It's a strange morning with the sun shining but the wind blowing through me.
Dic called me first thing about 10amish maybe, I was already awake reluctantly as I didn't feel rested enough.
It's pretty funny that my phone rejected him before I did. I hit the answer button and spoke but for some reason it didn't take and it said missed call, instead of answered ha.
I did call the idiot back as it was the third missed call and I was apprehensive at what the hell he wanted..
As per usual, the fool just lets it ring and ring and doesn't pick up but hey, I fulfilled my obligation, I tried..
Then a lil while later he calls again, I get it and what has he been pestering me about nonstop???
Even though he had me there in person? A bloody survey! Yeesh, could have so easily emailed it to me.
What a dope, I couldn't respect him less than I already do!
The weather keeps changing, hot, cold, hot, cold and if there is another heatwave, it will be stifling.
I rely on my blankie so much. I do wish it was longer though, I have to keep tucking my feet in to get the warmth.
But it really soothes the pains so much. I haven't even used the heated massager as much because I don't feel I need as much.
In summer times though, I can't think of any alternative that will be a great pain relief substitution.
It feels so unnatural to fall asleep without a covering on top of me.
Maybe I'll put some icy bottles near me, although they do tend to melt quickly.
I also need to get a face wash, I'm sure the Biore one is almost finished, I thought I had some spare ones actually but nope, probably forget to get some.
I would like to try something new but I hope it doesn't have the scrubby beads, ick!!
The lump is the same and I can't tell if the dark acne scars are fading, my face looks really wonderful and clear, my nails keep growing but chipping.
I do feel less like a zombie and my body feels less delicate but I wonder if the three periods happened this month because of multivitamin intake......
The more I taste of the Nutrigums, the less I like it. It's quite bitter and strong. The hair one was much nicer.
It's the fact that you have to chew it and experience that tang which is off-putting.
Something else I wanted to add relating to yesterday's post is that I don't expect people to be perfect around me but certain things do bother me and I've noticed a lot and I shouldn't have to put up with someone being thoughtless.
For example if I share something personal and the response isn't a kind or caring word, that affects me.
Don't go overboard but just saying ummm... Thanks for being open, or that's tough, makes a world of difference, otherwise I feel I am talking to myself.
I divulged something and the response was......... Ok, well try anyway!
Ughhh!!! I'm not looking for a therapist or to fixed but some understanding sure.
How can I possibly spoil someone and be loving if I feel unheard???
It's like the walls just go back up and I feel underappreciated. Why give myself to a person who isn't showing me they deserve it?
Being alone is so much easier in many ways. Have a delicious weekend and I'll see you Monday.
(At least that's the plan)..
