#BlogLife827 - Are you gifted?

Song of the day - Paula Abdul - Rush Rush

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eqSdQ5gJC7A&list=WL&index=83

I'm just re-cooking some turkey bacon to munch on as there isn't much left to eat, hence the shop tomorrow..

And some random thoughts popped into my head. Forgive me, I may have discussed this before..

But I recall being a teenager at a Church meeting at somebody's home and two things happened, one my blouse button became undone and my friend was signalling me about it.

Embarrassing I know and secondly for some reason, we were interviewing each other, maybe it was designed as a bonding or confidence exercise, that backfired spectacularly.

It's all foggy, anyway, I think the last question, was something like..

Name your abilities, something you excel at. The question made me sweat.

I couldn't really play an instrument, I was a bad singer, I wasn't academic. I couldn't think of a single thing.

I think I raised my hand and said, what if you're not good at anything?

And the tutor guffawed and probably said something, Now now, we all have special talents, think harder.

But at that time, I wasn't even a people person, although, one thing I was good at, was listening and giving advice.

But that was it, I don't think writing was on the cards at that moment in time.

I was going to leave it blank and sink lower into the couch than I previously was.

I mean everyone around me answered that question easily, they seem to have more than one star quality, and here I was ordinary and plain.

So after thinking hard, the tutor said Oh I have it, successful dieter.

And I looked at him thinking, I wish you hadn't of said anything at all, it felt like I was thrown a bone and it was the most demeaning thing ever.

That's not a talent, that's just trying to better myself! If you haven't figured out what you're good at, it takes time.

Don't pressure yourself to have all the answers straight away.

I wish I had just said I'm still figuring it out and this question is ridiculous.

There's too much stress to know everything when you're young and confused and figuring yourself out.

I don't know if what I have is a gift but it does bring me joy in a way, nothing and no-one else has.

The trousers are delayed so due tomorrow instead which is a pain as I won't be here.

I have a UC meeting 11.45am, maybe they will drop it off or come when I'm back home, hopefully.

This post came about because when I was singing choir at school, it was not from ability, I don't think there was a choice.

You had to learn an instrument or sing or maybe singing was compulsory..

Anyway a few songs from that time, I never forgot about. One was Summertime, probably because of the lyrics, fish are jumping?

It just made me laugh and stuck around, although I frequently don't remember the name of it.

The other was Beverly Craven's Promise Me. I don't know if we picked our own song's or they were chosen for us.

But I know that we adapted the lyrics, instead of I light up another cigarette, ha, it was something else.

I desperately wanted to find my niche, something so great, no-one could make me feel bad about it.

But no it wasn't music, I loved singing alone but I was still hiding my voice, I didn't sing loudly, just quietly and probably never tested my range.

But the lil I did sing wasn't great, parts of it were fun though. There was a lot of messing about in that music class.

I probably could have been free to be myself but I was cautious. Don't make a fool of yourself was that voice in my head, holding me back.

I did take up piano lessons but dropped them soon after, too technical and not enough fun.

The only time I recall singing in tune, was when noone was home and I think the neighbours were out too and I belted out some song at the top of my lungs and it sounded half decent.

Ooh okay the tracking for the trousers, changed for the billionth time, it's now due today, which is good.

There was a buzz and I thought Oh it's here already? But nope, Iceland forgot my cashews so the guy just re-delivered them 2 hours later ha.

I didn't even report it yet as I saw they were absent but I wasn't sure if I removed them from my basket or not, pretty good service really.