#BlogLife889 - No chance of productivity today

I got back not too long ago from a drizzly day out with Mama, we went for pedicures and they were kinda busy so did a separate rush job for us both, but it was still good.

Except that I just felt this crippling nausea making me weak today. All I really wanted to do was lie back down and rest but I forced myself to get ready and it was worth it.

I remembered to hand over the earrings I got free and I gave her some nutty truffles as I have loads left.

Then she bought jalebis (syrupy sweet indian dessert) and veggy pakoras that were supposed to be fresh as they claimed to have run out but these were overcooked slightly, a bit stale as though cooked in the morning, hmm, strange, still good though.

I can't seem to stomach anything at the moment.

Afterwards when we went for lunch I wasn't hungry and I knew I would pack the majority to go so I did something different and ordered chunky chips and an egg burger.

I munched a bit and the Appletiser really helped with the sickness but I couldn't face anymore, they must think I'm so odd, to keep ordering plates of food and not be able to finish even half, sometimes not even a quarter..

But that's how it is with me, outdoors a really small appetite, indoors, normal.

And I can't force myself to munch more, very bad for my digestion.

It's nearly 3pmish which is now my new eating time for some reason but I'm going to wait an hour or so until I feel the hunger pangs.

Ideally I would like to tidy up more but I'm far too shattered to move.

I spent the last of my energy getting the ice bottle out of the freezer and putting the food away, there's no way I can do anything else. 

It's weird that I really enjoyed the chair massage, my body relaxed and I closed my eyes for some of it, to just try and forget the sickiness, so my muscles untensed.

I also did some deep breathing and that was beneficial as I just felt so awful and shaky, I had to hold on to the chair and walls to steady myself.

But as soon as I got home, I felt sore, tired and just painfully raw.

Hours later it's a bit improved but I'm not going to exert myself, that's for tomorrow.

#BlogLife837 - Phone moi

I think I gave up too easily with the phone renewal thingy. I'm just going to keep calling until I find a deal I can live with because every time I call they seem to reduce it, so why not.

I think it's about £19 I'm paying for the month so that or less is maybe doable.

There is no way I am paying more especially with the price hike of £4 maybe?

I can only chance it and call but I'm not really in the mood to haggle at present.

Today was me and Mama's pedicure, that was glorious, massage chair whirring, scrub and cream massages.

No real foot massage but I can live with that, they seemed to be short staffed so bit of a rush job, with one woman catering to us both.

Today the pains were pretty bad, it was just creeping everywhere, so even sitting was horrible.

And changing was excruciating, it felt like I was tearing my arms off.

But I wore the new blue top, it fits so roomily, I might go a size down if I get the reds.

It's not baggy just loose and drew a few compliments from Mama and the salon lady.

Ugh I went into the kitchen to put the leftovers away and forgot to get some cold water.

Haha visually there was no hot totty about, they always seem to come around, when I'm looking my scruffiest not when I'm polished.

Today I experimented with a bluey purply eyeshadow over a reddy pink shade, not too bad.

And me and Mama treated each other, she bought me jalebis and ladoos, indian super sweet desserts as unfortunately the pakoras were sold out.

And they keep acting as though they don't want to sell it to us. Twits!

And I bought us lunch, well breakfasty, she had a full english, minus pork, chips, beans, eggs, mushrooms and I munched some of her fries.

I had about one or two bites of my chicken wrap and felt full and kinda sickly so I just drank the appletiser and packed the rest away.

I should have asked them to put mayo, it seems kinda dry but the wrap itself is like bread and roti had a baby, tasty.

Mama laughed at that, she's preparing for her upcoming trip. I'm keeping my reservations to myself.

I guess the one thing I don't like about this cafe is that the food quality is inconsistent, where other places are good all the time.

I recall last time the wrap was really flavourful and wasn't dry but the bread itself was just average.

Now this time it is the opposite, why can't it be the same all the time?

I mean't to epilate both my legs but the epilator died and when it charged up, I forgot to do the other leg ha.

It's just light fuzz and not much of it now. It's lovely and sunny today, compared to yesterday's rain but I still feel horrible.

The cramps will not let up, I experienced them when I was trying to sleep this morning.

I should eat but my appetite is non existent, it might help to settle my tummy though as it's 3pm and I haven't consumed anything all day.

Normally I would do an Iceland shop for tomorrow but I'm going to leave it for the weekend as the freezer and fridge isn't quite empty yet.

As predicted still nothing from H and I'll leave it until Sunday night as that will have been 5ish days and that's plenty to reach out, if he so chooses.

There's not a chance in hell but I feel better giving that extra time.

I'm taking a break from the cleaning. I'm not up to it at all. What I want to do is find someone else to occupy my mind.

But I value quality over quantity. It's easy to get chitchat but it's way more difficult to find someone truly engaging that has a brain above the waist.

And that's what I'm looking for, although to be honest. I don't even want that, I think I want to wallow, just be sickly and have comfort food or watch my cheesy shows and forget about life and stress and drama and being ignored.

I hope your weekend is a lot cheerier than mine. Monday might be late as I have a meeting.

I'll see how I feel. When I return home, I'm going to be shattered and want to eat and relax and get away from the pains.

#BlgLife810 - Too hoarse for you? Stop hoarsing around!

Ahh I can breathe again. I just had the UC meeting and was staring at my phone just prior, thinking please ring, don't send an email link to a video chat.

My advisor called and said Erm for some strange reason you were scheduled for a video call but I'm sure you weren't aware so I called instead.

I thanked him in gratitude but my voice is cracking and going so I wanted to laugh when he kept saying, Speak up, I can't hear you.

I was coughing and apologising but I couldn't speak up, I can barely talk because my throat is just dry and this bug whatever it is, won't leave my system.

It's been two weeks, shish! Anyway he actually was understanding and jotted notes about how I tried for the courses but were rejected.

Plus he said that I could have another phone appointment in a fortnight, if I'm still unwell, just to let him know.

I felt a lil guilty as it's been 3ish weeks since my last attendance so I said, I'll meet you in person if you want me too. 

I'm not sure if I'll be cured by then but thank heavens he said call, not video.

Phew!!! That was too stressful for words. Now that's done, I did a smallish/mediumish Iceland shop as I needed a few things and it's booked for tomorrow morning.

I'm not even sure I'll eat again today but I prefer to have the option of food available, than none at all.

I'm not even craving snacks or sugary desserts which is highly unusual.

But even if I just have a small snack or meal each day, it's better than nothing. I will try to keep my strength up.

I can't believe he said two weeks and not one, that's another miracle.

On JA it was every fortnight but ever since I've been on UC it's every bloody week, barring Christmas.

I have a lil bit of cleaning to do but I'm going to save that exertion for when I'm better, everything is still so tiring.

I literally struggled to take my dressing gown off that I put on just for the video call as I wanted to cover up completely.

And I forgot to menton Iceland is now stocking the turkey bacon, woop.

I finally have the energy to finish off this post. I've just felt drained today.

I unpacked the shopping and took out the bins and just felt like sleeping but I couldn't so I was lounging instead.

I watched some foodie videos on Youtubey last night and today and I have a slightly bigger appetite today.

This morning/afternoony I had a small chicken pie slice and some mini chicken balls, with some water.

Now I might try for a small meal, a lil pasta or rice and I'm running low on supplies and saw a lil £1 coupon so I did some shopping.

It worked out to about £4ish each, Neutrogena moisturiser, Eveline gel wash, which is new to me.

Lastly Avon pink clay mask. I was looking for scented products, I'm not sure they are, but they seem it.

Apart from my nose area, my face isn't too bad but I like to maintain the regular weekend pampering.

Plus it keeps me looking youthful and it's relaxing. I'll let you know more probably next week when they arrive.

#BlgLife741 - A lil more me, with a touch of beauty

Last evening, I finally got to use the new fan but it wasn't hot hot, just humid and stuffy as per usual.

The lowest setting seemed to be too strong. I haven't tried the power saving mode but it appears to be better suited in the heatwavey inclimate scorching weather.

At the moment it is mild and I feel chilly so I grabbed the blankie. 

I don't even know if I'll get a refund from Amazon, the customer service is automated and there isn't space to follow up with additional input.

Pretty crappy for a large company not to have a phone line where you can speak to a human and get assistance, grr.

I'm not sure how long the Joy lip balms are going to last, I use them liberally a few times a day.

I looked and saw that there is shea butter and almond oil one, 3x pack for £3 and a tiny bit bigger at 12g instead of 10g ha.

I just went ahead and got it. I wonder if it will be scented, the raspberry one is really nice.

Oh I got it about a month ago and I still have another one to use as it was a 2 pack.

It seems to work better than others I have tried, it doesn't prevent chapping but keeps the mouth softer for longer time frames.

Eeek the wax strips and powder puffs have already been posted.

They predict it will arrive by next week, maybe Tuesday and then I will become an amateur beauty therapist.

I wonder if I'll recall that I need to pull the skin tightly before ripping the sucker off?

It's funny because I used this treatment in one of the fiction pampering posts and I had to Googly the instructions.

https://sleeplessscribbler.blogspot.com/2020/11/beauty-and-mind-cleanse-fiction.html

And I was literally cringing and laughing as I was writing it because I knew that was how I would be in real life.

Now four years later, I will be doing it to myself, eeek. The tables have turned.

One thing I have to get back to doing is the hair oil procedures, that was lovely and I somehow just keep forgetting to do it.

#BlogLife632 - Ghost? He said/She said..

Song of the day - Faouzia - My Heart's Grave

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ScU5mOlAyvY&list=WL&index=40

It's been an interesting weekend. Perceptions were a lil off. There were two new randoms and both had great voices which is unusual to find one I like.

A few days later I bumped into them again, one completely ignored me which was a lil strange but then I recalled some of the conversation towards the end and he was going Yep, yep, yep as though he wasn't listening.

Which bugged me a lil but mostly I let it wash over me as it was late. After that things seemed fine, we chatted about anything and everything.

Had a laugh and then said goodnight and I told him I wouldn't use his number again because he didn't say I could.

He seemed surprised by that but didn't argue, he could have said, well call me tomorrow or next week but instead he said alright.

I assumed it was a one off chat and then I saw him in the room and he didn't greet me so I shrugged and left.

The next one was really funny because he's such a womaniser, he didn't even recognise my nickname.

He gave the exact same speech introduction and I ripped him apart for it, ha I was cruel.

But I'm used to being remembered, anyway I jogged his memory, he hadn't replied to my text and so I was going to give it a few more days and then block him.

But he said I didn't reply to him and then his messages to me couldn't be delivered.

Now here is what happened because both of them have been blocked now.

I turned off RCS Chats because I thought, hang on, what if there is a charge? 

Then I googled it and felt reassured and switched it back on but now I realise, in the time it was off..

He had probably been replying to me but it failed and I don't think they attempted redelivery because he then said, they could no longer be sent to me.

It didn't matter that I had re-activated it, people will just wrongfully assumed, they've been ghosted.

I've now completely switched it off because it's buggy. Why would it not just keep trying to deliver the message?

Anyway that matter was cleared up and we stayed to talk further but I realised that, I actually didn't want to talk to him again.

He's just too obsessed with flirting and trying to get me to engage and I just kept saying no or deflecting, it gets really dull after a while.

It kinda made me face up to something else, that a part of me is switched off for a reason.

It's to do with my past and what happened and there is that same mental block of I'll say some things, I'll do some things..

But I won't say that and I won't do that.

Trying to be manipulated into doing something that makes me uncomfortable is just unappealing.

There are reasons behind everything and if someone doesn't get it, then I will move on to someone that does.

I just got back, well a lil while ago really. I am exhausted, bloated, hungry and full all at the same time.

I just kept feeling crampy and sicky and I wanted to double over from the cramps or cancel but I couldn't really.

I was running late, I had to keep playing the anti nausea so I could function and the buses were delayed so that made it worse.

But I made it and picked up some pakoras for me and Mama and some sweets for me.

He kept wanting to add more and I was like Noo, stop because I knew I couldn't eat that much of it, though it is delicious.

The cucumber raita is far too spicy, I burned my tongue, it wasn't bad for £15, I thought it would be more.

The pedicure was £25 and I had the triple leg massage, soap, scrub and cream. It's supposed to be foot as well but she didn't do that bit ha.

We didn't do the lunch thing because I was running late and I'm kinda glad because I just wanted to get home and rest.

Oh I bought this orange ramune drink from the sushi place, it's a weird contraption to open it.

I searched youtube and you need a flat surface to pop it open. I picked orange and it's fizzy but a weak taste of fanta.

I quite enjoyed that it seemed to have less sugar. Oh I asked when the brow lady is returning and the reply was maybe in a few months, ugh :(

#BlogLife572 - Treated like a Queenie

How's things? I'm writing tomorrow's post, tonight because I know I'll be exhausted.

I'm meeting Mama tomorrow for breakfast/lunch and we both mentioned we were craving veggie pakoras and some ladoos so she'll pick them up.

And I'm going to finally do the eyebrow shape and pedicure that I put off.

Then I'll get my booties from her and she said the phone stand I bought might be busted so will sort that out.

I did some pre-beauty tidy up and plucked a lil and removed the hard skin from my feet.

I wanted to look less scruffy I guess. Oh If I remember I'll epilate also. There's one lil patch of fuzz ha, on my legs.

My thighs are completely smooth. That's epilating for you. I'm back home, well been back for a while.

A nap wouldn't take and I was munching pakoras and my lunch. I ordered a chicken salad panini but I couldn't face it.

I pathetically nibbled some of the salad and took the rest to go. I feel a lil blah today. 

I guzzled down an orange fanta for the energy and that was it. I feel so drained and hormonal.

The pedicure was mostly great, the massage chair was relaxing me and I got three foot/leg massages.

I think soap, scrub and the final one was a cream but she pressed or squeezed so hard I actually screamed.

It's like no matter how many times I see them and repeatedly explain, can you be gentle please, they don't listen.

My face was cringing and contorted in pain, not so soothing but most of it was fine really.

Oops I got the prices wrong, I had it in my head that the pedicure was £20 and the brow shape was £5.

Nope, the pedicure is £25. I almost didn't have enough but I try to withdraw extra from the cashpoint just in case.

Oh yea, I was a bit miffed that, it was practically empty and after the pedicure, they said go in the room and we'll be there soon.

So I waited a bit, only to be told, sorry, we're too busy for it. Arghhh.

Aggravating because now I have to go there again, which is a tiring trek for me.

How are you too busy? There aren't any customers and there is 2 of you doing absolutely nothing but gossiping.

Ugh! Anyway that ticked me off. It seemed like they couldn't be bothered to do their jobs, as it would have taken 5 minutes, 10 at the most!!

Ooh I bought the red kaftan that I liked from Amazon which was a lil steep at £22 but the postage was free and the quality seems to last longer than other places.

But usually I get a size bigger so it's baggy, they didn't that size so I had to get my normal one, which I hope isn't tight.

The rest were colours I already had and some didn't have a size, which was disappointing.

I really would have got this bright blue one, that looked so pretty. It was nice to sit down with Mama and chill for a while.

I really fancy another fizzy to perk me up but I'm not going to bother.

Oh yea the booties. Firstly, I do like the colour, it's a bit plummy. It doesn't look old fashioned which I'm relieved about.

It looks small for a size 9, I'm more of an 8, but I get a bigger size to wear thick men's sockies inside.

I like the zip so I don't have to tie any laces, although the other one I can just slip my feet in them, without untying the laces.

I guess I'll see if I can wear thick socks with it. The summer sockies I bought, which Mama loves are a bit too thin for walking.

My feet felt a lil bruised today and I tried them on and they feel snuggly and warm and easy to wear.

I'm happy with them, shame it was such a headache to purchase them.

#BlogLife540 - Fix your face

It's just before 4pm and my Amazon goodies arrived today, which prompts me to cancel Prime now.

Ugh they complicated the process, I had to click renew in order to end it now, sneaky sneaky but I did it.

It's almost as though I have eczema on my face, that's how disgustingly dry, flaky and itchy it is.

Straight away I unboxed and checked the contents expecting 2 of the masks but I was mistaken oops.

I got the £2.62 Creightons scrub 150ml purely for the soles of my feet. I can't remember if that brand was where I had the reaction from but it's only my feet so I doubt I will have an  adverse outcome to it.

I never use scrubs anymore as that's too harsh for my combination, blemish prone face. It seems nice and thick and I think it smells vaguely fruity.

Next we have the 50ml standard size Neutrogena refreshingly clear moisturiser £3.

I've used the pink grapefruit version before and that's been fine as far as I recall, this tube seems much tinier but a thicker cream so maybe it's better?

Most of my face was just obscenely dehydrated and it took a few rounds of moisturiser to address it.

My forehead is still dry and the rest of my face was getting greasy so I am only applying it on my forehead now.

After I applied it I tried the 150ml Nivea derma wash £2.75 that is targeted at impure skin and it's just clear and a medium consistency that rinses off easily.

Afterwards my face felt as though it had a deep treatment done which was refreshing. It's not scented that much and the lil it is, is very faint and generic.

My face was definitely beginning to heal and soften but what really counts is time and a few days later, I will really be able to tell if it's an efficient cleanser.

Lastly we have the 60ml Pink Clay mask and I didn't realise how small it was. I normally get a 100ml product.

This time I thought I was getting a bundle deal as it said x2 but nope it was crazy marketing about claiming to be doubly precise at improving complexions.

Anyway it cost £3.50 which is a bit steep for such a tiny thing, pictures are up on Twitter but new items are fun to use.

This was actually tinted pink, cute and was a thick mud texture but I only used a lil bit all over my face.

The instructions which I gave to Mama to read for me as I couldn't see the idiotic white tiny writing was to leave it for about 15 minutes.

And I followed that because my face is a mess. It was really difficult to remove it, water didn't cut it.

I think it's the first time I've struggled to wash off a mask so I grabbed a wet wipe and had to wet it and really scrub to make it disappear.

Afterwards my face felt smooth and polished, aside from my forehead, the sides of my nose and a bit of my cheek.

I'm going to have to repeat the processes throughout this weekend (Friday 4th) at the moment of writing this.

The mask is supposed to give a brighter, hydrating finish. I'm not sure about the illumination but it's definitely improved from being bumpy and rough.

It has an unusual perfume sweet scent which is not typical but I love beauty stuff that smells nice so that doesn't bother me.

It's Saturday night and I always continue the pampering regime all weekend but this time I left the face wash on underneath and then applied the face mask.

It seems a bit tough squeezing out the mask but it spreads easily.

I wasn't concentrating on the time, I was chatting to Mama and sipping Shloer Rose, I love that drink, so the mask was left on maybe half an hour.

I grabbed the wipes again but this time, it came off much easier. My face is glowing but my forehead remains scaly.

I don't want to do another moisturiser round, maybe before bed. The weather here has been rainy and sunny.

We might have breakfast out locally tomorrow morning, I guess it depends how we feel.

I like surprising her, just got her 2x salines so she doesn't have to go into town to get them.

She's having her leg treatment done soon and hopefully the pain will subside.

#BlogLife111 - Belated beautification

I still feel a lil miffed around mama and it brings up a long of painful memories of the past but she doesn't seem to be able to acknowledge her actions so meh..

It's just one of those awful things that I have to try and get past. I was wiped out yesterday so by 10pm I just went to bed which is weirdly early for me.

I slept well until 6.30am and just took my time starting all the preparations. It's not often I have an abundance of time on my hands so I decided to choose my outfit carefully and lay out my makeup.

I went with black trousers, a long black top underneath and then a red/black fancy shiny satiny top over it. Very feminine and flowy.

I did a mix of chocolate and pink lipgloss and for the eyes, I did a dark and light purple blend. I even put on foundation. I went full on makeup because it was a belated birthday pedicure/massage/brows day.

The weather looked nippy and dicey to start with but I didn't want to walk with a jacket and in the end, the sun was shining brightly and warmly anyhow.

For the first time in ages, I beat mama and I arrived before her so started my luxurious pedicure and luckily she was really gentle so no painful movements at all.

The massage chair was working the tension out of my body and I was in heaven with the leg/foot massage and then she finally turned up.

She overslept so I just went ahead and got my brows and they turned out soooo good. This is how I like them, thin and shapely.

Then we went off to lunch in our favourite cafe. It's a shame they don't have an extensive dessert menu but I ordered my usual chicken salad and the waitress was laughing.

I said I know, I'm sooo boring ha. I always get the same thing but it's really good, we had not sat inside, since the lockdown so she was saying that it was good to see us :)

The beautician always ends up removing my eye makeup and I had just wiped my lippy off, when he walked in..... Yum. He was tall, broad shouldered and just a beautiful man.

I don't even like facial hair but he had a beard and a moustache but it was neat. I briefly checked him out and thought oh my.....

Why did you sit so far away? Ha!! I promise I wasn't staring madly at him. Our eyes only met briefly, as he was just gazing around.

He didn't give me a second look but I may have given him 1 or 2 more glances.... I was trying to eat so that, I didn't have mess on my face..

But damn I wish I still had a full cute made up look but no matter because mama was with me and we were talking but not as much as usual.

I may have been distracted and still irritated with her but it was a great day nonetheless. I did eat really slowly and I'm still unsure if it was because of the hot tottie or maybe I was starting to get full :D