#BlogLife798 - My body is old, my mind is ageless/Bitch strikes again!

Album of the day - Madonna - Immaculate Collection

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0-pXUCkcCgY

Normally as it's December I would post Christmassy songs but I'm still recovering and although my back is better, my legs are really achy and painful, so walking is a struggle.

However as I was about to wash off the mud mask, I just remembered how much I loved listening to this album on cd, over and over again at home and dancing and singing along to it.

I put it on and immediately my cares melted away and I sang my lil heart out, it felt good to dance and forget the pain for a bit, it's returned but for those few minutes, that was bliss :)

This is what I mean, by music inspiring me and distracting me from focusing on the negative aspects of my multiple ailments.

I'll give myself a manicure and pedicure tomorrow and I should do my brows also, I haven't really looked to see how untidy they are.

I was not upto stopping and getting a brow shape, felt too rough, to stop for even a second.

Ugh and I forgot to oil my hair. I think with music, I almost feel normal, like everyone else, not someone constantly struggling with their mood and physical capabilities.

It's Sunday afternoony and I just had some croissants for breakfast, I managed to sleep in this weekend, which felt good.

I'm still struggling to be on my feet and my hands are extremely delicate but I'm persevering.

I decided to use the last of the Parissa wax strips and if they weren't peeling off only a quarter or halfway, the wax had dried up,

Unusable so I think only a handful actually worked, totally crap and a waste of money.

Thankfully I now have a place to get my brows done professionally, although for some reason the lift floors confuse me.

I seem to get totally disorientated as they look the same. Maybe the slight claustrophobia is affecting my brain.

Anyway my brows were in good shape, only a few stragglers to pluck so that was simple.

I chopped my nails and tidied those up and I'm just charging my battery operated pumice pedicure tool to finish off my tootsies.

The only thing left is to finish the washing and do a deep hair oil conditioning treatment but I'll do that next week probably.

Oh and I thought of one last Christmas wishlist item, a new slightly bigger cross body bag, mine is a couple new years old I think and I wouldn't mind a replacement.

Oh I knew she was waiting until Christmas to get back to me. The person from the DWP finally called and this was from the beginning of October.

She had the whole of November to follow up with me but Noooo, she waits until Christmas, I called it.

I knew she was waiting to fuck it up and send me on another bloody rollercoaster.

It's been so long I can't recall the exact bloody words she used but suddenly what I sent in to her, isn't good enough!!!

LIke fuck it isn't. I complied!!! She's apparently satisfied with the Bank statements but not the Paypal.

FFS!!! I sent in as I'm sure she requested, transaction history. Now she says, that isn't what she wanted.....

Now she's given me 2 weeks to send in the correct thing, which is balance history?

Isn't it the same fucking thing???? So now I have to figure out how to do that garbage, walk halfway to town, spend another frigging what was it £60???

To print this crap out again, for what fucking reason??? Plus I'm still looking at courses to enroll in and most are saying they are unavailable.

I was just letting my guard down, just forgetting about all this and then, big reminder, chaos reigns supreme over me!

Ugh!!! Looking back at the wasted expensive download, I think she wants a running tally of each transaction, mine just has the deductions not the remaining balance.

But still, very poor excuse to get in touch with me because everything was still included, she saw what was incoming and what I spent money on.

I think this is spite because she didn't see huge lump sums of money, the way she accused me before and her acting skills have gotten better.

She was all softly spoken and "friendly" for a vulture!! Anyway I'm still Googlying how to do this and I have a week before I go to Mama's.

By Friday I want to have everything done, my last UC appointment, the course and this printout bs!!!

Then I can go to Mama's on the 24th and forget this garbage! I've almost lost my appetite again, and I can feel the stress engulfing me.

But I'm trying to be strong, step by step, I shall figure it out and complete it.

There is definitely no time for creative writing, sorry stories, no completions for you!