#BlogLife786 - I'm fiction but I'm also real

I love winter, the mornings are tough waiting for the heating and the blankie to warm up but once it does, it's lovely and toasty.

Especially when the pain is climbing and I feel generally sore all over, the warmth aids my recovery.

I've just booked the shopping for tomorrow morning and I saw something new that was going for a £1, roti parathas from Crown Farms.

It's only 5 included and I don't think it's wholemeal and I hope it's not spicy but I thought I would try and see if it's more like a roti as those are my favourite things to make a wrap with.

I also saw some chicken kebab meat to put inside, plus olives and who knows if the regular coleslaw will be in stock?

I also got some croissants and I saw chocolate custard that looked fabulous to try but I didn't get it.

I'm sticking to the basics for the moment and still stretching the meals out, buying things on sale or taking advantage of special offers.

Just unpacked the shopping and checked the post, nothing new. I tried the roti parathas, it's nothing remotely roti flavoured, they just seem to puff out more and are thicker but the wholemeal version is way better.

It was only a pound and only a handful inside so no wastage, I can eventually eat all of them, which is why I chose it.

This one I had kinda plain, no butter, just olives and coleslaw (it was finally in stock yay). I wasn't that hungry so I wanted something simpler.

I missed olives so much. I also saw some crispy shredded chicken which would suit the wrap sandwich as well.

I thought I had started my period but I haven't. I'm still craving sugar and chocolate though.

I'm going to have a croissant and then I'm done. I'm going to set myself a deadline and try and finish the latest Christmas story before Christmas so I can publish it then.

It's got a fair bit of work to do. I've picked the title, written about 7 chapters already and I'm overwhelmed already because I gave myself more work on this one.

It's a different style, to my usual but I'm going to try and ignore the self doubt and self criticisms and push through.

This is the way it came to me, bubbled in my head and that's why I'm doing it this way but it's already changed directions a few times.

I don't get hung up on that, I just go with the flow but it means I'm constantly re-thinking scenes because the outcome is now different to have I initially envisioned it.

It's a process and inspiration is very rare at the moment and now I'm cramping so I don't think I'll eat anymore, until later.

Sometimes it plays out, the way I see it, but just in a different way and other times it's just doesn't end up working, which is why I don't write the ending first, or skip ahead, it's constantly evolving and that's how it happens for me, anyway.

For others it might be different but I don't want to force it to fit together, I want it to be natural.

Hmm I tried the shredded chicken, I'm not keen on that, it's over breaded and has no real flavour, I won't buy that again.

The chicken kebab meat is alright, maybe I overcooked it but it needs more seasoning.

I'm trying not to overthink and keep everything in perspective so I've been watching Christmas movies, some old and some new and that helps to relax me.

Feelgood vibes, nothing scary or confusing just simplicity and romance and a satisfying conclusion, where everyone ends up happy and fulfilled.