#BlogLife1104 - Lady in red blotches..

Time to go home in an hour, the cab is picking me up but only charging me £20 this time..

I tried on the red leopard skirt and top and although it's a fraction of a shade lighter in difference, it's not noticeable, so looks like I'm wearing a figure hugging dress..

Looks great, even though Yes, I'm noticeably top heavy, my tum and hips are quite big but it's very feminine and I'm still looking healthier than before..

I decided to take some full length selfies in my new size but forgot how to do it, ha.

Googly says, instead of selfie mode, use the regular side in the mirror and take it that way.

It worked, the first set was ok, but then plucked and re-shot them.

I should probably be using alsorts of filters to make me look good but sod it.

It's more for me, I want a visual kinda update that my body is changing for the better and that all my good days, aren't behind me..

Oh and tried the new makeup, the foundation is my shade and the eyeshadow looks softer than I anticipated, probably better if it's natural..

But I didn't try the especially bold colours, so maybe that's different..?

The more I use the Avon perfume, the more I like it.. I should eat, but I have no hunger pangs..

I kinda feel bad for leaving Mama in the lurch but it's out of my hands and to be honest, I have the same pains she does

I managed to avoid excess stuff in my bag, refused it all, binned the rest because it's nice having them lighter..

Still bulky but not taxing. I've been having strange dreams about being thrown together and sorta dating, seems unnatural.

Like more out of circumstances than compatibility. I don't really remember details much.

Anyway back home, it took an hour, lots of traffic but felt like he was still taking the scenic route...

Very slow but at least it was just £20, slightly cheaper than normal. I just ordered food for today and tomorrow, falling asleep...

Ugh I have to unpack, tidy up and tomorrow ring the maintenance to set up an appointment..

Who has the energy for any of that? Not me.. I still can't get over, me in a dress like outfit...

They always seemed to be unflattering.. But I am starting to look more and more womanly..

The boiler is clicking away, I hope it's working, I'll test it when I get up, yep heat and hot water are available.

The new slippers are so soft, fluffy and toasty to walk around in.

I just washed off my makeup and all the uc stuff is up to date so I want to have an early night and drift off to sleep, refreshed for tomorrow's potentially stressful appointment.

At some point a tiny bit of mopping to do and that's it. Ugh unfortunately this side is still boiling hot.

Luckily my fans are charged.

Ahh forgot to mention a small victory. One of the olive jars at Mama's was stuck, so once again googlied ideas.

Re-tried the sink/hot water tip, place it upside down, leave it soaking in hot water, return in 1 minute and boom done..

Well the first try, didn't do anything but I twisted it again and boom popped open, so very cool because we are both madly sprinkling olives on everything..

Rice, salads, sandwiches and solo munches :)

#BlogLife459 - From unseen to seen

I think I'm starting to realise that for a long time, I no longer wanted any attention foist on me when I went out.

I was too busy trying to keep calm and avoiding any triggery panic attacks to deal with men that followed me home or tried to approach me or made me feel super uncomfortable.

Maybe subconsciously that's why I sabotaged my weight loss journeys. It was a breath of fresh air to be completely ignored and not pursued.

Now I feel a lil different, having some focus on me is slightly more bearable but I still feel shaky and unsafe.

I do feel like I can mostly protect myself providing I'm not alone with a man so my healthy eating and exercise continue to proceed and I'm slowly slowly shrinking.

I'm embracing my femininity again which I neglected or disguised for a while.

Now it's brighter colours and makeup and just shopping more for feelgood items.

My box of goodies just arrived on the third day and as the Nutrigum vitamins seem to be doing me a lot of good, I decided to check out BodyCare's version.

It's Vitamin Store, skin hair and nails. There's 40 in a bottle, which is a weird amount lol and it cost £2.09 so I decided to buy 2 of them and will use it when the Nutrigums are done.

I just tried out the Technic clear mascara £1.39 with my hard contact lenses on. It did sting a lil bit and I did only do 1 or 2 coats.

I don't see any curl but neither is it smudging my lenses. I just did another coat and I don't know if I observed this or read about it..

But a see-saw side to side and then upward technique works a lot better and now there is a slight lift and it looks defined.

They feel very wet my lashes but not clumped or heavy. I know that my lashes never look false because they hardly ever curl but just to give myself a boost and especially when I'm wearing eyeshadow, I think they will look a lot nicer now.

I don't feel any irritation and although the dream colour would be brown or even a purple. Colours are out for me.

Ooh I did used to wear white, only on special occasions, mostly clubbing nights and they popped!!

On to the body mist Britney Spears Midnight Fantasy £8. Hmm I don't think it's a knock off actually, which surprises me because I would never buy it again.

At first the scent is bubble gum and then it's a fruity drink and now just reminds me of a slush puppy.

It's a very sweet perfume suitable for kids, definitely not for adults. Luckily I bought it for everyday use, it's not something I would wear to socialise with.

I much prefer floral scents. The description was this... Sour cherry and plum, freesia, orchid, vanilla, amber and musk.

Which sounded delightful but no, it isn't but live and learn. Next time I will pick probably another brand.

It's been a strange weekend, I started my period for the third time this month, arghhhh!!!!

It is ridiculous and now I feel the slight cramping, definite bloating and sugar cravings, plus the slight morning nausea.

I'm re-listening to the light period subliminals again because I'm fed up with not knowing if I had to wear something or not.

I just realised that Dic the moron has given me two appointments and once again, one of them is a Tuesday (tomorrow in fact).

I even saw him write down Tuesdays were bad for me and yet here we are.... The other one is this Wednesday.

I'm just going to turn up to tomorrow's one because I will get it over and done with.

Oh the lift is working now so less pain but more waiting around. Zzzz..

If I get a chance will apply the mascara and see if it burns my eyes again, the following morning.

Lastly a new story popped into my head and I couldn't resist writing some of it down.

I don't think this will be a blog/wattpad submission, if it comes out flirty..... I'm gonna post it somewhere else..