#BlogLife730 - New accessible moi

Song of the day - Ghost Town DJ's - My Boo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c4kx_Gqbg5Y&list=WL&index=62

My hair grew out again, so I just cut it short. I hated that it was heating up my neck during this horrid heatwave.

I feel more put together now. No contact from my Optician so still struggling with my eyesight, ugh.

I just washed my hair and keep forgetting to use the hair oil at Mama's but at least I look neater again.

I knew I was due to upgrade from EE at the end of the year but I wasn't sure exactly when so thought while I'm up early I would call up.

She was really helpful, the representative, at first I thought they had scrapped the customer service as it was texting, but then there was a link and maybe within 10 minutes they answered.

Anyway she said my broadband was out of contract and wanted me to switch over to EE as it's still officially with BT even though they claim to have merged.

Pfft but apparently my broadband isn't fast enough for them ha.

I don't care as long as it works, it's fine for me, except during stormy weather when it breaks up a lot.

She renewed it and gave me a discount which I typically get at this time.

It's not much but I'm happy to be saving a fiver, each month. As for the mobile, at the moment it's just under £19.

Hmm didn't realise it was that much but I guess it's alright. I just am not prepared to pay anything higher.

She said officially my upgrade is October but I could do it early with no cost.

But the lowest quote she gave was £44 and I thought, there is no way I am paying double the amount, nopity nope.

She recommended two phones, the Samsung A15 and the AO5s.

I have to say she was pretty thorough and patient with the questions I had.

I forgot to ask her what colours they came in, typically it's boring black.

Pity they didn't seem to have the OnePlus phones, like last time.

Anyway after deliberating she said the A15 was more suitable for me.

And I typically never have a phone in mine. I would rather not pay towards a new handset.

In the end she said, I should wait until the 24th September where I would have more options and flexibility and she could help me more.

So that's what is supposed to happen, a callback. I don't have much luck with those but I'll give her a chance.

I don't actually need a new phone but free is free and I will take full advantage, where possible.

I should sell the old phones but I can't be bothered.

#BlogLife476 - Why does Dic trigger me?

I decided last night while it was dark and I put away the mirror to trim my hair again, the ends just felt long and Spring is upon us, so why not do a haphazard job?

It always feels uneven, no matter what I do. (Ugh cramps are back). I feel quite sicky today but that's probably because it's nearly 4pm and I haven't eaten.

I opted for more sleep, than to get up and cook breakfast, of which I probably would not have had an appetite that early anyway.

Actually I think I did a good job with the hair, when it was wet, it looked all spikey, I've never really had that before and now it's dry, it looks like short layered floppy, volumed hairdo.

It's just a bit too short for curlers now but I can get away with it, just loose and hair tousled and it looked styled.

I just looked at my calendar and there has been 3 periods this month, mostly lasting half a day to 2 days.

Why can't the pmt be that short? Over the weekend, it wasn't even that cold but my body temperature dropped significantly and I had to wrap the blankie around me on maximum heat for half the day until I was warm again.

While I was waiting for Dic and trying to distract myself from the pain creeping up, sitting down is like, someone is pulling my thighs apart, it's a burning sensation.

Anyway I think I was waiting about 10-15mins and he apologised and I just nodded because it's always half hearted.

It struck me that when I was in all those Consultant/Specialist/GP chairs and I was explaining my symptoms, it was always met with these blank expressions.

I always felt I was a nuisance and because I grew up that way, being ridiculed and told that my opinion doesn't matter, it's doubly worse, when you take that onboard that, my health concerns are not important.

There is this back and forth row in my head, am I making this up? Should I not waste their time and suffer in silence?

Are other people more deserving of treatment?? And empathy?? Am I not entitled to compassion and understanding?

When I used to say to Dic, I'm not feeling well and he would just look at me blankly and say Oh but with no heart behind it, it transports me back to seeking treatment.

Now whenever he asks me, I just mutter I'm okay because there's no point expressing myself to someone that doesn't give a damn.

I'm not expecting him to fall to his knees and say Good grief, stop the presses, let me look after you.

But damn just say something like, that's not good or would it kill him to be nice?

Anyway I got side tracked again as Mama is back and she called, well I missed her call and returned it.

She came back yesterday and was resting up and she bought me back sugar cakes.

That's what we call them, it's coconut cakes with.. I'm not sure if it's sugar cane ingredients but it's quite sweet and delicious.

I'm not big on coconut overall but in certain things it blends really well.

I'm excited for that and I can finally give her the belated Mama's Day goodies, the perfumes etc, the last of which should be arriving this week.

Plus I'm dying to get the laptop charger and see if it works. I have to jiggle this one and hear it crackling which unnerves me.

Hopefully next week, eyebrow shape and pedicures, long awaited beauty treatments.

I just don't feel up to going and it has to be in the morning as more chance I will get a seat on the bus and there will be less congestion.

Apologies again for the lateness of posting this but once again I had a fourth period last night yeesh.

I was so uncomfortable that I couldn't sleep, maybe eventually I got a few measly hours and then woke up groggy, napped and waited for my thoughts to collect so I could write something.

I hope you are all well and I can't wait for these multivitamins to be over so I can go back to having maybe 1 period a month, yeesh!!!!

#BlogLife402 - Cutting hair in the dark

I was getting ready for bed last night and I braided my hair as I hate having it loose when I'm tossing and turning.

If I put a bobble on the end, it rarely lasts all night, plus it keeps rubbing against my scalp.

I'm trying to leave it free as it was shoulder length but as I felt it, I thought it seems like ages since I trimmed it.

The light was off and I wasn't planning to cut it so soon but I thought what the hell, just do it.

I don't think I've ever cut it in front of the mirror. I recommend you do that for evenness and so that you don't cut your ears off ha!

But I just wing it, which is why it's probably never level at the back but I'm not fussed to be honest.

Maybe because it hasn't been washed for a few days, it's actually looking stylish.

The ends are still flicking upwards naturally and before having short hair, they never did that.

I'm gonna call it the Betty Rubble peacock style :D

My hair was always dead straight, unless I plaited it. It might now look old fashioned but I really love it.

On this style, i could get away with it being out and free. I'm just not sure how it's going to appear, when it's washed.

Normally one side has the volume and the other is flat or it's a bit frizzy.

At the moment it's straight aside from the ends and it's polished as though it has hair spray in it.

Usually it looks weird straight as though it hangs flat and it's too short for my face.

It's making me laugh that I haven't used curlers and all I have to do to fluff up the ends is puff them upwards with my hands.

Oh if you're curious, I don't cut it at an angle, I just cut it as horizontally straight across as I can.

I have seen some Christmassy clips to buy but I'm not paying over a fiver just because they look pretty.

I don't know about you but my hair accessories don't last long until they fall apart, so it's generally a waste of money to spend too much.

I've just had a close up of my do in the mirror, I think the back looks alright but the front needs pinning.

Some of the strands are uncurled and the rest are but I'm pleased with it. It's about ear level now, which is the shortest I've ever had it.

It's not layered as such but in the front there are shorter strands here and there but it works and blends well.

Ooh I just came up with a concept, a Frizz Free Frostess Flipper wand to blow only concentrated cold air on your locks and tame the frizz or make it soft and wavy,

Ha I know I'm nuts but I've been using cold air on my hair for ages to avoid heat damage and fallout and it works well.

Aww I'm gutted, one of the tops I order was damaged so they've given me a refund and discount on my next order.

It was quite a Christmassy unique top, blue and black and what seemed like white glitter but it isn't, it's just very glamorous.

Especially for plus sized clothing. Normally it's flowers and other unimaginative variations.

An update on my skin from using the mask and cleanser. It's mostly smooth. There are a few small blemishes.

I have a few acne scars and other than that, it's clear but there are a few dry patches on my forehead and cheeks.