#BlogLife929 - Vanishing brain

 It's only 2pm but it feels like it's been nonstop dealing with the UC stuff.

As I said it was a shame they didn't have a writing course. I think that would have boosted my confidence.

They did have the customer service but actually I saw a counselling one, that's good for volunteering, dealing with people so I wonder if he'll bitch about it.

They said I qualified for funding and seemed to accept me, but as I was trying to prove I was a UK citizen, it didn't accept my passport upload.

Hmm not sure what that is about. At least I tried. Next I have to re-do my CV but as I said it's already in STAR format so I'm going to add that I've started volunteering at 7 Cups and that's it..

Oh yea sod it. I hate confrontations but after I finish tailoring the CV and upload it, I'll apologise and say sorry have come down with a bug so can't make it tomorrow.

I feel so obligated to do the right thing and sacrifice my health to please disrespectful others but I'm getting close to snapping.

I'm so fricking tired and there's still lots to organised. Ugh it never lets me edit the CV so I alway have to write it out all over ffs.

Oh I bought what I thought was the good yellow sunflower alternative Flora butter but I don't like the taste, the other one was much nicer.

Yikes I'm on my second box of tissues, good job I bought extra.

I have a feeling at the weekend I might have to get more. It's annoying that I need to follow a procedure in the to-do list and I want badly to do it all.

But I'm so drained. It's only Wednesday though there is time before the weekend.

The biggest thing is how bitchy the UC advisor will be at my absence. I'm not in the mood for his bastard ways.

The more stressed I get, the sicker I become. I want sleep but it eludes me.

Right got to sort the CV and message the prick. Ugh just realised something, before last time, he said it had to be 2 pages.

How the hell do you add more information and expect it to expand into another page?

You are such a dickhead and excuse the poor language in this but it helps me feel a whole lot better because I can't stand up to him or swear so this is the next best thing :)

I forgot about Googly Docs, lets me save and edit in any format.

It's done and to be honest, I didn't change a damn thing, just added that I'm volunteering on 7 Cups.

It was almost funny trying to reword it as it had the exact same duties as HearMe.

Come on SS, stop being a chicken and send it and tell him you're not coming in to see his smug heartless annoying face!!!

Alright I've done it, argh damnit, he's responded. I hoped he had left for the day.

Oh ok, no shouting, no threatening to cut my funds off yet.. He just said he'll call tomorrow.

Notice.. No I hope you feel better soon or any kindness whatsoever.

I'm actually surprised he didn't send me the upload message link, ha, well at least I jumped through his many idiotic hoops, even though I feel wretched.

I was planning to keep my phone on anyway. I don't know if I still sound nasally..

For the love of chocolate, please give me an appointment in 2 weeks, cripes!!

Let me recover and avoid trekking when I'm dizzy and nauseated.

I had some yoghurt, a sandwich and a lolly. I don't think I want anymore.

Water is refreshing but I wish I had orange juice or apple or blueberry or lemon.

Sorry this is another short one, I really can't focus. One thought pops in and then disappears, plus my head is thumping.

At least I'm getting things done slowly but surely and finding the courage to use the forum more, open up, ask questions, champion others..

Oh the other thing that is really annoying and the reason I'm fluey in the first place is the extreme weather changes.

Hot/Cold/Hot/Cold so the fan is blowing in my face and I'm hot and cold, then I throw the duvet off and same thing hot and cold.

I want to be snuggled under it but then I can't breathe.