#BlogLife847 - Increased claustrophobia

I have this mild case of claustrophobia from a past experience. Enclosed spaces make me nervous, lifts especially.

But for a while now, I've noticed it in bed, I like to completely immerse myself in the duvet, it's my lil cocoon.

But I realise I keep throwing it off and gasping for air. I can't explain why as I don't get it myself, sometimes I'm fine and other times I need air!

Ugh the cramps keep coming and going. I'm not on but I feel a bit lousy.

I had a great chat with L today, she's so sweet, whenever I talk to her my blood pressure decreases ha.

I checked the post and no Surveyor appointment, although a text came through saying it will be upcoming.

I just unpacked the shopping, wait, ugh they didn't bring the hot cross buns, I give up with that item or maybe I unpacked it and forgot, will double check later, everything else is fine.

I got some Kinder hazelnut mini eggs, some revels choccies and some Chicago Town cheesy dough balls.

I didn't realise it would arrive like a pizza, I had to defrost it and break it into sections, to cook the whole thing is too much.

Oh and last night I finished watching The Have and The Have Nots.

I was disappointed with the ending, it seemed sloppy to kill off half the cast and call it concluded.

I wish it was more thought out and satisfying. Plus one major villain got away scot free, it would have been nicer to have some repercussions.

I have a foodie review for you. I just tried Gustoli macaroni cheese for a £1, 206g box, tiny pasta but a lot inside with a cheese powder packet.

It's my preferred version, more on the dry side, less fake cheesy or over sauced, I can't stand that.

Much nicer seasoning. I would definitely recommend it, I've eaten a quarter or half and I feel full.

The Marshalls maybe cheeseburger one I tried was so bland, really bad compared to this one.

All I will say is that, it probably could have done with a fraction more cheese, it doesn't feel like it's all coated even though I've stirred it.

Perhaps two cheese packets would have been better.

I just checked the post and I thought ooh the lost face wash arrived, even though I got the refund..

I would have been scammed so much if it wasn't for the paypal money back guarantee.

Anyway it wasn't the wash, I forgot I ordered lip balms as I think I only have one left.

No news from DWP or the landlord, the constant sources of immense stress.

I saw this kebab bread in Iceland and thought I would sample it, seems like a greek type bread.

Probably the closest thing to cure my roti cravings. I don't actually feel like making a wrap with a meat or chicken filling inside.

I'll just have it with cheese or hummus or both. I feel a bit sicky today. I slept goodish but still feel yucky.

The bread is so soft and tasty, highly recommended, in the end I dipped it in the hummus and it was perfect, I didn't need anything else.

Maybe some olives but I didn't buy any. I'm glad I bought it, ready-made so easier to prepare.

It's a shame they don't have a wholemeal version, much healthier.

I just realised something, as I have a new phone all the numbers I blocked are now unblocked lol.

I think that's how it works. I'm not bothered because they'll all assume they're still not able to contact me.

I should try and eat something, the cramping is getting more and more vicious though.

Oh over the weekend I watched Picture This Simone Ashley's new film, aka Kate from Bridgerton.

I liked aspects of it but the message you have to be thriving in your career and be married to be happy sucked.

Plus I didn't feel the chemistry between the love interests. I did actually think she was way older than 29yrs.

The best friend was lovely, funny and sweet though, I think he saved it.

I know in film-wise everyone is supposed to fit together but it didn't give me mushy vibes.

He felt controlling, as soon as he kept harping on about, we had plans, You should have made the effort.

She explained they weren't on speaking terms because he basically ghosted her, yet she was supposed to drop everything and meet him?

No-one in their right mind would do that so it felt like she was settling, the best of a bad bunch.

Although I prefer when it's a cutesy end, for this one, I would have rooted for her to turn the business around, say it was great catching up, but we're different people now.

I'm gonna be happy on my own and when the right guy comes around, I'll explore, if not, I'm going to be just fine alone.

Last thing, I all but hated her wardrobe, most of the time, it was like she rolled out of bed and was wearing a nighty.

Sorry last addition that irritated me, why was she kissing everyone, shouldn't that have some feeling behind it?

I also wanted to scream fix your hair! Whether we are late or on time, we all make the effort, even if it's pinning it up.

Tomorrow morning at 9am I have a UC phone meeting. I'm not sure when I'll be posting after that.

Depends if I nap, Oh actually it's supposed to be a video call, ugh, but he said will probably be phone.

Maybe he had to register it like that as you're only allowed a certain number of phone ones?

No idea, the thought makes me queasier. We'll see..