#BlogLife1091 - Record breaking UK heatwave ending soon?

Hmm every day I've been searching for the demise of this damn extreme weather.

3/4 hours of sleep per night is wrecking me. I know up til at least 6/7am I was awake..

Shattered and drained. I kept grabbing my phone to do something but I had zero attention.

I watched the sky go from dark to light at maybe 4amish? I am sick of my clothes sticking to me.

I wanted to charge the fan all night, but I got scared because it keeps overheating and I don't want it to cause a fire..

I took it off at 4am, that's how I know the time. I forgot and remembered about the essential oils but I couldn't locate them.

I don't think I have lemon, maybe just peppermint and maybe another one?

The citrus ones are invigorating but calming for some reason. Hmm well as the heatwave is due to end today (Friday) I guess they won't cancel the UC appointment on Monday.

I would have loved a phone one. It's still baking, I'm sceptical about the weekend being milder..

The UK has had heatwaves before but never like this. I think the advisory was to stay home, unless you need to be out..

I only recall my skin burning once and it was so strange. I never use sunscreen, if it happens to be included in the product, so be it..

It's lunchtime, I should eat because my insides are empty. I'm probably dehydrated from perspiring all night.

I did want to do a bit of writing and volunteering first though. I miss my rolls, it's not the same with toast.

The thing I hate about these mini fans, is that the base is too light and keeps toppling over.

Oh and I finally did most of the washing. The sun should dry them quickly enough.

Pity no notification, the Monday appointment is still on, how will I have the energy for it?

Oof today was rough, the dizziness, no enthusiasm for anything.

I have to look for the aloe vera, I have this scratching compulsion and my skin is all bruised and tender.

I don't know if it's a coincidence or not but as you know, instead of painkillers, I use binaural beats videos.

Healing soundwaves, no ingesting nasty chemicals. Sadly the ones I prefer that are crazily effective..

All seems to have this devil music, the kind they play in horror films, creepy piano...

Ugh I hate it so much. It bothers me on a deeper level I think. I didn't put it together before..

But I bolt awake panicked, like I did this morning 8am and I didn't remember the dream but I just have an inkling..

I'm reverting back to panic attack induced nightmares. When I was in hospital and just out, I got them every night..

I feel like the music is a lil too haunting and it's upsetting my mind.

I've searched for alternatives but they aren't as good, so I have to put up with it.

Ugh my back keeps painfully twinging, I feel like it's going to snap off soon, it really hates bending.

Getting the charger, opening the freezer, picking up fallen bits.

I need blankie's heat but if I put that on I'll collapse. I have a feeling I did have a bit of heat exhaustion..

My appetite is gone, 1x meal per day but I know I need fuel so gonna heat up the beef tagliatelle pasta.

I so want takeout but can't afford it really. It's been a horrid morning with sickiness, cramps, dizziness..

But I think the last 2x nights, I've sprinkled peppermint essential oil on my pillow and truly that has knocked me out for hours.

So happy to get some proper rest. There was no seat on the bus going, I felt so rough.

And then I had a mini panic attack as someone bought a bloody dog and it was right next to me, so a mini freakout.

That should not be allowed unless it's a seeing eye dog. Ugh!!

It still feels heatwavey...  But an alternative UC advisor was there and he seemed human, so I was having an enjoyable chat with him actually..

I've realised what the source of my stress is, it's visiting Mama and not knowing if she'll take a toll on my emotional health..

Ugh I don't want to get up for food but I have too, my poor back.

I know I'll play muscle binaural beats videos.. Let me dream I can afford takeout.....

Here's what I would order salmon avocado or chicken sushi and sod it, probably lemonade, ha

#BlogLife614 - Where am I spending Christmas?

Song of the day - Bindley Benjamin - SOS To Santa

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tr_CaSsFNLA&list=PLC743C3F57E46E499&index=49

Mama finally got back to me and said it will just be us for the holiday festivities woop!

It's such a good feeling to have an answer.

So that's it. I'm definitely off on Friday to her place which is in the UK also.

You didn't really think I was going to narrow down the precise destination did you?

Grins, that's not really me, the blogger you somewhat know and tolerate ha!

Ugh the flipping neighbours won't silence themselves.

Either it's a domestic, a loud call, kids or somebody wandering around being noisy at 2.30amish.

Mama's got the sniffles unfortunately. I told her to keep hydrated and rest up.

She didn't sound great so I'm hoping it quickly passes and she's more herself and happier.

I don't really buy or take medications any longer.

I rely on binaural beats and/or essential oils.

I don't recall ever having a flu jab. What I do is continually use the antibacterial hand sanitizers as soon as I return indoors.

Plus purchase antibacterial hand-wash and that's basically it.

The peppermint is good for cold, flu and cough symptoms.

Which is what I used to sprinkle on a tissue or on my pillow.

However the lemon one blows it out of the water.

I felt stuffy or had a lil cough or the minor sniffles and liberally doused the pillows with the lemon..

Next day I felt completely normal and cured so I wanted to get Mama some but because of Christmas they might arrive late.

I don't think she has any. She swears by ginger water or tea I'm not sure. 

I think the oils will benefit her though. 

I got lemon and then lavender to relax her and help her sleep.

I can't stand that scent but she likes it. Eucalyptus was an option also but I was drawn to the lavender.

She's not an insomniac like me. She sleeps fairly easily but sometimes can't drift off or can't get back to sleep.

Maybe these two oils will be a boost to her routine.

*Holds hand up guiltily*

The Ferreros didn't make it. They just looked too yummy and my snack rations were dwindling.

I ate both packets, not at the same time, separate occasions. 

It's something I'll consume once or twice a year only, even though it's a favourite.

Chocolate is too moreish. I tend to stick to the low calorie versions.

Typically the Fibre One range or Iceland's Skinny or Bliss or whatever they keep changing it too.

I miss the mint chocolate one, that was tasty. I haven't watched Muppet Christmas Carol that's on the Christmas binge list.

If there's humour and some heartfeltness in the film that's normally a winning combination for me.

I do particularly enjoy the writer/foodie films and Yes Chef Christmas was a good one.

#BlogLife530 - Medicine free headache treatment

Sorry again about not posting on Thursday. I started to write but couldn't finish.

The thing with the emotional posts is that I will write them and then I am in the sad head space for a while.

Then add feeling under the weather, with the constant nausea and headaches, which strip my concentration and focus and it's a recipe for disaster.

I don't really suffer from headaches too much but when I do get them, they don't last long.

Although some can be really intense. Lately I was on day 5 or 6 of this stop-start ongoing headache.

Usually it is at the front of sides of my head only. This one has my whole head infected.

I don't think it's due to my eyes and I am guessing it is sinus related.

One minute I feel stuffy and the next I am fine. My treatment of choice is the eye gel mask and the peppermint oil, plus binaural beats on youtube.

But clary sage oil is apparently a healer also so I'm throwing that in.

Plus my gut has been saying try lemon essential oil so I just bought some from my favourite ebay seller.

Those have always been authentic and not watered down. I am hoping something will eventually cure it.

And I was running low on contact lens equipment, like eye drops and saline solutions so I bought batches of those.

I might also get another pair of those high fluffy slippers because they are so comfy without being flat and that's unusual.

Normally when they are platform style or have a heel, I find them painful but these are so cute and beneficial.

Aww they are sold out in my size but I might get some for my birthday.

I don't know what to get Mama for her birthday. I was thinking maybe homemade fudge again and paying for her to get an all body massage which she loves.

All of my orders came so I am replenished on the eye drops, saline solutions and I don't have to be concerned they will arrive if I go away.

My complimentary prime trial on Amazon expired but they offered me another month free so I extended that until August.

I wish The Secret Life of Amy Bensen was on it, as I haven't seen the last episode.

I saw it but it wasn't in english and there were no subtitles, I can only guess that she realised what we all suspected that he was a baddie and she ran away.

Oh I confirmed something today which is making me delay the time away.

Mama said that he, the sibling will be around if I show up, he's not staying directly with her, but in the floor above her.

To me, it's still like an axe murderer living in your building and cutting off your joy and relaxation at any given moment.

Birthdays have never been happy occasions so for at least this day, I want calmness and no stress whatsoever.

He can still barge in and scrounge meals, set demands, which is probably the point of being close by.

And although I can be polite, it's stressful to be around someone dangerous that is a ticking time bomb.

I don't know, nobody knows what sets them both off. But I'm tired of being around them. 

I don't respect them at all. I want safety and security. I want to let my guard down.

Her words which annoy me are don't worry about it, he's not directly in her apartment so it's all fine.

It isn't though. It is not alright so I doubt we will be spending it together because he only thinks of himself.

He could have stayed anywhere but he chose there. I am going to put my needs first and breathe easily.

I forgot to mention that finally the headache has disappeared. I am so relieved.

A few days have passed and no thumping pain and I think the essential oils had a lot to do with it.

If you feel pills are the best thing for you, go ahead but I am trying to be as natural as possible to avoid the nasty short and long term effects of chemicals in the body.

In taking a stand I wish Mama could interpret it, in a non selfish way.

I've always dreamed that by not socialising with them, she would internally question it to herself, maybe there is more to it.

Maybe the past isn't forgotten. Maybe she still feels terrified for a reason and I should respect her decision to stay away.

She never has seen it from my point of view fully. It's always seen as me being self absorbed and difficult and petty.

Anyway the decision is out of my hands as Dic said I have the last appointment next week.

I couldn't believe it. The programme only lasts a year and that was it.

July to July. I knew it was approaching or had just passed but I thought it was 18months or 2 years..

In my head, I was throwing a party, dancing, grinning, screaming happily.

I asked if he was sure and he confirmed it. That is the positive news.

The bad news is, I won't be able to go away to see Mama anyway as there is no time at the moment so I have to call her and let her know today.

I have mixed feelings, on one hand I won't see my sibling and that's pure joy.

Then on the other I won't spend her special day with her celebrating and spoiling her.

But it's out of my hands. Oh another thing about these Amazon tops that I only noticed today.

My heavens it's been decades since this has happened. It hugs my bust but floats out straight downwards so it appears like I have a flat tummy!!!

Can you believe it? I look bulge-less. If you've ever been self conscious about your mid-section, all you hope for, is that clothes hang prettily and disguise the wobbly bits.

Finally I have found tops that make me look more slender than I am, woohoo.

I'm not washing my hair again tomorrow so I hope it stays this set, volumised and cute.

Despite the morning dry heaving, the backache and tiredness, today is a rare good day.

I hope the start of your week makes you smile too. I shall see you tomorrow.....