of them so quickly, I feel like I'll waste it...
I would actually love to have more salads but I need foods that will last and salads are just too moreish...
I mean my perfect one would be, red cabbage, olives, cucumbers, green peppers but I'll see, it always depends if I need a lot of householdy items because that's the most expensive necessary thing.
Maybe one week, I'll get cucumbers and the next celery? The caesar dressing used to be wonderful..
But now it's cheesy and vinegary and yucky... I preferred it when it was like herby mayonnaise or salad cream..
Aww they have stopped doing the onion and garlic dip, that was so yummy. Maybe it's just temporarily out of stock?
Well just checked and nearly all of the savings are gone, the last few hundred is left.
So my plan is, I will keep that untouched, no more ordering food because the landlord keeps robbing me and demanding excess money.
UC is barely covering my expenses. You're probably wondering why I spent nearly all of it?
Frankly, it's my money, I contributed to my rent/expenses and the bs landlord arrears and if I have to pay back the debt so be it.
But instead of DWP thinking, I have all the money in the world, I want to show them, I'm just about surviving.
I have no social life. The money goes on bills and food, contact lens, beauty and the occasional footwear or clothes, that's it.
From tomorrow I'll just pop a ready meal in the microwave and will just have to stand and endure the pain and exhaustion of being on my feet.
There is no other choice now. If Mama decides to help out, so be it but I will not ask.
For now on, no more pakoras, no more popping in to my favourite store.
I've had £10 in my purse for ages, not wanting to use it up. Forget eyebrow shapes or clothes or pedicures.
Or buying a mud mask or a body butter, these are all unaffordable luxuries.
It was nice while it lasted. Not worrying about money, realising no-one would ever treat me, just myself.
That if an emergency repair or purchase popped up, I could handle it outright.
Splurging on takeout when I was injured and couldn't move much, to avoid, further strains.
Buying a new outfit, looking at the size and smiling because it was lower than the last time and I looked trimmer
Hmm well the morning started roughly, I did get chunks of sleep, which was good but I felt like I was going to vomit, dry retching ick..
But binaurals, helped calm me and it passed eventually. I was running on time, actually early.
So I window shopped, all the things, I can't buy but my body isn't as bad as usual.
Lots and lots of lovely beauty stuff, cleansers, creams... I still didn't see a mask..
Although for some reason, I have painful back twinges, so I'm playing muscle relaxing binaural videos.
Anyway I wasn't tempted to get food or anything else. I'm practical, only what is necessary..
The UC appointment was smooth, when I said I can't do stairs, the receptionist gave me such a disgusted look...
But I don't give a... Prejudice nitwits!
The advisor was someone else and he was friendly so that helped.
Plus I looked adorable today. A red satiny flowy top, that no longer seems tight, nice and loose..
And blue trousers. Followed by pinky purply makeup. It seemed cold but it was nice and warm today, so just right.
I tried on that new red top, I want to stretch it. I could get away with it, I'm scared it will ride up.
It even fit well with a tshirt underneath. Ok, no more stalling, me and my bad back need to get food..
