#BlogLife885 - UC's job is to fuck with my head!

Good lord my head will explode. Why does UC make everything so damn complicated, why so much confusing double talk, good grief.

I do not understand it at all! They responded to my query suggesting I use food banks, wtf!

Also they said me and the landlord have inconsistent amounts, it's the same fucking thing, jesus!

I don't want to deal with this crap anymore. They make me feel like I'm just lying about everything, ugh.

Why can't they talk English?? It feels like I'm conversing with lawyers, nothing is straightforward at all.

I don't even know what the right thing to put is. I wish they would have said Fuck Off! It would have been so much easier.

They are now saying, the rent amount is different, (but they've written the amount I told them). FFS.

I'm sure they do this shit on purpose to avoid covering people's rent, there is no way this is an accident.

I don't understand the issue with the service charge, it's a part of the fucking rent, I still pay for it. 

I hate them so much! Adding to my stress levels! I swear I am going mad.

Every time I try to calculate the rent, to make sure it's the correct amount I get a different number.

I just went ahead and confirmed that the landlord amount is right and mine is wrong, because from my notes, that seems to be the accurate figure.

I will never understand UC, if the landlord themselves are saying I'm charged for the service charge, shouldn't they take that as fact????

I'm glad that I also added a note to say, you thought the rent increase was happening in April but no it's going to happen in October.

I just checked out some job sites the dodo advisor told me to start using, totally useless for one, nothing near my area.

And for two, one is bloody worldwide, what a moron! Honestly and these are the sites he wants me to use???

The ones I have on my favourites list are far superior! Ugh, twits the lot of them!!

At least I've done what I could, it's in their hands now. Although I still feel an idiot.

Anyway I got talking to one of the randoms a few days ago and he seemed alright but for some reason my brain told me to be extra cautious so I didn't give out many details, I usually don't anyway.

He suggested a phone chat so I thought why not? I called on private number and he didn't mind that that much..

Although he kinda grilled me on what I was after and I said just a conversation, I take it chat by individual chat, unless I feel some sort of connection.

So then he said Ohhh this is a one off then and I said not necessarily, I always assess it afterwards and see.

And he was replying No no no, you just want a one off chat and I was thinking if that was the case, I would have said so, ugh.

I got the impression M wanted more, although there were more red flags as he repeatedly said that he was a nice guy..

The genuine, don't advertise they are nice, they let their words and actions speak for themselves.

Moving along, He kept saying, You're so secretive what are you hiding?

And I'm wondering why he doesn't accept that I'm not an open book, I share what I'm comfy with, the rest I won't be bullied into revealing.

And finally the subject of age came up as I don't sound or look my age, but I think a fair bit younger so he asked me to clarify my age, which was fine but then I did the same to him.....

My word he had deducted 10-15 years off. Why do they do that???

I was disappointed in that. If you lie about the basics, what else are you fabricating?

The basic level of trust is gone and he was just laughing about it, saying Oh I don't reveal everything about me until much later.

Instead of admitting fault and being a man, he chose to deflect onto me and say, that's the pot calling the kettle black, aka calling me a hypocrite.

I confronted him and said What did I lie about exactly?? As I haven't I'm just a private person.

Then he came up Oh you won't tell me anything personal, I said Yea I'm reserved but I'm truthful, you flat out lied.

I went completely off chatting to him after that, at least if you're caught out, own up to it and say.....

Well I hide my true age because younger females might feel they can't relate to me and I still feel young at heart, or some garbage, I mean come on...

His profile I'm sure said 40yrs-ish and his true age.....? 54 years old, that's a huge frigging leap!!

If you must and I don't advise it, as trust is hard to come by, shave off a few years not ten+!

The other thing I rolled my eyes out was the constant mention of sex and I was sighing as I said, Yea that's you guys favourite subject and he denied it and kept bringing it up lol.

There are hundreds of other topics to discuss and yet you focus on that??!!

I kinda wanted to hang up on him but that's too rude so I just said Well take care and disconnected because honesty is important to me.

I don't need every aspect of their life, just the gist. Where are they located?

What is their age? What is their gender? What is their relationship status?

It helps if they are somewhat silly and humorous but I can have serious chats too, although not at the moment, I'm too frazzled.

I just got a text to say, they are doing that landlord home inspection survey thingy next week and I'm dreading that, 2 male strangers in my home for an extended period.

I'm literally hoping they visit every room except my bedroom. I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack, if that happens.

There's too much on my mind, so I'm just going to file that away until it happens.

I didn't really sleep that much last night and I was up early for the Iceland order of which he came later than expected, I could have had an extra hours rest.

One last thing, an insult to injury from UC, they increased this months amount by £7, what was the point? *eye roll*

I was so consumed with worry and sickness on Tuesday, I forgot my Oyster travel card, I never do that.

This weekend I hope to find a way to unburden myself. If it's on, I'm looking forward to the new episode of Sherlock and Daughter tonight.