#BlogLife593 - Curiosity killed garfield 5 (Q&A)

Song of the day - Jason Derulo/Meghan Trainor - Hands On Me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IxY8QI2S7OI

Q1) How do you feel after writing something poignant? 

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Sometimes still teary but at the same time pleased that I let it out.

I'll usually do something relaxing after, game or watch something.

Q2) How do you switch from sad to funny to angry so swiftly?

It's natural to me. I'm used to it because I'm not typically open so I change moods to something humorous easily.

Plus when I've shared something personal in blogging form, I feel lighter.

Unless it's a recurring theme. I tend to be in a good mood afterwards. 

Q3) When writing fictional stories, what stops you from continuing? Confidence or ability?

Ouch, getting kinda catty, aren't we? I thought this was a nice interview.

I typically have a lot of ideas and have completed some stories on here and wattpad.

Ahem shameless plug. I just keep hearing that voice in my head.

You're no good and your writing isn't either. Sometimes I have the strength to ignore it, other times I don't.

Q4) When are you writing a new Spoof?

I have no plans, those just randomly come out of thin air and I write it quickly and it's done.

Q5) Can you talk about something other than writing?

Umm you're asking me the questions dodo.

Q6) Oh yea I forgot but I mean for example, share with us something juicy?

Juicy? Like what? I don't know what to say. Oh I get it, what is my favourite juice drink?

Well it's apple, no wait, blueberry, no umm it was the one I grew up with Five Alive citrus mix, although the Berry one wasn't bad either.

 Q7) For Pete's sake, you know what I mean't. I want to hear your secrets or something you've never told us before..?

Oh well, hmm, that's a bit personal isn't it? A tad intrusive? I don't have anything spicy, I'm a goodie goodie, remember?

But there is something possibly interesting and I don't know if I have divulged it.

It's not every woman in the family but a lot of the females have an unspoken tradition.

I think I asked my Mama about it and she shrugged. A lot of our female names rhyme and sound similar to each other.

I have no idea how it started, nobody has ever discussed it openly.

It's baffling why it's only for the women and girls but it's kinda cool at the same time.

My Mama and one of her sisters actually called their daughters the same name.

Neither talked about it and found out afterwards so I have a related namesake out there.

Who I think is the same age as me, we're not close but I feel like it bonds us all together in a way that is different.

It is raining and thundery at the moment. I'm surprised I didn't get soaked but I was lucky to miss it.

My breakfast/lunch is delayed but I don't mind that. My stomach is not settling down at all today. I decided to go all salmon.

A salmon burger, which I've never seen before. Please don't let it be smoked salmon yuckity.

Plus creamy salmon pasta for later or tomorrow. Unless it gets cancelled.

I also picked up some honey gingerbread which is unfamiliar. It was just £1.50 for a nice sized bag so I thought I would try it when I fancy some nibbles.

I'm on a classic binge at the moment. Dracula Dead and Loving it spoof.

Now it's Murder By Death spoof. I'm a bit late but it's taking my mind of the recent events.

I almost forgot to add the chickeny reviews. The mini chicken pizzas were tasty, extremely tiny but packed with flavour.

The chicken samosas I found to be bland. They had a lot of filling but needed more seasoning.

Iceland's spring rolls were the most disappointing the salt and pepper was again not bursting with flavour.

Last years sweet chilli or sweet and sour was amazing in comparison.

The Blue Dragon chicken version is better but it has a slightly weird aftertaste.

I'm not sure if I would recommend any of it. Food arrived 3 hours later. I am so bloated.

#BlogLife220 - Curiosity killed Garfield 4 (Q&A)

Why do you do follow up posts? Is it because it's popular or do you just have more to add?

Not many of my posts are popular so that isn't the reason. I always feel like I want to expand but I don't want posts to be overly long or short, just a nice balance.

Do you use Pinterest or Instagram or any other messengers. It's 2022. Don't you want to be trendy and conform to the norm?

Ha. No I never have wanted to be a sheep. Pinterest and Instagram are image (altered) based and that holds no interest whatsoever for me, still to this day.

As for messengers, too many things are repeated and having a fresh vibrant conversation is thrilling. 

If you are saying the same things, answering the same enquiries and just yawning at dull men sending half a dozen inappropriate or tedious pictures, it's not entertaining.

I think it's incredibly sad if you don't have a brain and can only send pics, pics, pics and not have any intellect to go with it. Zzzzz..

I know you said you don't read anymore, has that changed or what were you favourite books?

I still can't get into books like when I was younger. The magic has gone but there are still some books that stick in my mind.

No gentleman - Kate Walker.

This book threw me and had me hooked at the same time. I read it over and over.

It was her perspective vs his and the two were fascinating. The author Kate Walker took me on an incredible journey.

It wasn't predictable. I didn't know what was going to be said next.

I loved it until my mama decided my bedroom was her personal domain and decided to give some of my things away without bothering to ask permission or inform me....

Bet me - Jennifer Crusie

I knew where this one was headed but I loved the build up, certain aspects of repetitiveness and cliche annoyed me but I would still recommend it for the laughs.

Stephanie Plum series - Janet Evanovich

The first couple of books were great and then it just seemed recycled. I was hoping she would grow the hell up, evolve and pick a boytoy.

Why do you touch on so many themes? Why not stick to one? Shouldn't you be focusing on one to capitalise on that specific audience?

I'm not sure if I ever tried that approach but I know myself and if I just pinpointed and ran with a solo topic...

I would bore myself, let alone anyone else. My interest would just wane and instead of being raring to write, I would make excuses and put it off.

I'm in my early forties and have had so many vast experiences that I can feel at ease, sharing these with you.

I love writing fiction and truth. It all gets me excited. When I say I'm a writer/blogger...

Okay I'm not a professional and I don't have a huge following or an abundance of reads for my books but I put my whole heart into my words.

I think that allows me to call myself a writer. People may not always agree or find it compelling but at least they can say..

Hmm she is intelligent. She's not just saying, what she thinks we want to hear.

She's just relaying her own thoughts and hoping we can relate or understand her views.

#BlogLife191 - Curiosity killed garfield 3 (Q&A)

More deliciously random insights..

Q1. Why on earth do you call the series Crazy self therapy?

I hope it's not insulting to anyone currently seeing a professional psychiatrist but for me I think the weirdest approach was to analyse myself and figure things out.

I feel too personally mentally fragile to let someone into my head. It's chock full of too many things to let a stranger mess with it.

This is just what works for me. I'm just able to be honest and tap into something and while doing something routine and not overthinking, it somehow unravels and a solution pops up.

So yea, that it why I opted for the name, probably spent like 2 seconds and thought yep.

Q2. Do you think you'll repair the relationships with your family?

I don't think so, not to a full degree. None of them are self-aware at all, at how bad their behaviour is or has been so there is no basis to even start the healing.

I have spoken to my mama yesterday. She gave me a few missed calls which I ignored and then I felt guilty so I called her back.

She already seemed bored so had a quick blah chat and then disconnected.

Q3. Do you miss socialising?

Frankly yes and no. More no than yes. I'm just very tired of it all. Being outdoors just freaks me out and it got better and now has become worse.

Then I have to deal with people not making the effort with me specifically, they can do it with others but not me and I feel bad and I'm sick of that because I'm a darling!

Also my expenses have risen so I am trying really hard to curb my spending, which I have been doing quite well at. 

Lastly I'm sick of being judged for being ill. No I'm not the same as you. 

I don't have boundless energy. I get exhausted so quickly and the pain pops out of nowhere and scares me because I wonder if this will be the time, it doesn't stop hurting.

Q4. Do you miss travelling?

Good question. When I was younger, I took a lot of family trips, Iceland, Canada, Florida and my parents place of birth.

I don't think I was ever scared of flying. It was somewhat exciting being somewhere different, the journey was tiresome as I could never sleep.

I had periods of fun, meeting my family from around the world. Some were nicer than others and my uncles were non judgemental and particularly sweet to me, as a shy girl so I was able to relax, not so much the Aunties, who always had an opinion on me and my life and looks/weight.

Also my grandmother who thought she had the right to enforce religion on me and from the stories I heard about her......Was no saint herself.

Maybe she was someone else trying to redeem herself. Who knows?!

The places and culture was interesting though. I felt more grown up and worldly.

I can't say I miss it though. I feel like I had all these experiences when I was younger and that sustained me.

I can't actually travel now because of health restrictions but I'm good with that, at least I got to see a part of the world, some people don't get that chance.

Q5. Tell us some fun boo boos you've made?

When I was trying out the new headphones I got for Christmas just to see if they were working. I kept trying to pair them to the phone or laptop.

Strangely enough, it just wouldn't connect. I figured it was completely dead so I charged it up a bit and continue making attempts and still nothing.

Then I realised I hadn't been doing the long press, setting it in pair mode ha!!

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Somebody I won't mention who, brought me a bowl of soup and my brain was foggy so what uttered out of my mouth was....

"Are you spicy?" He just gave me such a startled look and then cracked up laughing. I was mortified but giggling also.

I kept trying to get out the words. "No, no, no I mean't, I really mean't is the soup spicy, not youuuu!"

He was just smirking at me, saying mmmmhmm, sure sure. He never let me live that down.

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More??? 

Probably the most embarrassing one. I was waiting to see someone and this guy came over and said..

"Hmm, you look good." I shrugged. "Maybe but I could sure do with a massage and he goes "Really? Alright, well I'll pass that onto the therapist, that's not me!"

What made that worse, was that he was a fox!! My face is still burning red remembering these :D

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Final one for the road. I feel like I was having a sassy moment. My cousin was over to hangout. (This one I actually liked, he was always sweet).

I'm not sure how it came about. I was pre-teen. I think and somehow the word tequila, came up.

I in my wonderful naivete, pronounced it.. Te-quill-a. He was astounded and horrified. 

"No, no no. That isn't how it is spoken. It is te-key-la." He's older and knows a lot more so I figured he was right, however I kept insisting he was mistaken this time.

No idea why I chose this silly battle but we had this back and forth and my head was like...... You know he is accurate, give in, silly goose.

Five minutes later I just said. "I don't know what I was thinking, oops you're right ."

He looks so surprised and confused hahaha :D 

I just did a complete turnaround on him, after adamantly insisting I was right.

#Bloglife161 - Curiosity killed Garfield 2 (Q and A)

I'm not entirely sure what you want to know about me. I'll be random as per usual.

Do you have any kids? If no, do you want any?

Nope and no. I was born without the selfless gene. The struggle and lack of support is not worth it.

Were you ever popular? 

In secondary school school I was discovering who I was and had quite a few friends.. 

However on closer inspection, they were judgemental acquaintances.. 

Have you ever felt optimistic and hopeful?

There have been those times but I prefer to be grounded and not have my head in the clouds assuming everything will go smoothly without any hiccups.

Look, regarding your love life.. To be blunt, what went wrong? 

I do hope that accusation isn't directed at moi? 

From a very young age, I had this inkling I would end up alone.

Call it bad luck, bad dates, bad everything really..

The worse dating became, the more I blamed myself.

I'm not cute enough.. 

I'm not intelligent enough..

I'm not skinny..

I'm not open.. 

I'm not perfect.. 

It was just so depressing seeing people around swing from relationship to relationship and I hadn't any at all. 

I even settled hoping these cheaters/abusers/liars would suddenly be nice. 

Nothing helped or worked and I suppose, by the time I reached my mid twenties..

I think I was drained and bruised and sick of feeling inadequate and lonely. 

I decided to make peace with being an old maid, a spinster, a singlet and my favourite..

Married to myself and far happier than trying to find love, respect and a closeness that eludes me.

That's a definite, my arms are folded flirting is wasted, I'm disinterested in anything but a chat.. 

What games are you playing? 

Solitaire Cruise, Looney Tunes World of Mayhem, English Crossword Puzzle and Criminal Stories which is a recent addition.

It's a detective point and click game. It doesn't really have hidden objects, just areas to explore and with the hint system you never get stuck.

The downside is waiting for refills to progress and also you need to watch adverts to get another booster which is needed for the story to be more widely completed. Not ideal.. but interesting.

I finished Alice Reformatory For Witches. Fun but needed the walkthrough for bits of it. 

Another cute former game was Cluedo with multiple endings similar to the board game. 

I can't remember the other point and click game, investigating as a cop with a flirty clumsy seemingly over confident cop and she was oblivious to his attraction ha. 

The dialogue was great. 

You promised us a vocal rendition of your stories, which I'm hoping will improve someday.. 

Miowww no need to be catty. I'll think about it. I don't want to make promises yet. 

As for the stories. I'm trying to develop my writing skills. Have patience with me please :D

Who is the latest random? 

Noone, I'm just focused on non flirty things at the moment. 

What causes your insomnia? 

Stress or pain/discomfort or bad dreams or early appointments. 

Why don't you post on the weekends anymore? 

I felt as though all I was doing was constantly writing. It was far too much. 

I need to have some mind numbing leisure time to switch off. 

If a random came into your life that was everything you wanted but gave you a stipulation that he never wants to be featured In your blog, what would you say? 

Probably go screw yourself and go back to timbuktu, where you belong. 

I get so much clarity and healing from writing things out. I need to be able to do that. If there was a way to compromise, I would consider it but if it was an ultimatum, forget it!

Who are you subscribed to on Youtube? 

I chop and change quite frequently as some stop uploading, but presently.. Toni Bomboni who does asmr, Oglplays who does game hints and play.

Whispered Distraction who does asmr and makes you think about life in general. Also Asmr soldier, plus Ycey Narrates which makes me chuckle.

Why do you think your friendships never last?

It's really hard for me to share what's inside but eventually I do but I don't get the same in return which annoys me. It's like they push me to reveal things but it's fine for them to remain impersonal.

It's just unequal and the effort seems wasted. I just see it as pointless. I have acquaintances that I can talk to superficially and for the rest, the blog takes care of it.

Finally tell us some of your favourite songs and movies?

This is it? It's finally over? Phewww. I was perspiring like crazy. I am so relieved it closes with easy questions, you really do like sneaking in, multiples, don't you?? Tut tsk.

I don't have favourites as such but there are quite a few I could listen to or watch over and over and not get bored with.

Sam Smith - Dancing with a stranger

Maxwell - Get to know ya

Blackstreet & Foxy Brown - Gotta get you home

Robert Palmer - I didn't mean to turn you on

Mickey Avalon - Jane Fonda (weirdest lyrics)

Jennifer Lopez - Ain't your mama

Madonna - What it feels like for a girl

UB40 - Reasons

Films...

The Cinderella Pact/Lying To Be Perfect

The Mirror Has Two Faces

Holiday in Handcuffs

Flight Before Christmas

Christmas Caper

Bridget Jones Diary

The Protector

Dilwale

Dilwale Dulhania Le Jayenge

#BlogLife16 - Curiosity killed garfield

Let's play a game. A getting to know me adventure. Why should you get all the fun questions? I want to answer some toooo..

Q1) What questions come to mind when you discover a new blogger? 

I wonder where they are from, how old they are and their gender, it isn't always obvious.

Q2) How do you come up with blog titles?

I don't know really, mostly something obscure pops into my head and I think, that will do.

Q3) Do you write out a bunch of posts and save them to publish daily, weekly or at a set time?

Are you joking? Does that really sound like me? I'm really not that efficient. 

I never know what I'll talk about until it just creates a brainwave and I think ahaaaa :D

Q4) Would you ever consider collaborating with other bloggers?

I would if I knew the subject extensively and I knew what was expected and there wasn't a looming deadline or tons of pressure.

Q5) I gave you easy ones to start off with, now comes the nitty gritty, the thing we all want to know...... 

What are the most popular BlogLife chapters in the series??

https://sleeplessscribbler.blogspot.com/2021/03/bloglife13-experimentation.html

https://sleeplessscribbler.blogspot.com/2021/03/bloglife3-no-time-for-that.html

https://sleeplessscribbler.blogspot.com/2021/03/bloglife1-bloggers-mindset.html

Q6) Obviously now I have to know what the least popular chapters were?

https://sleeplessscribbler.blogspot.com/2021/03/bloglife12-am-i-ready-to-quit.html

https://sleeplessscribbler.blogspot.com/2021/03/bloglife6-love-for-other-blogs.html

https://sleeplessscribbler.blogspot.com/2021/03/bloglife5-surroundings.html

Q7) Do your family and friends even know you have a blog?

The family do not, some friends know but they haven't really said anything about it. 

I don't know if they have even read it. I can't say it matters to me, as it really doesn't.

Q8) Do you genuinely like blogging or did you feel it was all you could do?

I really do love it. It is a challenge and a headache at times and it can be isolating. 

I've totally lost my train of thought, Don't you hate it when that happens?

Oh yea I was going to say that, with each post I write, self doubt creeps up. 

Will people like it? Will they laugh? Would they recommend me?

Q9) Have you given up on ever being popular and approachable?

Dang you weren't kidding, when you said these questions were going to get trickier. 

Can I pass? Alright....I'll answer. No I don't think I have.

Something inside me changed when I published my book Faithless Pursuit. 

It just renewed a belief in myself that I could be creative and follow through and that I just needed to keep working at it.

Q10 What are the hardest, easiest and most satisfying posts to write?

The BlogLife series takes no time at all. Once I get the gist of what I want to talk about it basically just flows really quickly.

The hardest are probably the emotional posts because they are really upsetting and sometimes realisations come to mind that are quite brutal.

The most satisfying are the Blogscapsim, pampering posts. 

Those are exhausting because I pack a lot of details in to make it extra soothing but when it's done..

I think it turns out really well so it was worth the effort.

Q11) Do you comment on other people's blogs so that they'll comment on yours?

Honestly? Nope. I have read a fair number of things bloggers have written and some I liked and some I didn't. 

For the ones that I did, now I feel braver adding a comment or question.

I never used to before. I always wanted too but I felt really self conscious thinking..

Oh my goodness, they are going to read what I left and think, this is sooooo uninteresting.

Yawn!! Next......I prefer someone who is articulate and witty and highly intellectual. Amateurs on my blog? Purleaseeee.

Makes me chuckle to think about it, due to the fact that, unless you are a spammer, bloggers eat up comments for breakfast. Love, love, love them.

Ugh I've just previewed and this seems long. One more question.

Q12) Will you ever have pictures? Reveal your identity or share any more information on your health issues?

Pictures? No, it isn't me. Sorry no. I like my privacy too much. I'll definitely be staying anonymous. 

Regarding expanding on the long term ailments? I don't know, frankly. It is so difficult to talk about. 

I don't think it's a post I would ever want to reread and I do that sometimes to check for spelling mistakes or make mini changes.

This was just a bonus BlogLife because you waited all day for it and I was trying to get the blog perfect and I held off from publishing it until I thought I could fix everything.

I hope you had fun with this one and maybe learned something you didn't know about me. I am ready to sleep.

Goodnight everyone and I hope that the tougher your day is, the more you find a way to get joy out of it.

Zzzzz