#BlogLife1047 - Eclair cupcake hybrid?

I'm eating small meals and got around to that concoction I bought. I'll look up the name. (Chocolate butterflies).

But it just looked so funky, a cross between an eclair and a cupcake? Never seen that before.

That's exactly what it tasted like, weird, but really good. I'm never sure if I'm supposed to freeze it because it's got cream in it?

And that got solid but although it looked small on Twitter, it's quite substantial.

I don't think I can face further munching, maybe a handful of the sour cream dill crisps later on.

I've taken off my makeup and hung up the clothes and the washing.

Feels really good to lounge on the bed while the cramps come and go and the earbuds act up grr.

I didn't get fizzies, just orange juice, I think it helped because I didn't feel sick anymore just weak and tired.

Just a quick update. Since P didn't say a thing regarding the photo, hours passed and there was just like reaction type thing.

He wasn't relentlessly asking, just a few times, anyway it pisses me off when they don't say anything.

It makes me think they are finding a way to block me or give me the speech.

I'd rather it was mature. You're not my type, no offence. I don't think we should talk..

But usually it's the speech........ Oh heavens. There's been major family drama, I can't be on the internet....

Goodbye forever....... Lol! Dopes!

So I gave him an out, I said I don't mind being rejected, it won't be a big deal.

And his reply to that was.....What are you on about?

Yeesh could I have been any clearer? So as my revenge, because he's still chatting, just with huge gaps..

Was to go and delete my picture. For him too, apparently that's an option... Ha...

I wonder if he'll notice and if he does. I'll just tell the truth, not that he doesn't deserve it but he didn't comment, so it's irrelevant it being there.

Plus I wanna pat myself on the back for being courageous too! I just boom, went ahead and did it.

And to be fair, I did say I didn't want one of him. I'm rarely attracted. Although I think if you have balls, you insist, listen fair is fair, I've seen you, you should see me too..

He could still ghost me tomorrow and you'll find out this week ha.

But at least if he sent one. I'd say he was nice looking but not the right fit for me.

He already said he has facial hair and that's never my type. The next step is to stop staring at my phone and checking for messages..

Come on SS, distract yourself! Well it's a new day and he's still messaging.

Ha I just let them initiate contact. He literally asked if I was up, this morning. He didn't say goodnight yesterday and he usually does.

And I said Yes been up ages. Then he said Why didn't you message me? So funny.

I told him I thought he was still asleep or busy with work. So my inkling is correct..

He's not noticed that my image isn't there anymore. I get the impression he's bored and keeping me around for entertainment until someone viable comes along.

But that's the thing. I'm using him right back. He keeps saying Don't get attached to me, I know you are/will..

With me, it takes such a long time to build trust, to be comfortable, to open up and work out how I'm feeling, that by that time, they have come and gone..

I don't see myself getting hung up on him but he is really funny, down to earth and good company.

But when someone gives the impression, they are not going to invest in you, I back off and shut down the potential.

I'm not getting hurt. I want someone to care. I'm not interested in a one way mingling.

And I feel like although he's too cowardly to say, I'm only in it for a short team meaningless fling, it seems like he's dropping hints, implying it indirectly.

So I've been straightforward and told him, if someone doesn't care about me, I don't care about them.

And I could walk away easily and not care much that it was over.

I dunno if he's used to women getting obsessed but that's pretty arrogant to say......

Liking me is inevitable....I myself try not to be too conceited but my voice always gets complimented.

Ok I snapped today. He's barely talking, long gaps and then 3/4 hours passed and my reply was undelivered.. In the evening..

Suspicious. So I thought f off! Chicken and just blocked him on discord and to be honest downloaded telegram for him said our calls weren't clear, pft.

Blocked his ass on that too and deleted it. Woop. I didn't say, goodbye, because what's the point?

Messages aren't delivering. I bet he blocked me. Although last seen is still there, seen recently yet undelivered, hmm.. Shady.

It basically just felt as though it was a slow ghost, he was waiting for me to block him.

You don't go from chatting a lot, to barely communicating, without something being wrong.

I've already moved on ha. Randoms are easy to replace :)

I'm not in as much pain. No real cramps. I've ordered the shop for tomorrow and am eager to try wholemeal chapatis.

I think they are brown, they look it. Please be a real roti and not a bland wrap.

There is a huge taste between the two.