#BlogLife1085 - Call to zero....

What is the big deal about calls? The new random seems freaked out about them too.....

Yeesh does noone have balls anymore? I know it's a dealbreaker. 

Sorry effeminate voices do nothing for me but why agree and then back out..?

Why not just say, Could you give more time or I'm not ready, I'm worried how I'll be perceived....

But nothing. Yesterday P (good grief not a J, at long last, yay), said Oh I simply forgot, but proceeded to have a lengthy text session...

Hmm all that could have been done on a call, in which you could have said, You know what, it's a weekday, can it be brief..?

And I would have said, it's disappointing but I understand, rest is important..

Then he said, Tomorrow midday, I'll call or you can text/call to remind me....

Guess what, it's 1.30pm...... He abruptly left the text session last night, did he fall asleep.....?

Or was it because I said, I really don't have much of a heart to give really...

I didn't explain further and he didn't ask. I texted about 1pm and what makes it worse....

He said, contact me anytime because I'll be available and now it feels like a ghost....

And I trust my instincts ad knew something was off, men aren't clever...

So as of today Wednesday 12.45pm, still haven't a thing and the text was read and delivered.

The funny thing also and as soon as I heard I thought, that's just weird...

Was him saying, the first call will be Midday (yesterday) and the next will be Wednesday at 7am!!!

Who on earth calls someone at 7am? That they barely know??? I said There's no chance of that, I'll be busy.

But was this whole thing, a planned waste of time? Did he set out to bs me?

I don't get it, and I don't respect him for it. Yes I did like him, we talked about alsorts, not just light and fluffy.

I never pressured him for a call, just asked what he thought, I never forced him to accept.

I'm not going to chase, I made the effort and maybe later he'll have the guts to explain himself, but for right now I'm busy..

I wonder if it's bs syndrome.... Where they assume by saying the things women want to hear....

That they can snowball her, get her to believe it and when she/I don't....

When I'm still reserved and sceptical and holding back, like any sensible woman would take it slow...

They up and disappear? Because he said, He doesn't want or need anyone....

That he wishes I could believe that. But men do eventually need women.

I've never heard a man say, Yep, swearing off women, gonna be alone forever...

The way I proclaim it... He was saying, I haven't met the right guy... Pfft...

And that he's gonna take care of me, spoil me, blah blah..

At least I can say, I'm always upfront. I tell them, I'm not looking for anything..

I won't do meets or picswaps. I'm not gonna fall for them or unlikely to get attached....

And they are all accepting of these facts..... Until time passes and they assume.... What???

They can swoop in and save me from myself? Oh purleaseee.

Not one of them are ever patient, to give me time to work through it, or explain my hesitations....

I think either tomorrow or Friday I will block him, because I have a strong feeling, nothing dramatic has happened, he's not busy with work or family or friends....

He's just not interested and is a classic liar. Yes the way he got defensive about me not immediately believing him, was very telling...

Good guys don't shove it down your throat, they are decent, they let their actions and consistencies, speak for themselves.

Remember that lesson!!

Of course I'll update if there is any developments, but there won't be...

It's just nonsense..... You cannot, well you can, but it's much much harder to scheme on a call...

Insincerity tends to come out in someone's voice.... That's why calls are important and when someone resists...

What are they hiding? (I'm over my mopey session I had yesterday) ha.

For every person that doesn't want you, 10 more queue up to take their place.

I don't believe in soulmates but I do believe there are several people mean't for every individual..

It just takes some luck to hopefully cross paths, some are more fortunate than others :)

Being a spinster, isn't the end of the world, there are other ways to be fulfilled....

Like sharing your tales with others :)

Ugh I changed before I remembered I would do a same day Iceland order, luckily I just made the deadline and it's 2.30pm-4pm.

The community event outside is 1-3pm. I don't give a damn, I'm exhausted and sore.

The UC advisor kept me waiting for half an hour so my body was all stiff.

It made me inwardly roar with laughter that she was pissed to have to come down the stairs.

Why didn't you answer your phone? I'll confess here, the real reason.....

One you could have arranged a phone appointment prior to today that would have saved me a lot of physical pain...

But you are selfish, so you did not!

Secondly, I traipsed all the way down here, you're going to see me..

Thirdly I don't hear well or am received clearly outdoors on the phone, that's why I don't bother.

I told her, I didn't hear it. I didn't think it was pertinent to add, the phone is always kept on mute ha.

I feel no guilt and it's time to eat some pasta.

Today's ensemble as it was warm but windy. A black long top and over it a short sleeved purple tshirt.

Followed by brown trousers. The one thing about hair that is so fun as a woman, is flipping it.

I've missed that. It's so much fun. It's doubtful as it's no longer the morning..

But I hope G delivers my back is hurting. We'll see..