#BlogLife425 - The pain that never goes away..

I wasn't sure what I wanted to talk about today. (Thursday) but sometimes when I get it off my chest I feel better.

It's 10pm and tomorrow will be a long day so after this I will hit my bed and hopefully sleep well enough for a few hours at least.

I want to get an early start and avoid all the traffic of people shopping and travelling to work.

I feel I did sleep for a bit and then I think by 8am I was drifting in and out, making sure I hadn't overslept.

I did set my alarm, turn the heating on high and then sleep a lil bit more.

I think 11amish I uneasily just decided to get ready. The appointment wasn't until 2pm but either I have sluggish movements or times goes extra fast.

I didn't really feel too sicky, a bit here and there but it passed and I forgot to take my humbug mint sweet with me to control it.

I guess I didn't need it anyway. The journey there was fast but as I was standing, the bus was really jerky.

I had such a death grip on the pole, that my hand started getting really sore and stiff.

It's not usually that bad and it's still throbbing now. An early rest will hopefully sort it out.

I didn't nap. I just felt like there was too much to do, eat, emails, blogging, advent comps and other stuff..

It took maybe my usual 10 minutes and I arrived 10 minutes early so I just called up to notify that I was around.

Only to be told Dic-tator was on his lunch break but he knew that I was coming.

You couldn't have grabbed a sandwich and came back or postponed it a lil??

He doesn't see me when I'm late, now doesn't like when I'm early?? Don't schedule it around your breaks then, idiot!

So they keep asking me to come upstairs and I have to explain that I'm disabled and that aggravates my conditions so they say, ok, we'll find someone else.

I pace around in the tiny downstairs foyer bit as standing still, just makes it worse.

Some time later, someone comes down and says, give me your details and we'll just pass it on.

Oh and you didn't need to come today, there's no paperwork for you to sign.

Grrrrrr!!! Jerk called me in for no reason!!! Then Dic-tator casually strolls in, surprised to see me.

Remarks oh just wait and I'll get something. I just nod and inwardly do an eye roll and the pain is getting unbearable now and there is nowhere to sit!!!!!!!!!!!

So much for bringing a chair down, you lying so and so!!!

Then he comes down again and says you know, it's fine, you can just leave, see you in January!!!

I just hurried off, bought sushi, sandwiches and some weird chocolate flapjack cakey bar that wasn't bad.

The bus home was supposed to be a few minutes and then it arrived and the driver just vamoosed.

Not a good sign when the replacement is nowhere to be found. The timetable then changed to 8 minutes or some crap.

Then when it finally arrived, there was all this roadworks and man made traffic lights and we just kept stopping.

I'm sure I didn't get home until 3pm! Grrrr!!!

No you bloody won't. I'll be blissfully away, or at home, (but he won't know that).

I'll just request phone appointments. He's made me travel in the slippery snow, when I've been nauseated, made me climb the stairs when I've felt dizzy and had blurred vision and refused to see me, when I'm a few minutes late.

I need a break. Physically and mentally so he can jump off a cliff!!

I really don't know what it's going to be like when I'm away, hence the uncertainty about writing.

I've been really stressed and drained so I definitely hope that I can relax and be kinda empty and numb for a bit, not in a bad way, but in a... I really need to switch off!

Panicking slightly, that I'll forget something. The bags already seem overstuffed but I guess lighter, when the presents and snacks are handed out and consumed.

I just don't want to forget the fish, chargers, lens case, phone, or presents. Writing it, helps it stick in my memory.

What's on your festive wishlist?

Mine is headphones, warm nightshirts, chocolates. slippers and peace.

I can see myself getting the majority of the above myself, which I'm not fussed about.

I never ask for anything as it seems a bit greedy. I like shopping for bargains and my own personal style anyway.

Goodnight :) and take care of yourselves. I may not be around but I'll be scribbling away.

#BlogLife99 - Should I take one last look back?

I packed up and thought I had everything stored in my black overnight bag and then I clipped my hair back and for once the breeze wasn't blowing the hair in my face.

For the first time in ages I decided to wear makeup. I always do my eyes and lips but this time because of the mask. I didn't wear lippy and I am down to my last bit of chapstick.

I decided on a pinky base and then swept a purple line across to look funky and it is simple but looks cute. I was going to do my nails too but there was no time.

I arrived with no layers on just a pinky long flowing top and dark purple trousers and because the sun was shining so brightly I was warm and toasty.

My phone died a few hours later and I was sticking it into the usb charger cable and it wasn't clicking into place, in fact it seemed loose.

I did that for several minutes until it finally dawned on me, the main phone, the samsung now takes a smart charger which is wider than the regular ones and I forgot it at home.

Argh!!!!! My phone has merely 20% battery remaining so I switched it off and then ordered a spare lead on Ebay, which will hopefully arrive tomorrow or early next week.

I had a credit voucher for Curry's that I have been dying to get rid off and mama reminded me I could have used it for that. Grr.

My back is really killing me but my shiatsu massager is at home as mama said don't bring much, I have surprises for you.

I am trying out some pain relief binaural beats to see if it helps because I keep wincing with every movement. Presently it has been a chocolate fest with chocolate cake, nutty cereal bars.

In addition to some nutty chocolates. This is our chocolate fix for a few months now. I want to lay down but it is too early. I can't wait for mama to see her gift.

She loved the colour and style, it is very bold and pretty and she saved the bottle of non alcoholic wine that I bought her for Mother's day earlier in the year, for us to savour.

I told her to open it but she wanted us to experience it together. For the price, it is a very big bottle and very tasty. It isn't too sweet at all.

I have great taste and can sniff out a bargain anywhere. I'm sad that my charger lead didn't arrive today (Saturday). I have been using it for a couple of seconds and then switching it off.

It probably has about 15% battery left now eek. I miss texting, calls, my games and just having a high speed phone that can handle anything.

Mama kept bragging that her place is always breezy but there is no cooling air and her fan keeps dying so I feel like I am living in a sauna.

I also keep having to bend down and I just feel uncomfortable and achey constantly. My temper snapped a bit when she expects me to finish whole gallons of products the moment I unseal them. 

Grr you have room in the fridge. I don't eat massive amounts at a time. When I open something I consume it within a few days not down the damn thing on the same day, shish!

It'll get consumed or it won't but I just need a bit of peace. Her place is open plan so there's no escape /privacy. 

I'm also bloated and though grateful for the hospitality, I'm used to my own pace and being able to rest when possible.

I really miss it and the games would have been distressing me but now the Samsung has died for real. I don't know if I can go another day without a charger and no air. 

I should have ignored her warning and packed my long lasting fan. It's so powerful and makes such a huge difference in making me feel calm and refreshed. 

Looking forward to being back home where it's easier and my body gets to heal more conveniently but it is a new day and I slept really well so for now I feel a lot better.

I am just waiting for her postie to arrive so I can pounce on him and hopefully get my charger cable. Keep everything crossed that it comes on day 2 and not when it is predicted which is tomorrow.