#BlogLife530 - Medicine free headache treatment

Sorry again about not posting on Thursday. I started to write but couldn't finish.

The thing with the emotional posts is that I will write them and then I am in the sad head space for a while.

Then add feeling under the weather, with the constant nausea and headaches, which strip my concentration and focus and it's a recipe for disaster.

I don't really suffer from headaches too much but when I do get them, they don't last long.

Although some can be really intense. Lately I was on day 5 or 6 of this stop-start ongoing headache.

Usually it is at the front of sides of my head only. This one has my whole head infected.

I don't think it's due to my eyes and I am guessing it is sinus related.

One minute I feel stuffy and the next I am fine. My treatment of choice is the eye gel mask and the peppermint oil, plus binaural beats on youtube.

But clary sage oil is apparently a healer also so I'm throwing that in.

Plus my gut has been saying try lemon essential oil so I just bought some from my favourite ebay seller.

Those have always been authentic and not watered down. I am hoping something will eventually cure it.

And I was running low on contact lens equipment, like eye drops and saline solutions so I bought batches of those.

I might also get another pair of those high fluffy slippers because they are so comfy without being flat and that's unusual.

Normally when they are platform style or have a heel, I find them painful but these are so cute and beneficial.

Aww they are sold out in my size but I might get some for my birthday.

I don't know what to get Mama for her birthday. I was thinking maybe homemade fudge again and paying for her to get an all body massage which she loves.

All of my orders came so I am replenished on the eye drops, saline solutions and I don't have to be concerned they will arrive if I go away.

My complimentary prime trial on Amazon expired but they offered me another month free so I extended that until August.

I wish The Secret Life of Amy Bensen was on it, as I haven't seen the last episode.

I saw it but it wasn't in english and there were no subtitles, I can only guess that she realised what we all suspected that he was a baddie and she ran away.

Oh I confirmed something today which is making me delay the time away.

Mama said that he, the sibling will be around if I show up, he's not staying directly with her, but in the floor above her.

To me, it's still like an axe murderer living in your building and cutting off your joy and relaxation at any given moment.

Birthdays have never been happy occasions so for at least this day, I want calmness and no stress whatsoever.

He can still barge in and scrounge meals, set demands, which is probably the point of being close by.

And although I can be polite, it's stressful to be around someone dangerous that is a ticking time bomb.

I don't know, nobody knows what sets them both off. But I'm tired of being around them. 

I don't respect them at all. I want safety and security. I want to let my guard down.

Her words which annoy me are don't worry about it, he's not directly in her apartment so it's all fine.

It isn't though. It is not alright so I doubt we will be spending it together because he only thinks of himself.

He could have stayed anywhere but he chose there. I am going to put my needs first and breathe easily.

I forgot to mention that finally the headache has disappeared. I am so relieved.

A few days have passed and no thumping pain and I think the essential oils had a lot to do with it.

If you feel pills are the best thing for you, go ahead but I am trying to be as natural as possible to avoid the nasty short and long term effects of chemicals in the body.

In taking a stand I wish Mama could interpret it, in a non selfish way.

I've always dreamed that by not socialising with them, she would internally question it to herself, maybe there is more to it.

Maybe the past isn't forgotten. Maybe she still feels terrified for a reason and I should respect her decision to stay away.

She never has seen it from my point of view fully. It's always seen as me being self absorbed and difficult and petty.

Anyway the decision is out of my hands as Dic said I have the last appointment next week.

I couldn't believe it. The programme only lasts a year and that was it.

July to July. I knew it was approaching or had just passed but I thought it was 18months or 2 years..

In my head, I was throwing a party, dancing, grinning, screaming happily.

I asked if he was sure and he confirmed it. That is the positive news.

The bad news is, I won't be able to go away to see Mama anyway as there is no time at the moment so I have to call her and let her know today.

I have mixed feelings, on one hand I won't see my sibling and that's pure joy.

Then on the other I won't spend her special day with her celebrating and spoiling her.

But it's out of my hands. Oh another thing about these Amazon tops that I only noticed today.

My heavens it's been decades since this has happened. It hugs my bust but floats out straight downwards so it appears like I have a flat tummy!!!

Can you believe it? I look bulge-less. If you've ever been self conscious about your mid-section, all you hope for, is that clothes hang prettily and disguise the wobbly bits.

Finally I have found tops that make me look more slender than I am, woohoo.

I'm not washing my hair again tomorrow so I hope it stays this set, volumised and cute.

Despite the morning dry heaving, the backache and tiredness, today is a rare good day.

I hope the start of your week makes you smile too. I shall see you tomorrow.....