#BlogLife1030 - Why is solitude such a bad thing?

I just read a well meaning post about You're never alone.. As in someone is always there to support you..

But what if there's noone? What if you grew up realising, the only person you can count on is yourself?

What's so bad about that? I can communicate with others if need be, I just don't happen to share that much.

Personally I like my own space, a safe place to breathe and be myself.

Some people have large groups of friends, some have a couple and others have none.

I accept it, people, acquaintances come and go. I enjoy my own company.

I still don't know what to do about P, the acquaintanceship went backwards.

I don't really know why he's hanging on or I am? He has lots of friends it seems, quite sociable, so what does he need me for?

To fill in the gaps or is it obligation? Maybe he's waiting for me to cut him loose?

With friends or acquaintances, you're supposed to be able to tell the truth without them getting extreme and put out, he couldn't handle that.

All I said was it annoys me that you use me to flirt on the phone calls, you can never have a normal conversation.

And I thought he would take them onboard and call just to chitchat, but all the calls stopped completely.

I guess as soon as my phone charges. I'll end it I never get what I need from the randoms.

I deserve better.

There was a couple forum posts that bothered me on the volunteering site so I added my opinions.

I am using it more but still not doing any 1 to 1s. Too many trolls and weirdos that are doing my head in.

I need to make a beauty shopping list. I need lip balms, moisturiser, face wash.

I just ordered the face washes and lip balms so maybe at the end of the month when I get them I can do a beauty review.

I'm gonna need eye drops and protein tablets soon. I'm not sure if I've run out of saline yet..

Well I've finally did what I craved. I started an open story on 7 Cups and anyone can join in.

Only one acquaintance has so far. I probably should have picked something less limited..

We'll see how it goes.. Ok got some things for Mama's Day, she said she wanted a nightie, saw a cute pinky purply one.

I got some fudge for her too and bought myself a red top.

I don't know where to put this Gilmore Girls stuff, so I'll add it here.

Lane/Rory had a lot of potential and then settled for mediocre partners. It bothers me that they never discussed the possibility of an abortion.

She's so young and freshly married. I know when a couple finally gets together, it gets boring so they throw in conflict.

Ok a long lost daughter but why Luke kept her purposely away from Lorelai and Rory was weird, he alienated and tanked his own relationship, instead of them all bonding together..

I've never liked Lorelai so the fact she sabotaged things and slept with her ex, is textbook idiocy.

Like she needs attention or a man in her life, to say pay attention to me I'm an overgrown immature child.. Pfft..

You know what else is odd? Rory and Logan is it? Were living together and that surprisingly was mostly smooth.

He moves overseas, fine, they are separated, when he returns, why don't they resume cohabitating?

Also she makes it a point to call him entitled, but she has no issues using his connections when it benefits her, hypocrite.

And sleeping with an engaged guy and then ending up pregnant?

The whole wrap up was weird, we like each other, we're having an affair but we're not reconciling..

The story I started on 7 Cups was a bust, nobody joined in except an acquaintance and we got so silly, it just petered out.

I don't know if I'll finish it. I am so bad at finishing stories. Apart from the blog, I feel a bit empty at the moment..

#BlogLife1024 - Unscheduled maintenance

An acquaintance recommended some shows, one was Gilmore Girls, the rest I can't even recall..

I checked out the first few episodes, it's very slow and you'd think the focus would be on several main characters, not just 1 or 2..

Seems bizarre a teenager casually drinking alcohol and coffee, then having a pager but not a mobile phone..

And the other thing that annoys me, the parent acting like a kid, and the kid having to be the mature one ughhh, really winds me up.

But I love that Melissa McCarthy is in it, she is amazing. The central character annoys me, she's too flighty and seems like she has a condition like bipolar, very up and down and reckless.

I knew that she wouldn't commit, I thought it was pathetic, she was approaching her other love interest and her ex, expecting them to beg her not to do it and that backfired, they were happy for her.

She wanted to sabotage or have an excuse to call it off because she's running scared.

Then when the ex had matured, it's like yea, let's tell him I was waiting for him because all the others were just filler, ugh.

Then the daughter is just the same commitment phobic and cheating.. Ickity.

The only reason I'm watching it is because there's no other shows that interest me and I'm sick of watching old show reruns.

I tried the Lancashire Farms greek style yoghurt, I don't like it. It reminds me of Activia and I still remember that making me feel queasy because it was so thick and I was struggling to eat and keep anything down, the other one is thinner and much tastier.

That made me laugh because I didn't get my pieces prize from Looney Tunes aka Scopely, they said I could re-pick and go for legend toons if I wanted to compensate..

Pfft as if I'll get this prize, so I always go for what toons I haven't unlocked, sneaky way to avoid paying for them, I don't spend money on the game.

I chose 200x Luger Claude because he's a paid battle pass toon. Free players eventually get them but I'm impatient.

200x Executioner Toro, again battle pass toon and lastly 200x Thoro for the exact same reason.

Quick update, ugh I ate too much, I thought I was really hungry but nopity.

I decided to make a sandwich with the ginger soy chicken pieces, it only needs 7 minutes to reheat.

I put it in a croissant with mayo and cheese and now that it wasn't overcooked, it's very soft and tasty.

Not salty as I was expecting, delicate mix of seasoning, probably needs a bit more ginger but I would definitely get that again. Yum.

I just heard back from the landlord, looks like they will call for an appointment for tomorrow, not today, thank heavens.

It's the walls in the living room so hmm. I'm hoping it's a quick patch job.

Cripes, they will probably unplug the wifi, I'll have to figure out, which plug/wire goes where... (They don't tend to re-plug it).

At least I have tons of data to use, 5gb I think..

Ugh, they were supposed to call and mention a time frame for tomorrow as usual nothing..

So I'm supposed to what..... Just be at home waiting, they may or may now randomly show...pfft..