#BlogLife920 - Brekkie, lunchy, brunchy

It's a pity I devoured the olives because I just made this late brekkie, brunchy/lunchy thing.

Butter, pitta bread, chicken kebabs, steak, caesar dressing and sweet and sour or sweet chilli dip, It was soo good.

The caesar dressing is a tiny bit tart, not sure I'm that keen on it alone, mixed with another dip was better.

I'm sure when I used to have it before, it was maybe sweeter or at least less vinegary, I feel like they changed it and ruined it.

Omg that was freaky, I wasn't touching the laptop and half the text disappeared.

I just opened up a new tab and this post and it was all back, ugh, weirdness aplenty!!

So I apologise for the repetitive family posts but the only way to get it out of my system is to keep talking about it, feel free to skip them but if it helps me, I'll have to keep discussing it.

Actually talking of that she texted to thank me for the Welsh homemade fudge that got delivered.

I just rolled my eyes and ignored it. The pain is still fresh and I'm enjoying this time apart from her so much I might cancel Christmas too.

She's always thoughtless about that too, no notice, come at this time, then no no, come later, come tomorrow. Pfft.

There's only so much a person can be dished before it gets too much.

At long last I've finished the Simple face wash, I remember now why I hate it, it doesn't wash off properly, just sits on the face.

I'm using Neutrogena Clear and Defend, pink grapefruit scent, I think it was a substitution from Zoom.

It's quite unusual, I put some on my hands, went to apply it to my face and it's like it was all evaporated instantaneously.

That's the opposite to the gloopy too much gel Simple wash.

Next time I might use more but it washed off really well, had a lovely scent, I loved fragranced items, much nicer.

And my skin feels lovely soft and moisturised. It's very refreshing so I'll see how it deals with breakouts.

The second time I used it, it foamed and lathered well and it's just so lovely and not smothering at all.

I think it just absorbs into the skin because when I go to rinse, it's not as abundant as it was. I'm just happy it washes off completely.

The Willow fake butter, well it tastes exactly the same, just less fattening, it's even better than Pure and that was always my favourite.

I don't buy butter so my tastebuds are having a party. I need to get more crackers.

#BlogLife876 - How many days a week do you put on a mask?

It's Thursday night and I'm waiting for my phone to charge so I can continue playing the glitchy Looney Tunes event, ugh running an hour late, tsk.

Anyway as the #6 mud mask came, is that really the name? How odd. 

I couldn't wait and just applied it now. Just a generic sweet scent which I don't mind, it's better than unscented.

I was surprised at how gloopy it was. I shook it up, squeezed it out, it's white and came out like a moisturiser, a thin one.

It was easy enough to apply and now a few minutes later it's starting to harden, so that's good.

It's just looks as though I've gone very pale ha, not the bright white it started off as being.

I've got to squint and see what the instructions say. Although I mostly wing it and rinse it quickly, other times I completely forget and it's thirty minutes later..

Nope too tiny. That's odd it doesn't say how long to leave it on for, maybe a short amount.

My skin is a lil dry and has a few breakouts so I thought I would apply it but typically it's more a weekend thing.

Although I just realised, maybe I should spacing it out between days and not doing it consecutively..

There is more indulgent time at the weekends though. I do prefer doing it then.

I know you're supposed use a cleanser before but I'm going to use one after, as I find the mask doesn't tend to wash off properly and bits remain on my face, even though I feel like it's all gone.

It doesn't feel super tight, it's not uncomfortable. I can't detect a lingering fragrance.

I'm definitely not a beauty expert but I have been experimenting for a long time with my combination skin and I know what my face responds too and what it doesn't like.

It was mostly easy to was off, my skin doesn't feel stripped afterwards just soft and glowy.

I like it because you can get away with using a small amount and it still covers your face.

I've used it a couple times now and looking in the mirror, all the blemishes I had are gone.

My face looks smooth and clear, I think even the black acne marks are gone.

The fragrance such as it is, is off and on, sometimes it's present, other times nothing.

#BlogLife865 - Guilty, I have a confession..

*Looks at you with Bambi innocent eyes, trying to soften you up*

Didn't work huh? Not even a lil bit?

Alright, I tried my best to keep using the Clean and Clear and Fixderma beaded face washes but they kept suffocating my skin, causing breakouts and leaving residue on my face.

I caved, binned them and bought the Simple 150ml £2.50 face wash from Iceland instead.

It's not my favourite, I don't feel it does anything below the surface but I was desperate and the other reason is, the washes are clogging up the drains.

I keep having to put hot water and washing up liquid down it, as it's draining slowly.

That cemented it. Hurrah no beads, it's just clear, thickish, faint almost a grapey scent, it's nice.

And my skin finally feels refreshed and lighter. It doesn't wash off easily but next time I'll probably just use less of it.

My face is quite smooth, I probably wouldn't use a moisturiser afterwards, although I tend to put mine on prior as you know, because I have combination dry and oily skin.

It needs to breathe and be as empty as possible, without layers of anything.

I don't mind makeup when I go out but indoors, it's nothingness, just moisturiser in the morning and night sometimes.

Ahh I finally got some sleep on Saturday night, I did wake a few times but there was large chunks of sleep so I feel refreshed.

On Friday night there was none, so all day I was a zombie. Last night in between one of the random wake ups..

This fresh original themed story popped up. I desperately wanted to write it down but I was too drained to move or open my eyes.

It actually has a mature theme but I don't know if I could write that bit.

There was maybe one chapter's worth of material. I should not focus on a new story when other's remain open.

It was exciting for me to have a new idea come to life. It's not blog material, I don't even think I would put it on wattpad.

If I was more comfy and knew how to do it seamlessly, I might even consider dictating it onto a file and uploading it somewhere.

It flowed in my head, that was rare, all the conversations seemed natural, that's the hardest bit for me.

I'm not sure about the title but the rest of it seemed interesting, maybe it won't hurt to see if I can write it as a draft, see if there's anything there, while it's fresh.

I don't even know if I can remember the details and it's a Bank Holiday weekend, I'm supposed to be relaxing..

I have made a start on it, it's in my drafts, plus I registered with the website that I would probably upload it too.

That's progress, maybe I'll connect with new writers who struggle too?

#BlogLife851 - Functioning poorly

I'm not sure I have it in me to write and put out today's post but I'll attempt it.

My stomach is just all over the place, the nausea is hitting me hard with any movements but I'm slowly persevering.

I managed to change my bed, nice multi covered duvet. Then I took a rest, took out the bins, wiped around the kitchen and bathroom and then gave up.

I like to play music when I clean but I kept switching to the binaural anti-nausea video instead.

Standing upright is doing me no favours whatsoever. I haven't had any news about upcoming appointments, as I checked the post, aside from today's boiler check up.

It's just gone 10amish and he was due from 8am until 6pm I think.

I have to do some laundry soon also but that can wait. I should mop the floors too but that also has to be postponed, until I can stand and not want to vomit.

The Yash herbal lip balm I bought in a squeezy tube I might just have to bin.

The scent is nice, it's moisturising enough but as I squeeze it, it leaks all over and I'm constantly having to clean up the excess,

I will not buy that again for the problematic usage. I will stick to the Joy brand as that has no drama attached to it.

I still feel that tenderness in my chest area, I can't wait for that to disappear.

As I still feel horrendous and the maintenance guy just left, after phoning me he would be arriving soon..

Actually turned out to be an hour later but he was friendly and no issues raised.

I thought I would just do a mini either takeout or lunch order. Finally I saw the chicken samosas in stock and on offer but sadly they ran partially out.

I'm not surprised, they are lovely and I've been craving some, it was supposed to be 3 packs for £4.50..

But only 2 were available so they've charged me £4.40. I can't remember if it was a couple in a packet or just one.

Guess I shall find out as they keep rebranding it, not spicy, just nice mild and well seasoned.

The pizza express dough balls were also on sale, £2 off so I got that too.

Plus some flavoured water, apple and orange separately and some chicken sushi and sandwiches.

Oh and the clean and clear face wash. I am started to hate the beaded one, it doesn't wash off, just sticks to my skin ugh.

Here it goes, Zoom's tracking page has crashed as usual. I just feel like snacking, not a full meal as such.

Ooh that wasn't bad, about 40mins later it arrived. Hmm, they have yet again changed the samosa recipe.

It wasn't as great. I think they removed the peas also. I doubt I will get that again.

The Clearasil wash has a nice enough scent but it contains the dreaded fine beads ugh!

I swear I read the descriptions carefully, they don't mention it and I get it, only to be disappointed.

I think it just irritates combination skin. I'm breaking out slightly, due to sugar and hormones and my skin feels slightly worse.

Although I do feel like it's been deeply cleansed too, I'm not sure I need a moisturiser afterwards.

I'm still using it though as it's still winter-ish although the weather seems nicer and warmer unfortunately.

I miss the rain. I still can't find my glasses after I changed the bed, I wonder if I chucked them away by accident?

It's weird getting up and not putting them on briefly to see my surroundings.

I'm waiting for the Iceland order to arrive, it was nice not getting up at 7ish to answer the door.

Maybe I'll stick to the 10ish time slot.

#BlogLife849 - What do you get out of playing games?

Just under a week later I bump into J and he's all smiley acting as if he didn't stop replying to me.

I clarified....Um didn't you ghost me? He said No, sorry had some stresses come up..

Why he didn't say that earlier, is beyond me.. Could have said Hey, I don't feel talking at the moment, I'll reach out later..

Easy peasy. Anyway I'm thinking hmm. Then he acts like he doesn't want to talk, huge pauses in between responses.

He doesn't say, bear with me, I'm juggling a few things, just silence and then he answers me.

I don't see the point of him reaching out, then about 20 minutes go by and zilch!

So I just left him to it. Why all the game playing? Why not leave me be?

No-one is forcing him to converse, he could have left me alone. I'm not sure why the J's are like this ha, it's ridiculous!

I've done everything I wanted to today but I feel so sluggish. I want to sleep but I can't, it's too damn sunny, give me a rainstorm please.

My stomach keeps cramping and lurching so it doesn't encourage me to eat or drink, I feel so uncomfy most of the time.

The good news is I finished the subpar aloe vera body butter and am now on to the Golden Dusk.

It's thicker, creamier and longer lasting, loving it so far. It smells as though you've lit a candle.

Musky, perfumey, like a sweet and savoury mix that lingers throughout the day.

I only applied a light layer and it lasted all day. It's not overpowering, it's mild but it's lovely.

I can't pinpoint a specific scent sorry. I suppose it feels more like I'm wearing essential oils, than something artificial.

I want to do some tidying today before tomorrow's boiler checkup appointment but I feel too wretched.

All I want to do is lay down and rest. It's not helping that my chest keeps having painful twinges.

I can't wait for the weekend as no-one will be disturbing then. Yesterday I had a strange experience with the phone.

I was trying to shut it down to charge it and accidentally clicked or triggered something.

It went to developer mode, that safe mode, when you're troubleshooting but I don't know why.

I wasn't sure how to exit, I restarted or switched it off, I can't recall.

Then it was partially back to normal but aeroplane mode was constantly on and couldn't seem to be deactivated.

I finally found the option under settings but weirdly enough the wifi was still working, so strange.

Then the clock widget disappeared, the wallpaper was gone. I thought Nooo..

Did it revert back to factory settings? Did I wipe it clean? Do I have to start over?

My downloads and games seemed fine. The display just looked as though it had been reset.

It's normal now, that was just peculiar.

#BlogLife835 - Let's face it

Ugh I was hoping the knock on the door was the Postie, but no it was from the landlord, one of those Surveyors, actually 2, which unnerved me.

Talking about an appointment to look around, draw a map, take photographs.

I sooo hope they don't need to come into the bedroom, I cringe so hard, I just feel scared,

Male workers seem to think it's perfectly acceptable to make inappropriate comments or barge in and it freaks me out.

Umm nope, I need to tidy up first, put the laundry away. I told them to come back another time, I didn't know anything about it.

They took it well and said they will send me another meeting time and I'll deal with it then.

I finished the Eveline wash, it wasn't bad it was just tiny. Now I am onto the Fixderma.

It's a clear gel, smells nice and orangey, quite thick though and has beads, ugh, didn't realise that.

It washes off ok though considering the awkwardness and it does leave my face soft.

You do need a moisturiser afterwards, my skin feels pretty stripped.

The Glow wash and the tops I guess are still on the way. I finally decided to give the chocolate custard a try....

Hilarious, it's Ambrosia Ready chocolate custard pots, 2x 120g £1.60 I don't know if it was on offer.

The size is fine, the cost is a lil steep but the taste is nothing like custard at all, not even a lil bit.

It's just chocolate yoghurt, that's all it is. I thought it would be something cute and different to try but nope, false advertising.

I mean it was really creamy and tasty but not what it was supposed to be, so disappointed.

Now that the Neutrogena moisturiser is all used up, I am onto the Astral face cream.

It's a big tub, the price was expensive but it's quite a good size, thick and on the greasy side.

It smells nice too, generic perfumey but nice.

It's definitely a winter cream. It's what my face needs at the moment.

I might only use this once a day though. Oof I'm shattered. I checked through my old post I had forgotten to read and did find the appointment letter for the Surveyors, so not scammers trying to gain entry.

It's official from the landlord, I still don't see the point of it but I made my peace with it.

For safety reasons if they do need to see my bedroom, I will not be in the room.

I'm going to wait outside. It's just too much of a freak out, to have 2 grown men and me alone in a room, actually in my home.

I've been worrying nonstop and keep waking up fretting about it but it's mandatory so no choice.

I just hope it doesn't take an hour as predicted. I'm going to be in a lot of pain and tired from standing all that time.

I cannot to be seated with strangers roaming around nearby.

This is one of my worst nightmares but anyway, I'm going to try and keep it in perspective, they just have a job to do and I have to cope with it as best as I can.

I've made a start on tidying. I've mopped all the floors but my bedroom.

I'm exhausted. It's only 4.30pmish and I've eaten so I don't want to go back in the kitchen until it dries.

I have to wipe down the bath and sink, mop the bedroom floor, change the duvet, empty the bins.

Put away the washing and then I'm done. That can wait until tomorrow, I don't want to move.

I love that washing up scent, fruity, strawberries maybe? It's been 2 and a half hours, floors are still damp ugh, will leave them until morning now.

For touch-ups I normally get some old clothes or rags, wet it with hot water, bleach and just wipe around and that seems to be easier.

My body is not a fan of bending but it works better than the mop.

There's no sign of a new appointment. However the DWP bank consent form arrived, so I signed it and posted it today.

Come hell, what may.....

#BlogLife819 - Found the dry skin culprit

Well, out of the new moisturiser, the new face wash and the new mask, I experimented..

My skin is breaking out and was extremely dry and flaky but only when I started to use the new products.

I thought let me start with the Avon clearskin pink clay mask. I stopped using it for a few days, ironically it was supposed to clear up my blemishes and rough skin..

Then I noticed my skin getting back to normal, softer and softer. It's not completely smooth but it's so much better than it was.

That is definitely the guilty party and I will bin it. It just means it was a waste of money and I'll have to get a new one.

I just left some honest feedback about it and the false advertising wash I purchased. 

I try not to leave negative, I prefer neutral, I mean I did receive it and was able to use it, so negative seems too harsh and mean, even if it wasn't suitable to me personally.

 

Specifically about the Eveline face wash, how they said it was 150ml but it turned out to be 75ml.

Tsk tut liars! I browsed and there wasn't many good offers but the Eclat blue one was on sale for £2.95 and that's 70ml supposedly.

I've used the pink one before and that was great but I prefer trying different brands but not if it's too costly.

Yesterday I said that I was going to pick one of the unfinished stories and further develop it but I drew a blank about what to add so I didn't manage it.

I did come up with a wacky new theme though. I wanted to pretend I was talking to one of the randoms but I didn't actually want to go into a chatroom.

So I came up with this letter form of talking to Mr Wrong, someone that is a lil too cheesy and flirty but sometimes manages to say the right thing and make you laugh.

As I said, I don't know if it's a one off and maybe it should have been part of SpoofLife but it came out of nowhere and it made me unwind.

I started laughing as I was writing it and I realised that was more important than anything.

That I try to de-stress as much as I could and then, that would surely unlock the writing and it did somewhat, not for the stories yet, but certainly a fictiony halfway compromise piece.

I'm just cooking a hot breakfast, one of those chicken bake thingys and some sausages on the side.

I can't still can't manage two meals a day but I'm eating one good hearty one and snacking.

I feel physically better but I think it's more the stress that's sapping my strength and tomorrow with the course, I'll be back to feeling anxious.

#BlogLife813 - Fresh faced beauty

I tried the jalfrezi today with rice, wasn't that keen, it wasn't very flavorful, the chicken was alright but the rest was too bland.

I was surprised just 2 days later the Eveline face wash arrived. Poor Postie at 2pm tried to put it through the new slot but it didn't fit.

I'm disappointed it is not the advertised 150ml but a very tiny 75ml instead because at £5 that's steep.

Anyway just tried it and it has one of my favourite scents which is citrus, it's glorious.

It's a medium thick orange gel, it applies and washes off easily. I only squeezed a small amount and it covered my whole face.

Afterwards I feel so cleansed and refreshed. I'm really pleasantly surprised.

I don't even feel like I need a moisturiser afterwards but I still will apply it.

I know I usually do it beforehand to stop the oily greasy film remaining on my combination skin but I forgot to do it.

It's only the first usage so I will see how it performs over a month and if it lasts that long, then I will work out the value, compared to the price tag.

I love that feeling though, it seems like I just had a facial or ran the face brush, very clean and soft.

I just did a mini Ocado shop to tide me over until next week, just some seeded wholemeal bread and sandwich fillings, plus snacks.

I tried out the Nibble chocolate chip cookie dough bites, it's less like biscuits and more like lil cakes with the rankest aftertaste.

Yuck. There is very lil sweetness and it's quite bland. It was reduced to £1.76 and it's really tiny for the price, I don't recommend it.

I also got some clementine juice as I still feel rough and that really gave my system a huge boost.

I need to wash away the taste so I'm going to open the chocolate chunk shortbread for £2.90, steep!!

Those are lovely, very buttery and probably fattening too but delicious, 9 big chunky biccys inside.

I just wanted some snacky foods as I'm not eating properly yet. I thought I might as well put on the Avon face mask.

It's a cute pinky.purply shade. It smells like berries maybe? It's unusual, it came out like a thick moisturiser.

Applied really easy and hardens within a minute, my face is super tight and quite tingly.

I'm supposed to rinse it off in 4 minutes, I may leave it on longer though.

I think my face needs rejuvenating for a while. It was probably on for about half an hour.

It took a bit of effort to wash it off but then a lot of it came out so it was too much, next time I will squeeze it gently.

I feel very refreshed now. My skin is baby soft and glowing, so it shouldn't take long to get back to normal and clear up.

I know some aren't keen on the masks that feel tight on the skin but I don't mind them.

I feel like it firms me up, anyway that's just my opinion, it's up to you what you prefer and makes your skin feel alive.

I didn't end up going out today. I feel even more off and totally depleted.

I actually woke up and went back to sleep for an extra hour. My period seems to be off and on this January so it will be one of those months where I have less than no energy.

That explains why my face is breaking out and I'm craving sugar a bit more.

And the last of the deliveries came yesterday evening, which was the moisturiser.

The Neutrogena one has become my staple and after I try a few new ones, I always go back to it as it regulates my skin.

#BlogLife796 - Well that backfired..

Ugh I still feel like crap. The monthly is finished but I'm still getting cramps and nausea.

I had the phone meeting today and felt like I said the wrong thing, he asked me about any updates and I said I applied for the course but it wasn't in my area so I got rejected.

Then he said, well check out this site and get back to me, luckily a lot of them seem paid ones and I can't afford that.

I'll stall for a bit, I just want a Christmas break yeesh. Oh and as I expected, the next meeting is in person, sucks but I figured as much. I decided to try a few new things again.

I'm still waiting for the Brompton House Ferrero knockoffs to go on sale. they are 4x£9 and I don't want to pay that price or get that much chocolate, they have two different styles though, which look cool.

I decided to go for the more affordable option, Nutini chocolate minis, which taste like Ferreros but without that chocolate creamy centre, they were just a pound though for a lil bag, which had twin blocks, sorta like Cadbury's caramel.

It's nice but I guess a lil dry, mostly what you taste is the wafer and maybe a tiny inside sliver of chocolate filling.

I got these Dan Cake, mint truffle cake thingys also for a pound.

Umm, the mint is good, it's like it can't decide what it is? Is it a biscuit? A cake or a chocolate?

It's a soft kinda cake dough, I wouldn't buy it again, I like that it tastes more like dark chocolate but it's just not that appetising.

It's really not worth mentioning, I had 2 advent fluff wins, 50 nectar points on their advent and a calendar planner, I didn't claim the second one.

Now that it's winter I'm using the body butter more and that new version of the aloe vera American Dream one, isn't as good as before they changed the recipe.

I have to use it twice or more a day just to keep hydrated, I will stick to the other one, that smells better and is thicker.

It's a lil pricier but worth it. I'm sure I used less of that, so it lasted longer.

#BlogLife728 - You giving me lip, sweetie?

Normally I'll write a post on the night that I get here but I was too shattered, I even stopped replying to MC.

Slight panic when the cab driver got lost and I'm still unfamiliar so can't direct him, he just ignored my advice to stick to the high street and turned off.

Eventually he asked someone where Lidl was, as that's my landmark to Mama's place and then I spotted it.

But as with arriving he was hesitant to come right to the door, parked quite a few feet away which is perplexing, when carrying two heavy bags and a handbag to boot.

I think I figured out why I was charged less and I have to start adding that I have two bags, the handbag doesn't count.

They appear to tack on additional costs per bag and that's why the fare was cheaper than last year.

I have to start saying I have two hand luggage bags and my handbag and that's it!

They don't bloody help with the carrying and every car has a boot, so how they have the audacity to bill you that way, is ludicrous! 

Anyway arrived safely but I was really stiff and in quite a bit of pain until I borrowed mama's mat massager that I bought her.

It was glorious, slept deeply last night and I feel much brighter, with a shower and a scrambled egg toast with vegan butter.

That was delicious, I think Mama said it was the Flora brand. The good thing was that I remembered to pack almost everything.

I forgot the lip balm, so ended up ordered a few things, 2x lip balms for £2.50, Joy brand, raspberry flavoured.

Having tried that for a few days, I quite like how it retains the softness mostly, until I reapply it.

2x scrubs that I just use on my feet to keep them smooth in between pedicures.

Beauty Formula brand, cucumber and avocado scented and that cost £5.45 altogether, bargains galore wooop.

I'm still waiting for the Men's thick sockies, the lens cases, the lens and that's it.

Now onto the sweetie box review. The peanut brittle I expected to be nicer, it was ordinary, nothing special, Mama liked that it was less sweet than usual.

I don't recommend it. Next the chocolate ice, which was a layer of chocolate over the coconut ice, wow.

That is amazing, it was a really nice chocolate, and that coupled with the coconut made it just like a bounty, but nicer.

Highly recommend that one. These sweets I recommend having small pieces of and then putting it away for the next time.

Oh actually, that's all we've sampled. Neither of us are keen on salted caramel, so that peanut brittle might be given away.

The other one is the plain coconut ice. I'm not the biggest fan of coconut but once a year I don't mind it.

Sorry last one, the fudge coconut ice which as I don't like fudge gave that to Mama.

She said it was just ordinary, nothing organic or homemade, just store bought, so wouldn't recommend that either.

That's it really, everything arrived. I'm just waiting for a fancy breakfast. Ha.

I've never had eggs florentine before but it was the only place that did an egg muffin without pork.

It contains, eggs, spinach and hollandaise sauce, not sure I have sampled that sauce before.

I forgot to tell them to make the eggs well done. Argh and I forgot to order dessert. Darn.

#BlogLife722 - 2nd Male beauty wash item

I realised I was running low on a few things so did a bit of a beauty top up shop.

Another men's product as I just saw the same old brands and wanted a new and exciting item to try.

Hawkins and Brimble elemi and ginseng face wash 150ml I think, can't see clearly, for £4.50.

To be honest I wanted something that I could easily put on my face brush and this is a clear, yellowy tinged liquid, that foamed easily.

Unfortunately there isn't much of a scent there, a slight sweetness but really faint, I prefer a stronger presence.

Afterwards my face is stripped but soft and smooth. You would need a good moisturiser after to stop your skin drying out.

I use one prior as I hate any layers on my face, suffocating it. I don't mind the deep cleansing feeling, as I have combination skin and am prone to slight breakouts.

Oops I didn't notice that, it contains aloe vera, I think I avoid that ingredient, it does nothing for my face but I will try and have an open mind.

Think it's designed for oily sensitive skin, we shall see later on, if I still like it.

A strange thing is happening the fragrance keeps changing, I don't think I shook it up.

It goes from sweet, to minty, to smelling like aftershave, weird ha but I like them all.

Next up I'm waiting for the Salcura face wash, next week I imagine.

Lastly I'm out, or almost finished the Vatika conditioner, so I bought two new ones to sample.

Argan Soybean, which I don't recall seeing prior, it is supposed to soothe the scalp and add shine, hopefully it has a nice scent.

The other one was Sweet Almond which I can't recall buying and it's supposed to add moisture, prevent hair fall and breakage, plus strengthen the hair, which all sounds beneficial.

At least that one should smell lovely. It's a pity the bottles are so small only 200ml but yet cost over a fiver, ouchy!

I got to admit, I am a big fan of this brand as it does wonders for my hair.

And I do remember, at one point, I couldn't find anything that was providing any boosts to my locks and it was frustrating having lacklustre hair.

#BlogLife720 - I can't read at the moment

I am still struggling with using one contact lens. I don't know if the left one has a stronger prescription as my dominant eye, the right is much weaker.

If I kept the right lens in the right eye, I wouldn't be able to see, nearly as well.

I find that everything is still blurry and reading is quite taxing as it's not clear at all.

I decided to do a deep clean and popped a protein tablet into my lens case and now my lens feels more comfy, but the reading hasn't improved with fine print.

So it's definitely the lens which is a spare and probably really old.

I will just tell my optometrist on Thursday when I see him.

I have a strange update for you. This is why I like to try something immediately and give feedback and see if it changes later on.

Regarding the Yes To Tomatoes moisturiser, which I initially wasn't keen on.

It left my face grainy and over oily and just horrible in appearance..

Well I think it was my third use, that it miraculously changed. I have no explanation as I didn't do anything different.

But maybe it wasn't shaken or there was something at the top? I have no idea.

 But now as the old one is done, the Neutrogena, I am using it more frequently and it's behaving normally.

It's light, smells great and it's not so greasy. It feels smooth and I could go out like this.

My face no longer looks like I bathed it in oil. Weird huh? Now I would recommend it completely.

Probably for me though, I can't wait until I wash it off. I don't like that feeling of almost oiliness.

I like my face free and cleansed.

As for my back and legs, I'm treating the pain with my heated blankie, binaural beats videos and I'm just charging my shiatsu heated massager because I need something to work.

I think each day is getting a lil better but as I'll be heading out twice next week, I need to fix it now.

The more exertion I do, the worse it becomes. Having that shower/bath and pampering, just left it really delicate.

It felt glorious the hot water but probably wasn't a good idea, to do the oil treatment.

I had a feeling going out would exacerbate my back and it has, it's not so much walking around that sets the pain off.

It seems to be changing positions that brings back that painful surge.

I'm not looking forward to going out tomorrow to see the Optician but when he finally orders the replacement, it will be a relief.

I dug out the massager as the discomfort wasn't subsiding and I didn't want to carry on finishing this post or do much of anything really.

I decided to go ahead and get another face wash. The reason being, the Yes To Grapefruit is more of a mask, than a cleanser.

It feels like a waste to instantly rinse it off when it's supposed to be left on for about 20 minutes or however long it was.

In the mornings and evenings I just want to quickly clean my face, I leave the prolonged deep cleansing for the weekends.

I just bought another simple one for that purpose. Ha it's actually another men's product but I don't care.

Hawkins and Brimble elemi and ginseng 150ml for £4.50. I wanted to try a different brand and didn't see anything else that appealed so I'm hoping I will like the fragrance and consistency.

#BlogLife710 - I can barely stand

I don't know what the hell is happening to me. Yet again the period is finished and yet I feel as bloated, crampy and sicky as ever.

I just went to make breakfast and I fell like I was going to collapse again.

I feel like there is no moisture inside my body at all, like I'm drained, I drink enough, I'm sure I do.

But my stomach is hardcore cramping and I feel so weak. I'm not starving myself, I'm eating and drinking regularly, apart from that one day where I just nibbled a bit.

I've got two bottles of drinks to sip on as I don't feel like getting up, anytime soon.

I should have got more orange juice, I felt lifted, drinking that. I'll see how I feel today or tomorrow and if it's the same will do an Ocado or maybe Onestop shop.

Ugh pmt and whatever this is.....Will it ever end???

It's Sunday evening now and the worst has passed, I still feel as though I'm in a desert in the mornings but I'm okay now.

I decided to do the hair oils just to forget about everything. I'm using the Castor first and it smells divine, kinda sweet.

I didn't pre heat the oil, I'm just not feeling well enough to go back and forth too much.

I poured a generous amount out actually more than I thought but as soon as it hit my hair, it was like it evaporated.

It's so strange, as though my hair was thirsty and it just absorbed it fully.

I was tempted to add more but I'm not sure yet how it will rinse out.

I massaged it into my scalp and ends. It doesn't look too greasy, as I feel it.

I'm letting the bath run so maybe in 10 minutes I will wash it out and see how it feels.

I thought it would way more greasy actually, maybe it's the sign of a high quality oil??

On Tuesday I might use the other one and compare. Holy moly I've just felt my hair and it's really not that oily.

It really does seem to penetrate deeply, that's astounding to me. Oh maybe I'm comparing it to when I used to use the olive oil ha.

That was a mess!! I experimented a lot with my hair. I can see now why they recommend a generous application.

But again I still need to see if afterwards, there is no volume and how the texture is, will it be limp, will it still feel unwashed and dirty?

I have so many questions ha!! Alright the lukewarm bath is ready, going to get my body temperature down.

Will report back when my hair is damp and then dry. I think it's been about 10 minutes and that's enough for me.

Initial impressions were that it seemed standard to rinse it out, what I noticed was that the conditioner and shampoo seemed way more frothy, easily so, which is unusual.

That was nice, my hair is wet and I can't really tell if it's still oily.

It's wrapped in a towel, I sprayed my Mane N Tail leave in conditioner, I want to leave it warm and compressed for a while yet.

I can tell my hair is still wet anyway but I feel refreshed and I was thinking, if it's not clean.

I will re-wash it on Tuesday and see. Oh my the results are in..

My hair looks and feels soooo soft, so playable and not the least bit greasy. It washed out completely, I am so happy.

It's like it's styling itself, the ends are flicking out naturally. The only downside I can see, is that it definitely looks flatter.

The volume is gone but it's not completely dry yet. It feels really good, my scalp feels hydrated but I'm not sure if I would do this treatment and go out.

I hate having lifeless hair, maybe I used too much oil? That is the problem having combination hair, not many products are beneficial.

I'm glad I tried it out, it was a mistake but a fun one. It's now Monday morning, well afternoon.

And my hair is less softer, it appears oily but feels normal with very lil volume.

I'm going to re-wash it tomorrow and I'm not sure about using any hair oil as I'm going to the Market and will see if I can get my Kotex pads as Iceland ran out of Always.

Shoot I knew there was a reason I went to the Market, not just to pick up fizzy drinks, the nausea has returned.

But also the sanitary towels, Oh well. One thing I forgot to mention for a long while now..

Maybe since I've had really short hair, when I'm combing through or styling it with my hands, because I look like a punk rocker when the hair towel is removed...

I kid you not, my hair stands up as though I've had a big shock, ha!

Then I just press it down and navigate it to the left and right and boom done, aside brushing up the back flicks.

Anyway when I'm doing this, no clumps of hair, or any strands come out.

There is a tiny amount of shedding as for some reason I see it on my laptop or pillow but nowhere near the mass it used to fall out.

I'm glad about that. My hair could probably be trimmed again, easily.

And this is all without the multivitamins. Just regular haircuts, good quality products and no longer braiding or tying my hair up as it's too darn short for that, woop.

#BlogLife687 - First Popeye's experience in the UK

I'm curious about the KFC UK and Popeye's comparison. I think I read or heard or saw that our fried chicken is softer and the American one is more crispier...

I doubt I will make it for the breakfast eggy muffin, I think that stops around 11am?!

But the other thing I want to see is if they over batter the wings, it ruins the taste for me, I think because it's overcooked and tough.

It's local to me so I don't have to go out of my way to get it, but it's going to depend on how busy they are, if I can wait around to be served.

The pain has been building since the weekend or maybe just before and I don't want to make it worse.

Popeye's just opened so it's going to be a huge novelty gimmick and I'm not sure there is another fried chicken place in the immediate area..

I'll try to take some images for Twitter but it depends on how wrecked I am, when I get back indoors.

I also ponder if they use paper bags or easier to carry plastic ones, the paper ones will kill my hands.

I'll stop in at my favourite shop and pick up dessert or drinks, as they have huge sturdy bags.

Back home and it's been a disaster. I popped into Popeye's to get my order but I think it's self checkout only and I despise faffing around with machines, plus there were a few people queueing and by the time I got home it would be cold.

Luckily or so I thought, it was on Just Eat, I placed the order to try a bit of everything and have leftovers, a burger, some wings, some tenders and lastly the wrap.

I don't hear the bike or car specifically but the tracking says delivered and it isn't to my place, where I've given helpful address hints.

Just Eat doesn't have a number you can speak to anyone anymore which sucks.

I go online and request a complete refund and they say they will get back to me.

Whichever neighbour is dishonest enough to receive a free meal and not say, sorry wrong address, I didn't order this, is just horrible, I wouldn't do that.

Ugh, so much corruption in this world. I decided to just order from my sweet local cafe and they always know me and give me surplus too.

I'm too tired to move. Sorry I couldn't give you a review but I really did try.

The pain is still bad. The only positive note for today is that I finally got my Yash lip balm duo.

It has a hint of strawberries, is easy to squeeze out, it's like a creamy lotion, it's nice, I wiped it off so that I could munch and my mouth is still soft.

I'm not sure how effective it will be for the chapping but the initial sample is pleasant so I will update you later on in the month.

#BlogLife676 - Chatty chicks watching flicks 10 - La Femme Nikita

I've just tried out the Fresh Me face mask. It's a fun blue colour and squeezes out easily enough but it kinda smells like a scented bleach or washing powder.

It's alright but not my preference. I left it on for a bit, oh it's um a scrubby type of mask with lil beads, which I am not keen on but actually these were kinda soft.

It didn't feel like they were that harsh, it's too early to tell if I would recommend it but my skin is soft and fresh, there are some pimples remaining but my face looks radiant and mostly clear.

I've also just opened and tried the Avizor brand of hard contact lens cleaner and it's the same strong mixture unfortunately which burns the eyes if every bit of it isn't rinsed out, it's effective though.

Looks like I'll be going for the pedicure/massage and possibly eyebrow shape on Thursday or possibly Monday, not sure yet.

I don't even know if the beautician is back from her months away.

I've been watching La Femme Nikita, the original one, I never did see it from the beginning but I remember wondering when Michael and Nikita were finally going to get together?

I never knew how she was recruited. It's funny that they killed her off to the world and yet kept her real name lmao.

Plus didn't give her any sort of cover story, just told her to say she's out of work, pfft.

At least work would explain absences, yeesh. The technology all looked so outdated ha.

I guess the other thing that bothered me was the first time Michael took Nikita out to dinner and her being all giddey like it's a damn date.

Umm he's practically a kidnapper, why on earth would you be all excited about gifts and a date from someone training you to be an assassin, who you don't know is even on the right side of the law??

I'd be thinking is the drink or food poisoned? Why are we suddenly out in public? This has to be test related.....

Also as a trained killer, why get involved with someone that has a kid, that could be used as leverage or get murdered?

Plus I wonder if Operations knew all along that was his daughter and yet kept threatening to cancel her aka take her life? Lol.

It makes zero sense! What could her believable cover story be?

Secret Royal with mundane duties to perform? Rejecting Princes ha.

Or secret psychic helping the Police with their investigations or oncall plastic surgeon?

One last one.....Umm...Counsellor could be one, needy patients galore in the world.

See it's easy peasy to create a fictional career.

#BlogLife651 - Who does my face like?

It's been a few days now and I've stopped using the Skin Expert face wash, due to the extreme dehydration it caused to my face.

I'm improving but there are still dry patches. The Delia White radiance gel I paid just over a fiver for.

Is a small 150ml bottle, I was a bit miffed the lid is broken, I can't pump it and have nowhere to transfer it too.

I just open the lid lead and grab the excess from that and apply it. It's clear a medium thick gel and smells weird.

I don't like the strong scent, I can't place it but it's offputting. It's really lovely and soft on the skin, you feel this immediate moisturising effect.

It's really helping, maybe I would try a different version and hoped it had a better fragrance.

The Neutrogena moisturiser is also helping, it's light and refreshing.

Something has been bothering me. I just feel it's important to say.,

Please don't let anyone tell you how to feel. If you're upset or sad or angry, don't let someone dictate your emotions.

That really annoys me. I need to process these feelings, I don't care in that moment if they are negative.

What that person doesn't get is that, this is my path to feeling better.

I have to purge all the angst out, I have to express that I feel hopeless or lost and right at that particular moment, there is no silver lining.

I don't feel things are going to improve and that is fine!!! Because I'm being honest. I'm being vulnerable and raw.

And it's healthier to say all these things instead of keeping it to myself!

Rant over. Ugh had a mini freakout, there are a lot of dogs around here and one was barking so loudly, I thought it got loose and was chasing me.

It didn't but oof was glad to be inside, I think I was chased by or cornered by one and ever since then, I freak out.

Anyway on a positive spin, my vest top came today, it's just plain black, v neck, thin straps but it feels almost satiny.

I didn't realise it was going to be so nice, it just covers my rear, I think which is nice and long and I'm going to use it as a slip.

I don't have any actually. It was just under a tenner with postage but I'm ok with that, as it's lovely and fits loosely.

Ooh salmon avocado sushi is on it's way and the other purple top should get here before 4pm.

I really want to nap, cramps and nausea today, pmt sucks!

Ooh just got the new top, it's not as salacious but not as expensive looking either.

I definitely need a top underneath, I'm ancient now, gone are the flashing days, I'm not showing my twins to everyone.

It fits loosely though and I'm happy it's a new look for me :)

#BlogLife644 - You don't hate me, your brain does..

Song of the day - Ravi B - Shirley Gyal

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CATRtgcIxw0&list=WL&index=46

Afternoony to each and every one of you. It's actually a pretty lovely sunny day weather wise.

But I'm hormonally frozen, whenever I am on, my internal body temperature drops significantly and I'm already cold blooded, so the heating is on high as is the blankie to try and warm me up.

I must have slept alright because I rarely have energy when I'm out, I got some soothers lemon sweets because my throat is a lil dry and I feel sniffly.

Then I went to get the pakoras and some ladoo desserts, I had to ask the guy where they were. I didn't even know they did plain and the pistachio version, the nutty one is so much nicer.

I was going to get some sandwiches also but the energy was starting to dip and I had been pain free so I didn't bother.

I knew though as soon as I got indoors, I would be excessively drained for at least half the day if not all of it.

I tried to nap but it's just not happening, I think I'm too cold still. Although one or rather two things that are hurting are my hands.

Luckily they haven't completely seized up but it's getting easier to strain them, sooner and sooner in the day, unlike before.

It would be better if I could rest but maybe later. I feel like I just made my own version of a smoothie.

I left some orange juice in the bottle froze it overnight, poured fresh juice into and it's got the bits and icy lumps of orange that are melting inside, delicious.

I've nibbled but I don't feel too hungry, just tired. Last night I saw MC, we seem to be going more on the deep and meaningful side at the moment, we never used too.

Because I have known him for probably a few months now, as it was way before Christmas that we first spoke.

I told him everything about being ill and why it makes dating a hindrance, he too seemed to get it and be understanding.

But let's see how he reacts next time I see him or if he recalls what I even divulged..

I spoke to someone else who seemed alright but was obsessed with trying to figure me all out in one day.

Now the problem with these types of people, I have encountered many times over, is that they latch on, have a stranglehold on you are eventually convinced you are this way or that.

Without realising, it takes time to get to know someone, I never serve myself up anyway, I share bits and pieces that aren't personal.

Anyway at first he was praising me, Oh you're so funny, you're so real, blah blah blah.

The problem with this over zealous enthusiasm, is that eventually you will say something they don't like and they can't handle it and will turn on you for it.

It all seemed fine and then he really royally flipped out and out of nowhere said I know you don't mean that, you shouldn't hurt peoples feelings.

I genuinely wasn't, I was just going along with the chat and then he said, I'm leaving.

I laughed and didn't even bother to respond because he wanted me to engage, he wanted me to beg him to stay or have this invisible row made out of thin air, and I refused.

Things can be misinterpreted, tone can be hard to read. But I don't feel I said anything rude or disrespectful at all.

I blocked him and he kept bombarding me with messages all night, luckily they all failed as I wasn't in the mood.

If you right someone off or exit, then stay gone, what's the point of seeking attention all night?

I don't understand that. I get rejected and ghosted all the time, you don't see me pinging them to get noticed.

I might just do it once, because messages don't always get delivered but that's it.

Unless they message me and initiate contact, I won't chase them.

I recently had a funny chat with someone and halfway through he disappeared, I chased him up once and he didn't reply so I left it.

I wasn't devastated, more curious but I let it go. Sometimes you make a connection and other times you don't and it's fine.

Life goes on, there is another random who keeps messaging me but so far it's always been at the wrong moment.

I don't like his voice but his personality is great, I'm just not sure whether to reconnect or not.

I feel bad for ignoring him. I will see how I feel but just discourage phone calls, ha.

Oh I used the Vatika garlic conditioner this morning, so far so good, my hair is soft, my scalp seems mostly hydrated and my hair looks full and smooth.

It's behaved even though it was windy, it remained styled and cute.

I will have to use it more before I can recommend it.